1. MY HEART BLEEDS

I have sinned I have transgressed
To these laws I must confess I curb my ways I do my best
And I will suffer like the rest
Am I lost to history ?
Do I compromise my dreams and lay these burdens at my feet
For the world will shudder when I speak
My heart bleeds. My heart bleeds. My heart bleeds
Welcome to pain
I must answer for myself
A new fate I must compel for I had gained what men desire
My code was different to conspire
Hear the details of my crime
Then behold my sister's cry though I try to hide the shame within
I must wear my secrets on my skin


2. DEFIANCE

I dislike what I feel, I dislike what I know
For I'm up in the air, and I'm out of control
And I hate what I touch, for my will is submerged
Try to dispense with my fears, as I choke on my words
So bait a trap with violent visions

In bold defiance, I thrive on the chaos
Through the first dilemma, my smiles my umbrella
In bold defiance, I ignore the pain,
To effect my rescue, from the pale and grey

At the sound of the bell, upon which you strike
And drawn into black, for we all float down here
And where are my shoes, and where are my clothes
For in this beautiful world, I have nowhere to go
So bait a trap with violent visions


3. THE GUIDE

Milk me for my labour, cut fast servants bands
For vacuous religions violate my peace
Mayhem fills the distance, pins you down with guilt
And those who are most vocal fill their bellies sweet
Their thriving fortune rises, swelled with teals of gold
They keep us out of reach ; we do as we are told

I'm the one to guide ; the light beyond will set you free
Sifting through debris, ambling through the dirt & steel

Flirting with silence, empty words will clatter free
Disentangled visions that exist for you & me

Take from one another, give unto ourselves
Then take from one another give to someone else
If love be your salvation, hoist it from the deep
While Gods demanding mistress, sings the world to sleep


4. WHAT ABOUT ME

What have I done, what is this morning ?
The arc of the brightness blinds me
What are these thoughts, and cumbersome footsteps ?
The arc of the dream that binds me

What have I been, this flicker of light,
An island of gardens that feeds you
What if I burn, swallowing doctrines ?
Does painting this picture feed you ?

My brother my child and my council
Whose cynical father's eyes see ?
What colour these memories might be
What about me, what about me, what about me !

What do I need, only my conscience
Forgiveness is all you gave me
Vast is the wave, I am my demon
Where is the dark that folds me ?
Why should I care, what's piercing my heart ?
Bring on the fools that bind me so
What if I drown, water is yielding
Interrogate my own sanity


5. FALL AWAY

Weight, you're not damned, you're not doomed
By this pained illusion
Where are your steps, do you feed ?
On a scarabs blood

Fall away your struggle,
This has a name
Where is your identity ?

Say, you're not wise, to these laws
Of your Gods and men
search, for your wealth, in this land
Are we all so driven ?

Life, it is stained, it's obscene
Serve my appetite
I cannot live, with this yoke.


6. NOT IN MY NAME

Gospel comes the doctrine is the truth
So you will lay your life and thus
The moral guardian will arise
In your defence you say that God is on your side
So with your sword & with your shield
And with your appetite for madness multiplied
Your empty death is glorified

But not in my name
So many are displaced
To honour the regime
Your children suffer
But not in my name, not in my name, not in my name

October guns are blazing, while your city lay in flames
And so ones judgement is abandoned
Allied weapons poise their aim
And now the nation comes alive, their burning flags of infidels
And in the cells & in the dungeons
Interlocking forms will shiver

Those who are defiant, volunteer to do your bidding
So they fly and mournful cries that are ignored & panic thrives
You see the rooftop of the world has crumbled in to your delight
I see that you embrace the dark
You are the bastards that will bring an endless night


7. WAYSIDE

Those angry teenage years, were there for you to grow
And those shadows of desire, were there for you to be

When you. Know this you will not construct yourself a living hell
Wounded, binding, go & fight this revolution in your head

Rebellion is escape. Rebellion sets you free
But the tones of havoc cry, your insecurities

Angel, of guidance, you say you hate life
Consumed by the dark side
Slip by the wayside,

And now you're locked inside, the windows hammered shut
The spirits dull your brain ; the walls will dull your mind

Banished, outward, back to that place you have no wish to be
Angered, outbursts your belly cries for all your melted dreams


8. I WANNA KILL

Sovereign man defend your crown
Innocence is damned by chains
Frightened men will bare their arms
And cowards kiss the blade
Barbie dolls of Halloween
Anger hot breath fairy tail
Petrified by asian smiles
And cowards kiss the blade

But why do I wanna kill
I don't know, I don't know
Why do I wanna kill ?
I don't know, I don't know
Why do I wanna kill ?
The guts that I wanna spill
Why do I wanna kill ?

Enginereed & panic grows
The pictures wide the cannons blow
Pallid face on lush green space
And cowards kiss the blade
Rise the fury twitch with fear
Quarter arsenal brings them down
Spill his blood my hands are clean
And cowards kiss the blade
Unchain my soul


9. MONSTER

I could be a monster, I could be an angel
I see naked women, who are vessels of my pleasure
Awake my brother's devil ; they are building him a gallows
They are feeding him my blood
He is not troubled by his heart

I could be a monster, I could be an angel
Curses foat around me, and damn my very soul
Pleasures lost in anger, though I' tempted by this pale white skin
So I could be an angel, but there's so much fun in sin

Learning him the language, by some fare & brightened star
Honour him with human shape, when 12 winters have passed
He made my home a desert ; there are creatures at my bed
He handed me a snake instead of fish,
He handed me a stone instead of bread.

Mother fed him anger, she said to honour god
Father fed him anger, he said to honour God
Lies, all those lies, all those lies, all those lies


10. SWALLOWED MY LIFE

I've, this disease, makes me quake, when I breathe
I'm to endure, in this clair, runs me through
I must depend on my nurse ; to wheel me around is a curse
Lord, how I loathe this disease, do I convulse when I sneeze ?

There's no control, of my limbs, when I walk
Scorched is the earth, in my room, when I fall
Insidious ripped out my soul, can't even wriggle my toes
Lord, how I loathe this disease, do I convulse when I sneeze ?

Something swallowed my life,
I won't fly to the moon
I'm on a diet of prunes

I do not feel as I should, shurs my speech
Time took revenge, like some greek tragedy

It's not fair that I must fear injections
It's my health that is now under question
Oh my lord, what have you done to me ?
Can't you see I'm on my bended knees ?
I'm on my bended knees


11. GREATEST WEAPON

Wait, do you halt the search for truth
For those misunderstood
Dissention will not cut the path to reason
Blades will pierce the dragon's flesh,
& wear a mask that smiles
What sympatht, not all men beg for mercy

Invest in the idea, democracy will reign
Or languish in some jail
They come to steel your brides, with sceptres by their sides
Is this what you are told, then your weapon is your word

Once you fill a vacant mind, with intent & hostile deeds
It then becomes a breeding ground for madness
Now you hear the crystal break, you bravely come to fight
Your masters will then feed upon the monsters