1. SUPPOSED TO BE

Tell me who I’m supposed to be now
Make me better
I can’t stay halfway dead forever

Can you fix this, am I too far gone?
I’ve never done this before
Don’t know if I’m ready but I wanna move on
And I’ve never said that before

I don’t wanna be stuck, I don’t wanna be crazy
This is the way that my sadness made me
Better come quick, yeah better come save me

I don’t wanna be stuck, I don’t wanna be crazy
This is the way that my sadness made me
Better come quick, yeah better come save me

Tell me, tell me

Tell me who I’m supposed to be now
Make me better
I can’t stay halfway dead forever
I fear now
There’s not much left of me
When you take the sick away
Who am I supposed to be?
Who am I supposed to be?

Recovery time, a condition like mine
What are we talking here?
Getting so close, I can taste the hope
But I still feel the fear

I don’t wanna be stuck, I don’t wanna be crazy
This is the way that my sadness made me
Better come quick, yeah better come save me

I don’t wanna be stuck, I don’t wanna be crazy
This is the way that my sadness made me
Better come quick, yeah better come save me

Tell me who I’m supposed to be now
Make me better
I can’t stay halfway dead forever
I fear now
There’s not much left of me
When you take the sick away
Who am I supposed to be?
Who am I supposed to be?

For years, this is all I’ve known, this has had my heart, this has been my home
And now I’m scared to lose myself, scared of letting go

For years, this is all I’ve known, this has had my heart, this has been my home
And now I’m scared to lose myself, scared of letting go

Tell me who I’m supposed to be now
Make me better
I can’t stay halfway dead forever
I fear now
There’s not much left of me
When you take the sick away
Who am I supposed to be?
Tell me who I’m supposed to be
Tell me who I’m supposed to...


2. DEMONS

Ashes, ashes, dust to dust, and
It doesn't hurt enough yet, does it, does it?
I'm gonna make you feel it
Gonna make you want it
Ashes, ashes, we all fall down
Half of you's still underground
I'm gonna make you feel it
Gonna make you want it

Don't you want to feel something in those heavy little veins of yours?
Clock's ticking now, get your body off the floor
This is your addiction, so you can play the victim
But you can't make me play along

Oh oh oh, fight back your demons
Don't let them take you down, down
Oh oh oh, scream like you mean it
Make me believe you now, now

Ashes, ashes, in the air
Remains of dead dreams everywhere
I'm gonna make you feel it
Gonna make you want it
Ashes, ashes, could be you
But you're still beating aren't you
I'm gonna make you feel it
I'm gonna make you want it

Aren't you gonna do something with that pretty little heart of yours?
Get up, move, get your body off the floor
This world is twisted, it's the human condition
But you don't have to play along

Pain didn't change me
I changed my pain
Pain didn't change me
I changed my pain

Oh oh oh, fight back your demons
Don't let them take you down, down
Oh oh oh, scream like you mean it
Make me believe you now, now

(Make me believe you now)

You didn't come this far just to get this far
You didn't come this far just to get this far
You didn't come this far just to get this far
You didn't come this far just to get this far

You didn't come this far just to get this far
You didn't shoot for the moon just to hit the stars
You didn't work this hard just to fade to black
Cuts me in half to see you hold back
And you'll know when you're lost 'cause I won't let you sleep through the night
I won't let you sleep through the night
I promise you I'll be here screaming at you
Baby fight baby fight baby fight

Oh oh oh, fight back your demons
Don't let them take you down, down
Oh oh oh, scream like you mean it
Make me believe you now, now

Oh oh oh, fight back your demons
Don't let them take you down, down
Oh oh oh, scream like you mean it
Make me believe you now, now

(Make me believe you now, now)


3. PULSE

Do your thing but you oughta know
We just make it up as we go
No point in stressing, we're not impressing them anymore
They're so scripted, they're so predictable
Like oh oh

Do your thing but you oughta know
We just make it up as we go
No point in stressing, we're not impressing them anymore
We've unscripted, now we do what we want
Like ah ah

Stuck us in boxes that's where you want us
Cardboard is boring, we brought our matches
Stuck us in boxes that's where you want us
Cardboard is boring, look how it burns

Tell me, do you have a pulse?
Do you have a pulse?
Do you have a p-p-p-pulse?
Tell me, do you even know?
Do you even know?
Do you even kn-kn-kn-know?

Tell me, do you have a pulse?
Do you have a pulse?
Do you have a p-p-p-pulse?
Tell me, do you even know?
Do you even know?
Do you even kn-kn-kn-know?

Do your thing, go numb it down
Try to make them all love you now
You hold your breath like you're second guessing, what you put out
Cross your heart and hope to dilute it down
Like oh oh

Do your thing, go live a lie
Play it nice and go run and hide
Turn down the pulsing, the pulsing
You know you feel inside
Till you burst and finally do what you want
Like ah ah

Stuck us in boxes that's where you want us
Cardboard is boring, we brought our matches
Stuck us in boxes that's where you want us
Cardboard is boring, look how it burns

Tell me, do you have a pulse?
Do you have a pulse?
Do you have a p-p-p-pulse?
Tell me, do you even know?
Do you even know?
Do you even kn-kn-kn-know?

Tell me, do you have a pulse?
Do you have a pulse?
Do you have a p-p-p-pulse?
Tell me, do you even know?
Do you even know?
Do you even kn-kn-kn-know?

Oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh

So tell me, do you have a pulse?
Do you have a pulse?
Do you have a p-p-p-pulse?
Tell me, do you even know?
Do you even know?
Do you even kn-kn-kn-know?

So tell me, do you have a pulse?
Do you have a pulse?
Do you have a p-p-p-pulse?
Tell me, do you even know?
Do you even know?
Do you even kn-kn-kn-know?

Tell me, do you have a pulse?
Do you have a pulse?
Do you have a p-p-p-pulse?
Tell me, do you even know?
Do you even know?
Do you even kn-kn-kn-know?


4. THE MAGIC

My seams are breaking
It's not as fun as it sounds
I've got a whole world inside me
Begging to come out
I'm tired of waking
Only to numb back down
Playing hide and seek with all my dreams,
They'll never find me now.

Imagine the magic that might be under the madness
Between the mundane automatic and the silicone sadness
O-oh, can you imagine the magic?

Imagine the magic that might be under the madness
Between the mundane automatic and the silicone sadness
Tragic, can you imagine the magic?

When you close your eyes
Somewhere are you still alive
Or do you feel, do you feel like you're dead inside?
When you close your eyes
Somehow does your heart still beat
Or are you lost like me?
When you close your eyes

Imagine the magic that might be under the madness
Can you imagine the magic that might be under the madness?

What if I'm empty (What if I'm empty)
What if there's nothing left (What if there's nothing left)
Don't want to know the answer
Would rather stay here anyway
So I pretend like it's all I got, wo-o-oah
While the hurricane inside my skin threatens that it's not

Imagine the magic that might be under the madness
Between the mundane automatic and the silicone sadness
Tragic, can you imagine the magic?

When you close your eyes
Somewhere are you still alive
Or do you feel, do you feel like you're dead inside?
When you close your eyes
Somehow does your heart still beat
Or are you lost like me?
When you close your eyes

Imagine the magic that might be under the madness
Can you imagine the magic that might be under the madness?

Bigger than you even know
Brighter than you're letting on
You don't like to let it show
Can't hold back forever though
Can't hold back forever though

Bigger than we even know
Brighter than we're letting on
We don't like to let it show
Can't hold back forever though
Can't hold back forever though

When you close your eyes
Somewhere are you still alive
Or do you feel, do you feel like you're dead inside?
When you close your eyes
Somehow does your heart still beat
Or are you lost like me?
When you close your eyes

Imagine the magic that might be under the madness
Can you imagine the magic that might be under the madness?


5. HAPPY HURTS

Happy hurts sometimes, oh
Blame it on the monsters in my mind, oh
I've been getting better at slowly getting worse, oh
What's wrong with me when happy hurts?
Happy hurts

This on again, off again tempermental affection
For my darling depression is making me go mad
I hear there's a fine line between crazy and sad
But I can't tell the difference up close
There's a lot of us you know ill and undiagnosed
But I don't need a piece of paper to tell me what I already know
I'm not alright, for tonight, can we let that be alright?
Pick up the battle again in the morning light

And I'm fighting so hard to come out of the dark
Trying to turn off the night, finally let in the light
Trying to make my misery just a piece of my history
A little less victim, a little more victory

Happy hurts sometimes, oh oh
Blame it on the monsters in my mind, oh oh
I keep getting better at slowly getting worse, oh
What's wrong with me when happy hurts?
Happy hurts

Today I feel okay guess it was all just in my head
I just need to try harder I guess
Yeah everyone else in the world seems to be doing alright
Yeah, I'm alright for tonight
Can we let the pain and the happy mix
Can the two coexist? The beauty next to the mess
Because I swear I have them both already beating in my chest
If that makes me crazy the numbers don't lie
But I don't call that crazy I call it being alive

And I'm fighting so hard to come out of the dark
Trying to turn off the night, finally let in the light
Trying to make my misery just a piece of my history
A little less victim, please

Happy hurts sometimes, oh oh
Blame it on the monsters in my mind, oh oh
I keep getting better at slowly getting worse, oh
What's wrong with me when happy hurts?
Happy hurts

If I had to pick between the way that I am
And the way that everybody else seems to pretend
I wouldn't consider it, not for even a second
Between psycho and sanity, it's not even a question
My favorite parts of myself seem to make the least sense,
All the cracks in my skin they just let the light in
My favorite parts of myself make the least sense
All the cracks in my skin let the light in

Happy hurts sometimes, oh oh
All I want is the one thing I can't find
I keep getting better at slowly getting worse, oh
What's wrong with me when happy hurts?

What's wrong with me when happy hurts?

I keep getting better at slowly getting worse, oh
What's wrong with me when happy hurts?
Happy hurts


6. YOU WERE YOUNG

You were wrong all along, tried to break me make me strong
You were wrong all along, tried to break me make me strong

I thought we were one and the same
Us against them and their dumb little game
Well I guess I got played
Head in the sand and my heart on stage
Missed it, oh so twisted,
Going to my grave all up tight fisted
Never mind I'm gonna be fine
Too much on the line to sit and cry

Oh, oh, oh like don't you think I know
This is not the end of me, this is not the end of me
Oh, oh, oh like don't you think I know
This is not the end of me, this is not the end of me

You were wrong all along, tried to break me make me strong
You were wrong all along, tried to break me make me strong
You were wrong all along, tried to break me make me strong
Try to break me, try to break me
Make me

I don't really know what to say
Trying to keep track but everything's changing
And ain't it strange
You and me thought we'd be keeping the world in flames
But all we did was burn it all down
Burn it all down
Burn it all down

Oh, oh, oh like don't you think I know
This is not the end of me, this is not the end of me
Oh, oh, oh like don't you think I know
This is not the end of me, this is not the end of me

You were wrong all along, tried to break me make me strong
You were wrong all along, tried to break me make me strong
You were wrong all along, tried to break me make me strong
Try to break me, try to break me
Make me

I don't go down easy
I don't bow out quiet
I never lost a war
Unless I didn't fight it

I don't go down easy
I don't bow out quiet
I never lost a war
Unless I didn't fight it

Pick my brain, pick your poison
If I'm to blame then I ain't the only one
If I'm on the offense well I'm not sorry
You haven't exactly given me reasons regarding
The way that you snap me in half, the way you stab me in the back
The way that you front to my face and keep putting me in place
Aw, but I ain't under your thumb, I ain't stuck in your shadow
I'm on top of the world up here fighting my battles

And I shoot to kill
I play to win and baby I will

You were wrong all along, tried to break me make me strong
You were wrong all along, tried to break me make me strong
You were wrong all along, tried to break me make me strong
Try to break me, try to break me

I don't go down easy
I don't bow out quiet
I never lost a war
Unless I didn't fight it

I don't go down easy
I don't bow out quiet
I never lost a war
Unless I didn't fight it


7. TOO LOUD

Hey girl, don't listen to your mother
When she tells you you ain't pretty, need to look more like the others
Hey boy, don't let your daddy tell you
If you don't get it together that you're gonna be a failure

Let's stop letting everyone
Tell us how to feel
Tell us how to dream
Let's stop letting everyone
Tell us how to live
Tell us who to be

Oh no no am I getting too loud?
Am I getting too loud? Am I getting too loud?
Oh no no am I getting in your head?
Am I getting in your head? Getting in your head?

Oh no no am I getting too loud?
Am I getting too loud? Am I getting too loud?
Oh no no am I getting in your head?
Am I getting in your head? Getting in your head?

You know they're coming for your fire
When they try to push you lower but you keep on going higher
You're a flame, and they all wanna water you down
Wanna water you down down

Let's stop letting everyone
Tell us how to feel
Tell us how to dream
Let's stop letting everyone
Tell us how to live
Tell us who to be

Oh no no am I getting too loud?
Am I getting too loud? Am I getting too loud?
Oh no no am I getting in your head?
Am I getting in your head? Getting in your head?

Oh no no am I getting too loud?
Am I getting too loud? Am I getting too loud?
Oh no no am I getting in your head?
Am I getting in your head? Getting in your head?

Gonna make you listen
Gonna make you move
You can't ignore the truth inside you
Gonna make you listen
Gonna make you move
You can't ignore the truth inside you

Oh no no am I getting too loud?
Am I getting too loud? Am I getting too loud?
Oh no no am I getting in your head?
Am I getting in your head? Getting in your head?

Oh no no am I getting too loud?
Am I getting too loud? Am I getting too loud?
Oh no no am I getting in your head?
Am I getting in your head? Getting in your head?


8. WAR

You and I go deep like water
You and I run red like blood
You know my darkest secrets
I know what you're made of
Drip drop the rain is falling
I hear it all could flood
One rainy night away
From losing all you love

It's a brilliant game you play
When you lock yourself away
And you make me fight for you, you, you

I can't keep you above water
I can't drag your soul to shore
Don't know how to fix a sinking ship
Or win a losing war
It's a heavy load to carry
And I can't hold on much more
On the surface it looks perfect
Underneath it's just a perfect storm

I've so much more to tell you
We're running out of time
It's dark and dangerous treading
Oceans in your mind
Up all night, I held your hand
While you wandered in the dark
You know I can't make you better
When all you want to be is lost

It's a brilliant game you play
When you lock yourself away
And you make me fight for you, oh, fight for you

I can't keep you above water
I can't drag your soul to shore
Don't know how to fix a sinking ship
Or win a losing war
It's a heavy load to carry
And I can't hold on much more
On the surface it looks perfect
Underneath it's just a perfect storm

I can't survive for both of us
I can't hold back the waves
This ocean isn't big enough for both of us
I'll let the water carry me away
I'll let the water carry me away

I can't keep you above water
I can't drag your soul to shore
Don't know how to fix a sinking ship
Or win a losing war
It's a heavy load to carry
And I can't hold on much more
On the surface it looks perfect
Underneath it's just a perfect storm

I let the water carry me down
I let the water carry me down
On the surface it looks perfect
Underneath it's just a perfect storm

I let the water carry me down
I let the water carry me down
On the surface it looks perfect
Underneath it's just a perfect storm


9. UNDER THE KNIFE

This is the song I'm too scared to write
But some of you may need it tonight

Oh there you were, heart made of glass
Fragile little thing, shattered too fast
Tried to pick the pieces up, up, up
And that's the way you first got cut, cut, cut
Devil drew you in, you didn't let it show
Didn't want the others to ever have to know
That you were getting hooked on up, up, up
And all you had to do was cut, cut, cut

You carved a special place for your pain
So it came back to hurt you every night
You closed your eyes and wished it all away
Until you disappeared under the knife

You knew the deal, no one gives a damn
Just another needy kid, sob story in hand
Keep your secrets covered up, up, up
We don't need another cut, cut, cut
But you couldn't hide, a heart made of glass
You put yourself together with all the strength you had
You were finally fed up, up, up
Finally had to scream enough-nough-nough

You carved a special place for your pain
So it came back to hurt you every night
You closed your eyes and wished it all away
Until you disappeared under the knife

Listen, I know it's simplified from the other side
It's easy to gloss over all the messy reasons why
And it's easy to forget where you've been
I guess that's what the scars are for, huh?
When we were fifteen, we wouldn't dare let that shit be seen
But now it seems mutilation's gone mainstream
I see you at my shows, scarred up from head to toe
Like there's no point even trying not to let it show
Cause we all know, emo kids like to hurt themselves
Too many feelings, and not enough self control
And I mean does this mess with any of the rest of ya?
It's an epidemic and we're cool with it don't question it
But it bothers me, our scars are currency by which we're measured
Like let the record show who let it slip and who held it together
Cutters and burners and honorable mentions
Posers who still cut themselves up for the attention

I don't care your intentions, I just want you to know
My self-hatred never took me where I wanted to go
At the end of the day, you know I still had to face
That I can pick at the pain, but I can't cut it away
And you know what else I can't do, is give you ten good reasons not to
I've racked my brain for clever sayings of all the things you ought to do
But you know I think if there was something I could say
They'd have thrown it on a brochure and sent you on your way

So I'll keep doing what I always do
Drag my heart to the piano and make it sing for you
I'll keep doing what I always do
Drag my heart to the piano and let it sing for you...

Drag my heart to the piano and let it sing for you


10. HERE WE ARE

Why are we still sad
Why are we still sad
When we gonna wake up happy
When we gonna wake up happy, happy
Why are we still sick
Tell me what I'm missing in this
Why we gotta hurt so badly
Why we gotta hurt so badly, badly

Thought by now we would all be
All grown up, finally free
Living our lives
Thought we'd fly

But here we are
Bruised and battle scarred
All our beating hearts
Here we are, here we are
Come this far
Fighting for our lives
Holding on tonight
Here we are, here we are

Here we are
Here we are

We're not where we thought
But we're still standing tall
What's it gonna take to break us
What's it gonna take to make us wake up

Thought by now we would all be
All grown up, finally free
Living our lives
Thought we'd fly

But here we are
Bruised and battle scarred
All our beating hearts
Here we are, here we are
Come this far
Fighting for our lives
Holding on tonight
Here we are, here we are

Here we are
Here we are

Didn't think we'd get this far
Didn't know if we'd survive
Odds against us, here we are
Can you believe we're still alive?

Didn't think we'd get this far
Didn't know if we'd survive
Odds against us, here we are
Can you believe we're still alive?

Here we are
Bruised and battle scarred
All our beating hearts
Here we are, here we are
Come this far
Fighting for our lives
Holding on tonight
Here we are, here we are

Here we are


11. GET WELL II

Oh I need my pain
Don't take it away
My sad makes me special

Do you want me to write you another sad song
Would you like that?
Do you want me to tell you we'll never belong
Would you like that?
Cuz the truth is we're no different than the others
Wearing our sob stories like colors
The truth is we like it, we like it here
We're better off than we let on I fear

Does it make you sick, the way that we live?
We say we're over it but we-

Can't undo the scars
All up and down our hearts
Can't forget how it felt when it all fell apart
And we talk a big game like we wanna get well
In our prison made of pain
Only fooling ourselves

Oh I need my pain
Don't take it away
My sad makes me special

I want to scream my sick soul alive
I want to look you dead in the eyes
Did you think you were the only one?
The only one
The only one
The only one
The only one
We're all holding on trying to make sense of
The insanity that we once loved
We've cut up our lives trying put down the knife
Trying to pick up the fight

Does it make you sick, the way that we live?
We say we're over it but we-

Can't undo the scars
All up and down our hearts
Can't forget how it felt when it all fell apart
And we talk a big game like we wanna get well
In our prison made of pain
Only fooling ourselves

Oh I need my pain
Don't take it away
My sad makes me special

Oh I need my pain
Don't take it away
My sad makes me special

Cause the truth is we're no different than the others
The truth is we like it, we like it here
We're better off than we let on I fear

Can't undo the scars
All up and down our hearts
Can't forget how it felt when it all fell apart
And we talk a big game like we wanna get well
In our prison made of pain
Only fooling ourselves

Can't undo the scars
All up and down our hearts
Can't forget how it felt when it all fell apart
And we talk a big game like we wanna get well
In our prison made of pain
Only fooling ourselves


12. INVINCIBLE

I am, I am invincible
I am, I am invincible
You ain't seen nothing yet

In the dark, in the mess
All my life, I have been
Folded up, holding back
Don't know how we live like that
From the flame, I emerge
With the strength, I have earned

I belong to the night
But I, I learned to survive
I know I gotta fight the feeling inside

I am, I am invincible
Uh uh, unkillable
I am, I am invincible
You ain't seen nothing yet

You ain't seen nothing yet
You ain't seen nothing yet

When the dark comes for me
I won't run, I will scream
I'm stronger than I used to be oh

I belong to the night
But I, I learned to survive
I know I gotta fight the feeling inside

I am, I am invincible
Uh uh, unkillable
I am, I am invincible
You ain't seen nothing yet

You ain't seen nothing yet
You ain't seen nothing yet

I don't throw out nice words
To make me feel better about what I've endured
You better believe I'm not that naive
You cut me up yeah, you bet I'll bleed
So invincible, maybe not quite true
I keep saying it 'til it gets through
'Til I start acting like I can do
Whatever the heck I put my mind too

You live like you're invisible
Don't you wanna be invincible

Don't you wanna be invincible
Don't you wanna be invincible

I am, I am invincible
Uh uh, unkillable
I am, I am invincible
You ain't seen nothing yet
I am, I am invincible (don't you wanna be)
Uh uh, unkillable (don't you wanna be)
I am, I am invincible (don't you wanna be)
You ain't seen nothing yet


13. YOU CAN'T KILL US

I swear to God at night when I close my eyes,
I can still see this little lost girl inside.
And I don't know how to help her, I don't know what to do.
Supposed to have this figured out but I'm so confused.
For years I cried myself to sleep every night.
Lived one day at a time, trying to just stay alive.
And I knew people had it worse, but that didn't make me better.
Took all I had inside just to hold myself together.
But I knew I couldn't stop, kept hoping one day,
Maybe I'd make it to a stage and tell you it's all okay.
And that I love you. Even if I haven't met you yet.
Hold on, stay strong and never forget

We've been lost, been to the bottom.
Beaten up, torn and forgotten.
Still we fight, we will survive.
Can't kill the fire we feel inside.
We've been burned, drained and depleted.
Left alone, we're not defeated.
Still we fight, we will survive.
Can't kill the fire we feel inside.

You can't, you can't kill us
You can't, you can't kill us

Everyday I felt a little less pain inside.
But at that rate I knew I'd hurt until the day I died.
I refused to let the darkness, have the last say.
So when it came to call my name, I had to run the other way.
Maybe that's what it takes, you have to tell the pain no.
Have to let the sick parts of your heart finally go.
Make room for the light, let it pull you in close.
And if you're ever feeling low, I think you know where to go.

We've been lost, been to the bottom.
Beaten up, torn and forgotten.
Still we fight, we will survive.
Can't kill the fire we feel inside.
We've been burned, drained and depleted.
Left alone, we're not defeated.
Still we fight, we will survive.
Can't kill the fire we feel inside.

You can't, you can't kill us
You can't, you can't kill us

One day we're gonna wake up, we're gonna be alright.
We'll look back and be happy that we kept ourselves alive.
We'll honor where we came from, see what the hurt was for.
But we don't let our past hold us hostage anymore.
Cause we got more to give, more to live, more to be.
More to who we are than our broken history.
Like an army we all know it's not all better yet.
But we hold on, stay strong, and never forget

You can't, you can't kill us
You can't, you can't kill us

We've been lost, been to the bottom.
Beaten up, torn and forgotten.
Still we fight, we will survive.
Can't kill the fire we feel inside.
We've been burned, drained and depleted.
Left alone, we're not defeated.
Still we fight, we will survive.
Can't kill the fire we feel inside.

You can't, you can't kill us
You can't, you can't kill us
You can't, you can't kill us
You can't, you can't kill us