1. SUMMERS LOST

Lie to me say you were wrong
Like you have too many times
And I'll believe it's not my fault
Like i have too much time

So hear me now boy
Stay alive 'cause that's the way it should go
Would your maker have opened your eyes
If he'd preferred them closed?
To feel the weight of summers lost
I'd love to have you here
And all the times we've ever crossed
It was just to keep you here

To try to be something you are not
Like i have for you and promised too
I know we'll get through this and won't
Let you do it, so stop!
And make believe that i'm not wrong
'cause if i was
We'd all be gone!

Nights without end seem to bleed into days
Try to forget that it turned out this way
I wear the mark of the permanent stain
Not accidentally, i cursed god's good name
I am still mortified yet believed in a way
That when my days are done
We'll be in the same plane

With winters mean brimstone i set sail for Euphrates
All I can say is it's a god damned shame
Just to feel the pain of summer's loss i'd love to have new years
And all the times i've missed my loss
It's just to keep you
Just to keep you
Here with me


2. TEN TON BRICK

A ten ton brick was making me sick
Breakin' my bones with the weight of it
The weight would grow with each new soul
Buried fine lies make big, black holes

And who am i supposed to be?
Not like you'd give a fuck about me?
But who am I supposedly?
When I'm finally done?
But I'm finally done with the decisions of my former thoughts
And all that i may have loved
Yeah, i'm finally done with the descriptional
And i don't mind sayin' i'm to blame!

When atlas slipped i lost my grip
Yet, i didn't think it could turn into this
But i was told by two sweet crows
Nobody feels what nobody knows

And who am i supposed to be?
Everything good was taken from me
And who am i supposedly?
I was overcome...
But i'm finally done with the divisions of my former thoughts
Although i may have lost
I'm finally done with the dissention now i don't mind sayin'
I don't mind sayin i'm to blame!

Oh, this ten ton brick would treat me like shit
This little piggy licked others lips
And so defined, who was i
But it won't encumber me.

'cause i'm finally done with the positions of my former thoughts
And all that it may have cost
But i'm finally done with my decisions
Love and now i don't mind sayin'
Don't mind sayin' you're to blame...

When you moved you moved me
When you move you move me
Move!
"nothing comes from nothing" must mean something in the end
To purify the means,
I mean to break you,
Need to have you,
Need to take this back,
But taking is just forgiving if you're at the other end
I won't pretend to know your feelings
I could never break the chain
I command you to move


3. AFTERMATH

Somebody take me away from this darkness
Somebody take this from me
If anyone's out there
If anyone hears me
Somebody take this from me

I was beginning to think i'd lost my mind
Fell upon it hard and fell upon my hardest times
But the way she lit the room at night
Cast the shadows to their gloom and i
Still dream of your perfume
I would do anything to be with you

Edelweiss... angel why... comfort me
From so far away
Angel white... dream of mine... come for me
From so far away
Angel eyes... sweet love of mine... come back to me
Though so far away
Please don't cry
There's still time
I won't change
So far away
Please don't cry
I won't...


4. ABUSE OF SID

You want him, you need him
It's so hard to please him
You just don't dare
And inside you're burning
With some secret yearning
You must not care (still won't you)
Help me, i'm flawed, desperate
Angry with God
'cause he just won't care
Oh excuse me, you're mourning
How calloused and boring
I brush your hair
And see your face... empty smile...
I touch that place, and all the while...
(you know it won't stop)

So you made an excuse to confuse the issue
What makes you think that I'll care about you?
When you lay on the ground 'till I tell you I'm through
ANd he'll do what he'll do
When he'll do it to you?

And all the while, he's been using you,
Yes, all the while... he's abusing you...
So it finally dawned on me yesterday morning,
I just can't stare
And swallow the words that your hero's perverted,
On what we share
I'll kill him, i'll beat him, the cycle's repeating,
I hold thin arrogance
Still won't you hold him and trust him
You love him so much
And he still won't care
To see your face...
With an empty smile...
'cause i touched that place on you...
And all the while...

She says it's "it's so good, when it's so good, if this is so good, then it's no good!"
If this is so good, everybody's so good, everybody's so good, when you're no good!

And all the while, he's been using you
Yes, all the while, he's abusing you
With your naked excuse you confuse your misuse
What makes you think I should care what he'll do?
If you lay on the ground 'til he tells you he's through
And he makes up your mind that that's what you should do
'cause all the while you've been using you
Yes, all the while you're abusing you...

He hurts you, mistreats you
Your own mind misleads you
You just won't care
When holes in your face
Can't be covered with makeup
You'll still stay there...


5. ALONE WITH THE SEA

Once there was an old ocean
Where anyone who saw it
Grew old with the sea
So we were terrified of water
And of all the sons and daughters
No one dared to see
On the banks of the coastline
I tracked a bleeding loved one
His blood was mingling
And the saltiest of waters
'cause apparently they faltered
Never again to be seen

So i cry, i tried
I cried, i scry

This old warship has wounds and
It won't sail for nothin'
An old sailor said to me
And i was foolish not to listen
And paid such close conscription
All the lies i believed
"but if you lend me some more labor
And put your name on paper
We just might catch a breeze"
I know now he was not a captain
And because of all my actions
I grow alone with the sea

I have strangely become immune
To the thought of seeing you
And the smell of cheap perfume
With all the liquor i've consumed
There's no more beauty in this world
There's no more beauty in this world

Because i've strangely become immune
To the thought of seeing you
And the smell of cheap perfume
With all the liquor i've consumed
There's no more beauty in this
There's no more beauty in this
There's no more beauty in this world

Because i've strangely become immune
To the thought of seeing you
And the smell of cheap perfume
Is just a ring around the moon
There's no more beauty in this
There's no more beauty in this
There's no more beauty in this world

I try, i cried
I tried, i scry
There's no more beauty in this
There's no more beauty in this
There's no more beauty in this world


6. TALKING TO GOD

Mother is busy, she won't even miss me
And so busy praying and wouldn't see me waiting
I hate all your reasons they just point to Jesus
You can't be awakened if you're not mistaken
And i hate your voice and that fucked up noise
And your cliches and the things that you'd say to me
Where they burned me then, it still seers today
Embedded in a memory that won't change

How can you talk to God [3x]
When you won't talk to me? [repeat]

So i begged you just for a word
That through the day you might have heard and...
She wouldn't listen to my words
Always i'll remember some good times,
Some winters in times when i wasn't too dirty for mud.

When you'd hit your boys in that fucked up voice
On your black days, oh! the things that you'd say
To me when they burned me, yeah they burned me
Oh they burned me, yeah they burned me

So how can you talk to God [3x]
When you won't talk to me?

I know every little word
Of all the things that I have heard
So how can you talk to God
When you won't talk to me?
When he won't talk to me
Someday you will be better than me [2x]
But you won't talk to me.


7. LOADED

All depending on the future of a conflict
Your open-minded muscles never wanted anyone who would deliver such a blow into the system,
Part of you thinks it's over now, but part of you knows that you're a quitter.

You've got yours and i got mine
You got yours and i've got mind
You bought yours and i've got time
You want yours and you want mine now.

Then you start to ask me why
It's an offer that i mind
And you start to ask me twice
As you say your memory's fine
And it's something i should try
But you should try to live your life
When the days keep passing by...

You want me to get high with you
You want me to get loded
You want me to get by with you
You want me to get loded

So i called a friend an ear to lend
Who said "what is what?"
And one day tried to get me high
That i don't mind
But i know a man should understand
What is weight, decisions made?
Can often change your mind
Until you get high

Life is hinging on the shoulders of a convict
You did your time and then the judge decided
You were fine
But when the choice arises you decided death from life again

You got yours and i got mine
You got yours and i've got mind
You lost yours now i've got time
You want yours and you want mine now

If you want to hate me, fine!
Have a superficial time
As the center in you dies
You were searching for that high
When the poison burned your mind
You were warned a million times
Still you wanted to get me high

You want to me to get high with you?
You want me to get loded
You want me to get high like you?
You want me to get loded

You want me, you want me, you want me
You warned me you want me, you want me
Do you want me to get high with you, to get low?


8. BETTER

Those things you thought that were obscene
Will quickly become your routine
And he invited you over
An addict quickly gets indressed
With something ot get off her chest
You made a trade 'cause you're sober
And it stings to remind you
Of all that's behind you
But i don't want to lose you right now...
'cause they say it gets better before it gets worse
You know it gets better, so of course it gets worse

Your body's made of dollar bills
You'd spend them all on some cheap thrill
But what when you're older?
You stuck a point into your arm
But did you contemplate the harm?
As it moved up your shoulder...
Did it make you feel better
Right before it got worse
I used to make you feel better
But now it just hurts...
And there's no hope 'cause i'm in love with you
I cannot cope; guess i'm addicted too

You keep on coming over me
I keep on crying over you
It shows me what it's come to be
It shows me what i mean to you
'cause you're killing me......

And after all you would think
It's my fault when all in all i know is that you're killing me!


9. ASSURANCE

I've seen the way you look at me
I've seen you waiting patiently
I'm fine... well, i lied
If what we are is feeling low
I'd fear this if i had a soul
But you're still mine
I was afraid of being chained
I found a woman who could mend and bend
All of my deepest insights and thoughts
And it's just one more round, one more
One more round then i'm done

But you need assurance that
Everything's gonna be fine
'cause you're just a woman who's
Everything good in my life
Though we'd been over, weeping over,
Our last goodbyes.
I have learned to live with these fatal gifts,
And still you're mine, so i'm...
And i wrote you this song
But you won't sing along to me
Sing tir na li

The memories that used to be
Are carved into a sweet gum tree
Outside my place, where i touched your face
And it was...
One more round, one more
One more round, than I'd loved before.

Still you need assurance that everything's gonna be fine
'cause you're just the women who's everything good in my life
And though we've been over, weeping over
Our last goodbyes
I've learned to live with these fatal gifts
And still you're mine
So i... so i wrote you this song
But you won't sing along to me
To sing tir na li


10. ON THE RADIO

Yeah i could go outside today but i won't
'cause i won't
Yeah i could look alive today but i won't
'cause i won't
But somewhere on the radio could you hear me?
Can you heal me?
Somewhere on the radio can you hear me,
'cause i'm screamin! screamin'...
When i don't want to miss you anymore
No, don't want to miss you anymore
Or the lines on your face,
Or the things i can't change
No, i don't want to miss them anymore.
'cause today is the first time,
The first in a long time,
Where i've felt the need to hold on
And i'll be damned if you take this
This day that i've made and
You make it where i shouldn't be strong
I would have murdered for it
I'll put words to it when it hurts a bit
Then i thank God for this...

Yeah, I could go to town today
But i won't, 'cause i won't
Yeah, i could play the clown today,
But i won't, 'cause i won't
When somewhere in the place i love
Does he hold you?
Like i used to?
As you stare at his microphone
Do you choke and then call out my name?
Screamin'
And somewhere on the radio can you hear me?
Could you heal me?
And somewhere on the radio did you hear me?
Can you heal me?
Yes, somewhere on the radio can you hear me?
Can you heal me?
Somewhere out there where the fiddles play
Could you hear me? can you heal me?


11. ET AL

Feel, damn you, feel like you're alive again
Take ten broken limbs and make it all right for them
I needed you more, more than you'll ever notice
But i need to do more if you're to ever know this
And you won't care et al
No you won't care et al

Feel, damn you, feel are you alive again?
I needed to know, meaning i'm needing a show of hands for it.
We couldn't be sure 'cause we see alot of them.
But i traded it all
Did i make a difference et al?

Dance puppetboy if you do a good job
Then they'll want you again, give it all that you got
Show them the joy and the pain and the ending
And then do it again and we'll all start pretending
To pay more attention to what's aforementioned
And you bob your head 'cause you're not even listening.
A very small few of you even get meanings
But laugh, clownboy, laugh 'cause it's always so pleasing

Feel, damn you, feel like you're alive again
I needed to know, i'm needing a show of hands for it
We couldn't be sure 'cause we see alot of them
But i traded it all did i make a difference et al?

I met a woman; she was wonderful
Everything perfect, we both had the world
But i filled up my senses with thoughts from the ghosts
And i spent our life savings, left no room for both of us
Crying and trying and screaming aloud
I barely can see her, tumultuous crowds
Are careful to hide her and sing much too loud,
So they don't even know what i'm talking about

Feel, damn you, feel like you're alive again
I needed you more than you would ever notice et al
I couldn't be sure that you would ever know
This but i gave it my all did i make a difference et al?
And you won't care at all
No you won't care at all


12. THANK YOU FOR LISTENING

Like the others say, i can know your pain
But i couldn't get used to it
As another bird has gone
It's like seven years alone
I just couldn't get used to it
And i believe in what i see here in your eyes
And i believe in what i see here in your eyes
I believe in what is real
The only thing is pain and it's so real
And i think you for listening to how i feel
'cause it's just what i needed, like the pain that made it real
And i finally found out how, because you finally showed me how
It feels to be you, and to be me... and to be me... and to be

Fast forward yesterday, to the things i wouldn't say
'cause i couldn't get used to it
Guess everything's my fault and i shouldn't do nothin' at all
'cause i couldn't get used to it.
'cause i believe in what i see here in your eyes
I believe in what i see 'cause i believe in what is real
If the only thing is pain then it's "so real"
And i thank you for listening to how i feel
'cause it's just what i needed, like the pain that made it real
And i finally found out how, because you finally showed me how
It feels to be you, and to be me... and to be me... and to be...
If i could i would i'd do anything to take back the hurt, frustration and the pain it brings
Some of those times you sat alone and realized "fuck!"
That's not the way you should have wanted it
If all of my actions show
It was good to be you and to be me again.
If all of my actions show, then all of the truth be told and all of my...