1. DROWNING IN RAZORBLADES

After everything... It still doesnt matter
After all of my sacrifices... It still doesnt change
Time just repeats itself
Or At least it feels like it
You can try to make things perfect
But youre better off climbing the endless staircased
Things that are meant to be broken... can never be fixed
The more time you waste... the more it hurts
But instead you keep going
The indenial stage can be very powerful
As powerful as any drug that causes conflict to the mind
It's finally over
Nothing left to live for
Staring at the pool of razorblades
As it invites you more and more towards it
The Suffering has only just begun


2. THE BEGINNING

All that I can hear are my own screams
But no one listens
I slit my wrists
A cry for help
But no one cares
Feeling alone with nothing to hold onto
No shoulder to cry on
No one to run to
These endless tears continue to shed
To a point where nothing but blood descends from my eyelids
I still wait for my death to finally come
I cant breathe
This overwhelming depression that I hold
Will never leave me
It will forever huant me with my temporary states of Euphoria
These days seem to go by slower and slower
It acts just like


3. NEGLECT...

A torture chamber
Slow and painful
I scream and scream some more
But no one hears
Isolated in a cold chamber
These steel rusty bars drenched in my own blood
I am the disease that kills life
I see a black hole moving towards me
Is it my time?
I see my uselesss rotten body from afar
Its finally over
And still these emotions follow me
My Suffering continues
I see things I once loved
Not caring of my non existing soul
I see someone moving on
Not even shedding a single tear
Of my death
I see another person
Being the better person
Comforting the other
making that person forget
Who once brought happiness
To her


4. SLOWLY AND PAINFULLY

Once again.... I'm left alone to rot
This will never change
I find myself lost in a world of pain
I have become beyond depressed
Beyond anger
Beyond emotions
Beyond everything

Almost to the point of numbness
Ccreaming myself to sleep each night
Unable to think straight anymore
Hating this life more and more
Wanting it to be over already
I lost everything I had
I lost the will to live
I lost myself in Depression
I lost my emotions
They are running wild
I cannot control myself
Trying to find a gun
A razorblade wont work
Iet me put an end to this
Once and for all

Why continue on Contemplating
Wether to live or die
Why not just end it already
Why not just waste this pathetic life
That was already wasted to begin with
The gun is ready to kill

I walk up to the one person who once cared for me
Who once thought I was important
Who once said that I was their everything
Who once told me that I was something special
But those words seem useless now that she has moved on
With someone else

Were they lies?
Or was there actual meaning and pure emotion behind it
Either way... it doesnt matter anymore
It is over
The one person I once had in my arms
Is now at the bear hands of life
I point the gun towards my head
Staring straight into her eyes
Tears falling down my face
Bleeding all over

And with my last breath
I say to you
I loved you


5. SNENI (TRIST COVER)

Sametové vody krve,
Modré slunce, rudá oblaka,
Kraj z bvĕzdnébo třpytu,
Na perutich vĕčnosti.

Vize nočnich konců v mrysli,
Rde růže neuvadají,
Cbrazy psledníbo svétla,
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