1. HUMAN IMPURITY, SOCIAL HUMILIATION

Intentions are valid
You didn't expect my friendship
Nightfall showed me
The outcome of the story

The gloomy valley was waiting
And my desire to die was great
Your lack of character cost me dearly
And today I pick up the pieces on the floor

Miserable autumn night.
The birds did not sing that day.
The sun refused to rise
Extending my anguish hours

Emptiness took over me
My feats burst through my body
And his lack of character cost me a lot
And today I collect the pieces


2. WHILE THERE IS STILL LIFE

While I'm still alive
I will refuse to forget
That damn night!
While I'm still alive
I'll blame you for my wounds
I'll take tonight to the grave

While I'm still alive
I will walk away from you and wait
So that I finally kill you
While I'm still alive
I will wish your death, your pain
Day after day.

Your flesh also bleeds
Soon we can meet
Your soul screams too
It does not escape deep cuts
Your eyes cry too
And they wept like never before.
Your mirror still reflects
The piece of rot you are


3. SUPPRESSION OF FEELING, FINAL STAGE

I tried to kill myself that day
I tried to cut my wrists
I thought about skipping the train track
But she wouldn't let me go to work
I thought I will recover from all this
But in truth I will never forget

As hard as I try, as much as I fight
Part of me died that day.
And I really wanted to put it all aside
And go back to who I was before everything
I wanted to have a simple life like everyone
But my memories of mine haunt me

I wished I died that day
I hoped all that cocaine would kill me
but she helped me, took me to the doctor
That's why I blame you fabulous Lorde
You gave birth to something horrible in me
That no one deserved to have known

I hate you Lorde, and hope one day to kill you
And make you feel all my pain
I hate you Lorde, and hope one day to kill you
And make your family suffer just like mine
I hate you Lorde and hope one day to kill you
So that I can finally rest


4. DECAY, MY WORST HOURS

I'm so sorry...