1. THE TREE AND THE DEATH

Disgrace! you screamed at me, in all your strenght and authority
I crawled in the worst self, and I bought it all, without any clarity
Denial! you yelled at me when I put you in front of your mistakes
You then carved my skin with unbearable marks you could consider as fakes

Sanctitude of wounds / I remain the one they broke
Cast a spell on me / So I don't feel its grasp when I choke

Wishing a thousand hours of rest / Breathing in the essence of eternal sleep
Living a thousand torments in my head / While my body doesn't mark, I feel the guilt

"Let me help you, lay your head on my chest / I will comfort you in these times of no rest
Let me be the one / Who gives you the fire"

And this guilt I feel is just a growing seed, a tree inside my mind
And all the leaves don't bloom; stillborn, like dead butterflies
And the branches ripping my flesh, until, I feel every nerves, every endings
And I feel this fire but nothing burns, it's just a child that dies inside my being

"Hush now, sweetheart. You will sleep / Time has come, sweetheart. Let it seep."

It's burning off my pale skin / Growling flames using my vocal chords as a violin

"Open your heart, open your mouth and scream your broken lungs out
The violence has come, the darkness will fall, a one-timed blackout
You will wake, you will live, and you heart will bleed
But you will keep this fire that doesn't burn until you're freed"

I greeted Death, and She left me to live again / The memories that broke me still intact
In my heart, and in my cursed body / Until I see Her again, I shall bleed
I shall bleed

"Open your heart, open your mouth and scream your broken lungs out
The violence has come, the darkness will fall, a one-timed blackout
You will wake, you will live, and you heart will bleed
But you will keep this fire that doesn't burn until you're freed"

But until then, I shall bleed.


2. HOPE FOR TWILIGHT

All the meanders engulfed all hope / Yet it seems that all could become even worse
My mind doesn't make sense, all is amplified / The joys I feel a mostly drowned by
Butterfly's wings

(Get away from all) Distance is queen / (Get away from all) Confinement is the key
I can't interact, I cannot speak ideas / The world I've lived until I died was just a hidden galeria

"I wish that I would never have stepped in this reality / This emotion lingers, and brings
A sparkle / The bliss that I would never be death and the tree / I'm an abandoned shell,
Waiting for a miracle"

They've all abandoned me / Left me for the reject that I am
Told me I can't be like them / Why do they speak to me

I cannot fathom / These fucking phantoms / Lingering around me, laughing when I'm
Leaving / And my body can't process this shit, adrenaline

"My friend, wake up, this is no dream, come to me / Don't fall apart, they won't give up,
Come to me"

I've seen it all, it destroyed me beyond recognition
Down in these meanders, I've seen so much, so I made a mission
To get the fuck away and survive, mentally I'm dead but I'm alive
I only knew it would be hard, but I can't let it out, and I cannot cry

"It's going to be so fucking harsh / You'll hate every second that passes by
All life we knew before is gone / And now it's time to come undone"

Oh Father Earth, embrace me / Let me die under the Judas Tree
Oh Father Earth, forgive me / I don't know if I'm a strong enough being

"Clasp the light" / Illuminate my soul / "And let the night" / Erase my soul
"Start the fight" / Against the right / "Let your mouth ignite" / In hope for twilight


3. THANATOS AND THE SEA

"Tide against this tide, I'm crushed and struggle once more
I'm weak but I fight, I sink in your eyes"

I sink in your eyes / Wave after wave / Pushing me down
"The shore is so near / But I feel so far"
Let me reach your harbor / Let me find myself
Let me reach you / In your silent waters

Time against my time, I'm lost in this desert once more
Show me your beacon. I sink in your eyes
I'm lost. Show me your beacon
I'm lost in your eyes

How can I fear the beauty of the one who defied death
How can I be in love, how can I be so low, cause I know that from love I am but bereft

"Time against my time, I'm lost in this desert once more
Show me your beacon. I sink in your eyes"


4. I AM NOT COMPLETE

Woe! distress still lives / Mindless decision
Filled with unseen holes / Crippling depression
Constant light / Bloodshot eyes
Can't see the shapes, can't see the world / A corner, fetal, out cries

Giving a rope, scratching the throat, there is no antidote
Breathing the secret that keeps one from thinking about self cutthroat

I feel / That no one sees what I see in this light
I'd creep in the shadows / So I would meet fate and rip off its fire

Understand me as I mean no harm / I just want a piece of euphoria
Cause the darkness still lingers and bring self loathing. I need out
Bring me the spices that ruined my world, let me go down with it
Why can't I be just another one to reach this fucking pit

What have I become? I've said this words too much
I don't even remember, like nothing happened and such
I speak in simple tongues, don't hold it against me
But I've seen my youth ripped from me, I live but I'm not complete

I'm not complete