1. DRUNK

You have bones, they have to break
So stay drunk for the weekend
Peace of mind, on borrowed time
So forget what you're thinking
Temporary fiction
Can't control your diction
Speak slow
Told me that you see her
Told you that's the reaper
But you know

Where can you run
Where can you hide

You have guilt, for your mistakes
So stay drunk 'til the year ends
Hallucinate, you see her face
And praise her like a godsend
Dopamine deficient
Crave her like an addiction
Let go
Heaven on the weekend
Diving off the deep end
Breathe slow

Where can you run
When the air gets thinner every step you take
Where can you hide
When death is coming closer
And all at once you will find
This is what it takes to be alive

You have loved, and you have lost
So stay drunk if it hurts less
Prescription-fed, to fix your head
But nothing can repair it
Falling doesn't kill you
You see what we were put through
By her
Bottom of the deep end
Covered in a cold sweat
Burn slow

Where can you run
When the air gets thinner every step you take
Where can you hide
When death is coming closer
And all at once you will find
This is what it takes to be alive

This is what it takes
Where can you run
When the air gets thinner
Where can you hide
When you're drunk and bitter
And all at once you will find
This is what it takes to be alive

This is what it takes
Where can you run


2. CROOKED SOUL

I think I have a problem
These blackened eyes are bloodshot
Lost like a fiend, I don't feel
What you feel for anyone or anything
Broken but I don't need, I don't need you to fix me
Numb to the pain, I could drown in the rain
My demons safe, kept in my grave

Drunk off mistakes, addicted to the everlasting hell
So I take another drink, throw up in the sink
The darker that it gets the easier I can breathe

If I have a heart, why am I so cold?
If you love me still I don't feel it
I always knew in the end that I'd become a crooked soul
(That I'd become a crooked soul)

I see a devil in myself, inflicting all the grief and doubt
I don't feel (Feel anything)

Drunk off mistakes, addicted to the everlasting hell
So I take another drink, throw up in the sink
The darker it gets the easier I can breathe

If I have a heart, why am I so cold?
If you love me still I don't feel it
I always knew in the end that I'd become a crooked soul
Don't need your help, time will tell
My only concern is myself
I always knew in the end
That I'd become a crooked soul

Don't need your help, time will tell, I see a devil in myself
I see a devil in myself
Lost like a fiend, I don't feel
What you feel
For anyone or anything

If I have a heart, why am I so cold?
If you love me still I don't feel it
I always knew in the end that I'd become a crooked soul
Don't need your help, time will tell, my only concern is myself
I always knew in the end that I'd become a crooked soul
I always knew in the end that I'd become a crooked soul

Crooked soul
I see a devil in myself


3. BURIAL PLOT

Been on the road, losing track of days
I pull you in while you pull away
It's like I always play to lose you
I saw your eyes filling up with tears
You pulled the plug and then you disappeared
This home has never felt so empty

Effortless, the way you left me
Cut me open with your own two hands (own two hands)
Breathing is so difficult to comprehend
When the air I breathe is taken from me

It's my fault that you're gone
I've been digging in the dirt
Finding every way to hurt
There's no light, it's just dark
Feel my body growing numb
Watch me as I come undone

Is there relief in the misery?
Thought we would last for eternity
Forever I will feel this hollow
It's not enough to believe in me
And now I'm left with the memories
One day I'll learn to live without

Effortless the way you left me
Now the air I breathe is taken from me

It's my fault that you're gone
I've been digging in the dirt
Finding every way to hurt
There's no light, it's just dark
Feel my body growing numb
Watch me as I come undone
A burial plot for you and I
Where we can both learn to die
It's my fault that you're gone
I've been digging in the dirt
Finding every way to hurt

It's my fault that you're gone
There's no light, it's just dark

It's my fault that you're gone
I've been digging in the dirt
Finding every way to hurt
There's no light, it's just dark
Feel my body growing numb
Watch me as I come undone
A burial plot for you and I
Where we can both learn to die
It's my fault that you're gone
I've been digging in the dirt
Finding every way to hurt

A burial plot for you and I
Where we can both learn to die


4. SLEEPTALK

The blood stains on my hands
Our three year, one night stand
Love is bitter when it's spent
Lying next to me in bed
Say her name under my breath (Sleeptalk)
It's toxic, the same dance
Our feet firm in quicksand
Love is bitter when I see
How much I can make you bleed
Do you feel like you're deceased? (Sleeptalk)

Into the night, I drink and drive
Anything to help me let go, let go
You feel the pain, I feel the same
But we cannot repeat this cycle

The worst is yet to come
The worst is yet to come

No please don't be alarmed
We tend to fall apart
I'm entirely to blame
No, I couldn't keep you safe
If there's trust I will betray (Sleeptalk)
Sunset, sunrise
It's better you're not mine
I had everything to lose
Always find a way to prove
That I'm undeserving of you

Into the night, I drink and drive
Anything to help me let go, let go
You feel the pain, I feel the same
But we cannot repeat this cycle

The worst is yet to come
The worst is yet to come

I play the victim, like it's tradition
Now I can see that I should have left you alone
The worst is yet to come
One day you'll see
That the truth is, I am just a disease
(I am just a disease
I am just a disease)

The worst is yet to come
The worst is yet to come
The worst is yet to come
The worst is yet to come

I play the victim, like it's tradition
Now I can see that I should have left you alone
The worst is yet to come


5. THE EMBERS GLOW

[Instrumental]


6. THE COLOR BLACK

Bruised and bleeding the embers glow
You couldn't cover her shade of gold
The victim of your own attack
A waste of breath, distorted past
Your soul forever remains the color black

Wounded and scarred
Open your arms
So apathetic when you let it leave a mark
Spineless, you're violent
When you can't get away from yourself
You treat your closest like wasted moments
(Bruised and bleeding)
So blame your father
When you are the cancer
She can't get out of bed, how could she leave
Too scared to face reality
If you could think without your fist
And feel the pain that you inflict
Surely you would have to cut your limbs
But your soul is the color black

Spineless, you're violent
When you can't get away from yourself
You treat your closest like wasted moments
(Bruised and bleeding)
So blame your father
When you are the cancer
She can't get out of bed, how could she leave
Too scared to face reality
If you could think without your fist
And feel the pain that you inflict
Surely you would have to cut your limbs
But your soul is the color black

Bruised and bleeding
The embers glow
You couldn't cover her shade of gold
The victim of your own attack
A waste of breath, distorted past
Your soul forever remains the color black

Bleeding but the embers glow
Reflecting her shade of gold
Watching her as she turns her back
You remain the color black
Bleeding but the embers glow
Reflecting her shade of gold
Watching her as she turns her back
You remain the color black


7. ALREADY NUMB

If you're gonna leave, leave as fast as you can
Your gravity is quick to put me in my place
Learning how to let it not affect
Burning through me like a cigarette
The further we grow, the stronger your heart

Separate my skin from every bone
I'm a prisoner when I can't feel you close
You keep pushing me away, telling me to stay
Wish I could erase you from my brain
You make it so hard to feel love
When I'm already numb

You don't wanna leave 'til you're sling 'round my wrist
You can pull the ends, cut me how you see fit
Learning how to make a fool of me
Always seem to wanna ruin it
The further we grow, the stronger your heart
I couldn't stop your exit
I never felt so desperate
The ghosts I see consistently
Leave as fast as you can

Separate my skin from every bone
I'm a prisoner when I can't feel you close
You keep pushing me away, telling me to stay
Wish I could erase you from my brain
You make it so hard to feel love
When I'm already numb

If you reap what you sow
Twist that knife in me slow
I'll bleed out on the floor
If you can close that open door
If you reap what you sow
Twist that knife in me slow
I'll bleed out on the floor
It's better I feel nothing

Separate my skin from every bone
I'm a prisoner when I can't feel you close
You keep pushing me away, telling me to stay
Wish I could erase you from my brain
You make it so hard to feel love
When I'm already numb
I'm already numb


8. GATES OF IVORY

How could you hope for me to be safe
When you're judging me from the front of the cage
Hell isn't make believe
It's the silence that lasts between you and me

I'm living in a battle
Between your faith and my dismay
You're living in a chapel
But treating me like your personal plague

Drown in the water
Burn in the fire
God was not the one that ever hold me together
Lead the way to crucify, will it lead you to heaven?

Hell isn't make believe
It's the silence that lasts between you and me

You pray when there's a crisis
With folded hands, down on your knees
The crisis undeserving
If you don't practice what you preach
You used to know me
But you let go slowly
It must be lonely
Being so holy

Drown in the water
Burn in the fire
God was not the one that ever hold me together
Lead the way to crucify, will it lead you to heaven?

You used to know me, but you let go slowly
Words written by the hands of man
And you call it divine intervention

Gates of ivory
Don't fall, don't fall

Gates of ivory
Don't fall from your tower
It must be lonely
Being so holy

Drown in the water
Burn in the fire
God was not the one that ever hold me together
Lead the way to crucify, will it lead you to heaven?
Drown in the water
Burn in the fire

(Burn in the fire)
Gates of ivory
Don't fall, don't fall


9. STARVING TO BE EMPTY

I've been noticing my clothes fit
A little bit looser
Worried is an understatement
When you don't have a future
Schizophrenic borderline, hear it in my sleep
Dying is a victory if it will bring me peace
Stuck with no regard
'Cause I can go a little bit longer

Falling, I'm falling so far away
Hold out your hand when I start to break
Don't leave me all alone
Skin deep, no one has to know

I've been noticing my bones show a little bit clearer
I don't recognize who I see
Reflected in the mirror
Thinner, I'm not bitter of the cards that I've been dealt
I would give up everything to be somebody else
Stuck with no regard
'Cause I can go a little bit longer

Falling, I'm falling so far away (far away)
Hold out your hand when I start to break (start to break)
Don't leave me all alone
Skin deep, no one has to know

Try every night to swallow more than my pride
But I'm starving to be empty
I bite my tongue so I don't feed off your love
'Cause I'm starving to be empty
(Falling, I'm falling so far away
Hold out your hand when I start to break)

Falling, I'm falling so far away (far away)
Hold out your hand when I start to break (start to break)
Don't leave me all alone
Skin deep, no one has to know
Don't leave me all alone
Skin deep, no one has to know


10. CRASH AND BURN

My daughters and my sons
I fear our end has come
Don't stay awake just to find it's too late
To turn back time
I'm sorry if it hurts
But I won't speak one word
My mind is confined, draped in chains
The voices I hear echo

Crash and burn
Promise I won't return
Faster I crash and burn
The more that I lose concern

The surface of the sun
Too close to not be touched
Hold me in place while I disintegrate
And turn to dust
I don't wanna die having wasted all my time
On hating those I've hurt
Tears fill my eyes, oh, it stings
The other world turn while you sing

Crash and burn
Promise I won't return
Faster I crash and burn
The more that I lose concern
Crash and burn
Won't return
Crash and burn
The more I lose concern

Watch me as I fall
Safe and sound
My sick thoughts
The one you loved
Forever lost
Crash and burn
Down on my knees
Alone in my prison
Crash and burn
Reaching that there is nothing

Held in place I disintegrate
Feel my heart start to separate
One last look to remember me
There is nothing
There is nothing left
Held in place I disintegrate
Feel my heart start to separate
One last look to remember me
There is nothing left