1. DISGUISE

Withered fog
Falls down upon this land,
Confusing our senses,
Impaaring our judgment,
Into this forsaken nightmare.

One day, one night,
And the world is drowning.
So close your eyes,
And the world is breathing now.
One day, one night, and all is gone.
Finally, my heart is breaking down.
My life was nothing more than just a frown.

For all eternity, I blaspheme you and your wicked ways.
I trusted you for so long.
Finally, one day, I'll be the one
To tell my story and then act upon
What my life was meant to be—eternity.

My heart was breaking down,
But no one could hear.
There is no reason for me to be here.
Walk away like you already did once,
Break me again.

Nobody saw any light,
No guiding light.
I guess it wasn't real.
My heart was breaking down,
But no one could hear.
There is no reason for me to be here.
Walk away like you already did once,
Break me again.

Finally, my heart is breaking down.
My life was nothing more than just a frown.
For all eternity, I blaspheme you and your wicked ways.
I trusted you for so long.
Finally, one day, I'll be the one
To tell my story and then act upon
What my life was meant to be—eternity.

Withered fog
Falls down upon this land,
Confusing our senses,
Impairing our judgment,
Into this forsaken nightmare.


2. LIFE BECOMES LIFELESS

I've put this soul on an altar,
Forever lost in time,
Forever lost in eternity.
What should I bring then to spend it with you?
Can you tell by the look on my face
That I've been waiting for you
All this time?

Oh, I see them, I feel them,
Those wretched shadows,
Slithering at my feet,
Like jackals savoring the scent of defeat.
They claw at my chest,
Whispering to me with voices of ash and venom.
"Come," they say,
"Come with us to the world of ruin."

Feel, and the sky is falling,
Need everlasting pain,
Faster, louder, growing deadlier
Than I ever imagined.
Faster, louder, downward spiral,
Everlasting pain,
Much more than I can carry,
So much more that I cannot take this pain.

Have you been this broken?
Have you felt anything but pain?
Have you begun to understand yourself?

Feel, and the sky is falling,
Need everlasting pain,
Faster, louder, growing deadlier
Than I ever imagined.
Faster, louder, downward spiral,
Everlasting pain.

Do you see them?
No, of course you don't.
They're here for me,
My demons, my shadows.
They wear the faces of every failure,
Every regret I've carried,
Every moment I've faltered,
When the world demanded.
They've come to collect their prize.

Through this night, broken inside,
Losing the fight with yourself,
I, I carved my life into a stone.
Those feelings cannot be reborn.
Will they ever be resown?

And take this life away,
Please don't leave me stray,
Unconscious again,
Broken and alone.


3. UNANSWERED

Burn, lay to your rest,
While soon I'll be collapsing from life.
Even though even death refuses my only offering,
It's all I have.
All is from ashes of grey.
How could I make you stay?
How could I have been so blind to your fall?
But there linger all my pain and all my sorrow.

Glass in my eyes, broken and blind,
Lost to the world, screaming unheard.
Hope is lost, and now
I wander through these lands alone,
Holding my ground, hoping to find
What I've lost and more.
No one to pray,
All is in vain
Before your shadow reappeared.

All of my life,
What a fucking lie I've been living.
I was lost.
All of my life, what a disguise.
Where are my hopes and my dreams?
What have I been living for?
What have I done to deserve more?

Glass in my eyes, broken and blind,
Lost to the world, screaming unheard.
Burn, lay to your rest,
While soon I'll be collapsing from life.
Even though even death refuses my only offering,
It's all I have.
All is from ashes of grey.
How could I make you stay?
How could I have been so blind to your fall?
But there linger all my pain and all my sorrow.

No one to pray,
All is in vain
Before your shadow reappeared.

All of my life,
What a fucking lie I've been living.
I was lost.
All of my life, what a disguise.
Where are my hopes and my dreams?
What have I been living for?
What have I done to deserve more?


4. FORGE ANOTHER NIGHTMARE

Fall, why forge another nightmare?
Trapped in my own delusion,
Running wild and free.
What a tragedy we've had to witness.
More and more, I am at your door,
A boat that's forever sinking,
Without hope in the deep.
Do you think you'll predict
All the ferocity left in me?
Nameless.

Don't you see?
This is me,
In all my apathy.
I am free forever.
From the top of my lungs, I was screaming,
I was trying to find a way out,
Out of here.
Don't you see?
This is me.
All this acrimony is in me forever,
Because I come from beyond.
I found truths that weren't meant to be found.
I thought there was so much more of this—
It wasn't.
I thought there was another chapter or two,
Blaming myself, because that's all I can do.
This insanity has brought to me eternity.

Do you think you'll predict
All the ferocity left in me?
Nameless.

Don't you see?
This is me,
In all my apathy.
I am free forever.
From the top of my lungs, I was screaming,
I was trying to find a way out,
Out of here.
Don't you see?
This is me.
All this acrimony is in me forever.

I'm ready, ready to lay it all down,
Because what does it matter now?
This life, this mockery of hope,
Is but a hollow cage,
A cruel jest written by some twisted hand.
Every step that I take,
They follow closer,
Devouring what light remains in my path.
They do not rush me, no,
They savor the kill.

Silence falling on your heart,
And the slumber continues,
With or without you.
Silence becoming your world.
Will I forever wither,
Forever lost in time?


5. CHAIN ME

Lay down your guilty conscience,
Beware, the night has frozen in sight.
All my dreams and my hopes,
Cold and dead, winterless, cold as ice.
Be my guide, take me towards the light,
Witnessing the corruption of your soul.
That's all.

You had it all, you judged me,
You made me believe in myself,
When everything else was dead.
So close to me, yet so far,
So clean but so dirty on the inside.
Witnessing as well,
Your image sent from hell.
My lies are depending on your tragedy,
My own insanity has brought me here.
Down on my knees, begging you, please,
Finish me already now.

Lay down your guilty conscience,
Beware, the night has frozen in sight.
All my dreams and my hopes,
Take me if you will,
Trap me in your world of torment,
Chain me to your endless misery.
But know this, I always bowed,
I will not beg.
If I am to walk through your gates,
I will do so with flames in my eyes,
Daring you to smother them.

So come, shadows, come and claim me!
Where are your feelings? Where are your feelings now?
Where are your hopes? Where are your dreams?
Where are your feelings now?


6. THE FALL OF HEARTS

Suffering alone and surrounded by darkness,
Bring my void to a perfect beyond.
Tread my dreams into my own mind,
Before you give it away.
Prey to you, heartless,
Raise your hand like you already did,
Before you knocked on the door of opportunity.
Steal my mind as well as my insanity,
Before you melt it away,
Before you call it heartless.

Close to you,
Can I feel your despair?
Drowning light, hoping to fight.
Say no more,
I will be there one last time,
As close to you.

All my life unsaved,
All my dreams are dead,
All my years of hate,
There is nothing to break anymore.
All my life unsaved,
All my dreams are dead,
All my years of hate,
There is nothing to break anymore.

Believe in your senses,
While below lies another crown of thorns.
Will you be my own nightmare?
Attracting what seems to be
The flipside of reality.
My own fault is at large,
Suffering alone and surrounded by darkness,
Bring my void to a perfect beyond.
Tread my dreams into my own mind,
Before you give it away.
Prey to you, heartless,
Raise your hand like you already did,
Before you knocked on the door of opportunity.
Steal my mind as well as my insanity,
Before you melt it away,
Before you call it heartless.

All my life unsaved,
All my dreams are dead,
All my years of hate,
There is nothing to break anymore.
Close to you,
Can I feel your despair?
Drowning light, hoping to fight.
Say no more,
I will be there one last time,
As close to you.


7. WILL IT EVER END

Fade away, don't ever let me stay,
Surrounded by your guilt.
No more, I've had enough.
Hopeless night, losing might,
It's strange to me,
How could this be?

Fading souls, lying hearts.
Fade away, don't ever let me stay,
Surrounded by your guilt.
No more, I've had enough.
Hopeless night, losing might,
It's strange to me,
How could this be?

Fade away, don't ever let me stay,
Surrounded by your guilt.
No more, I've had enough.


8. SORROWBOUND

'll find another way
To witness horror every day
My heart still broken
Devoid of life
Forever entangled
A room with walls stained
With the smell of time
Reeking of sin
It was there
Where I had returned to torture myself
Once more
To regain myself
Surrounded by all your nightmares
As darkness closes in
Follow the breath
Out of the cage
Where you felt so trapped in
Yet its velvet lingers on
Begone, my nightmare!
As darkness is slowly preparing my body of the night
And wraps it cold with its veil
And then sorrow takes over
And leads me back in despair
Back to where the night had rendered my body cold
More and more I defy you
I will crush your serpent eye
You will bow down!
Out of the cage where you felt so trapped in
Yet its velvet lingers on
Begone, my nightmare!
I'm sorrow bound
False pretense
Veiled in tears of hope
And the night awaits in silence
It takes your life away
For this endless time
On the shores of broken dreams
I faded now
I'm sorrow bound


9. CHASING GHOSTS

Bring the hour of despair
Walk amongst the core
Of suffering and pain
Forever more

My heart will remember
That it too had a heart
We'll feed this remembrance
Will you be there when I'm gone?
Will you be
The one who'll bless this
Or curse this entire soul
Please finish this sentence
What life I had was already lost

What you see
And what you feel
Are nothing but hallowed dreams
Drowned by the infinite pool of your tears

Will you collapse in my arms
If forever is not enough
Then what is the purpose of our pan
Chasing ghosts in the dark
Haunted by the memories we can't contain
Our hearts beat like echoes
In a forgotten land
Lost in a melody of regret
That we cannot understand

My heart will remember
That it too had a heart
We'll feed this remembrance
Will you be there when I'm gone?
Will you be
The one who'll bless this
Or curse this entire soul
Please finish this sentence
What life I had was already lost

Trapped
In my original despair