1. THIS HEAVY VOID

Look around to every corner
Search deep inside
Look to anyone
We're all the same
Lost and afraid

This heavy void will claim
Everything and everyone
No matter what you have done


2. TWELVE/SEVENTEEN

Help me forget

You always looked back until that day
When I looked into your eyes, you were so far away
Clear as day, there was nobody home
I grit my teeth, I was alone

It's been years (It's been years)
And I can't get you out of my thoughts
I wanna forget (I wanna forget)
My stomach's tied in knots

Am I guilty
Of wanting to forget?
I'm cursed
With that look in your eyes

A demon inside
You were reborn to die
His hand gripped your soul and tried to take it all away
A demon inside
I saw the struggle in your eye
It never goes away
Nothing gold can stay

You always looked back
Until that day
You always looked back

When I looked into your eyes
You were so far away (So far away)
This disease has taken you
And I can't ask you to stay

This still creeps into my mind
How the fuck could I forget
When you asked me
"Can I die yet?"

"Can I die yet?"


3. MERCILESS

How could you have ever compared yourself
And had the pride in being a parent?

When you showed your kin
None of that
Did it make you feel like a man
When you raised your hand?

You raised your hand to your children (To your children)
You belittled and abused (And abused)
You piece of shit
With the audacity to stay the same
Until the very end

If you only had held your tongue
Even when you were crippled
But now you're nothing
And how does that feel?
Just dirt beneath my feet
And meat for the worms

Now you can't talk shit

They say that when kin
Passes you're supposed to mourn
But they didn't mention
Those who don't deserve sympathy
They say that when kin
Passes you're supposed to mourn
But they didn't mention
Those who don't deserve sympathy

Spitting on your grave
And soiling your name
Never felt so right
Can't talk shit on your children anymore
Because you're too busy
Eating shit in Hell
Eating shit in Hell


4. NAIL IN THE COFFIN

I close my eyes
All I feel is hate
I can't escape
Just the thought and everything turns red
Hands gripped tight
Knuckles white
I wouldn't flinch if I saw you dead

Weak minded fucking leech
I can't teach you how to be human
It can't be learned
So now you burn
So now you fucking burn

Hide behind your screen and act tough
Behind closed doors
Just a scared soul
You can't control me now

Lie after lie
Don't cry to me
You bitch
Lie after lie
Don't cry to me
Motherfucker

Get off the floor
You're fake to the core

You think I care but you're just talking to the wall
Your words fall on deaf ears
And it means nothing at all
I put the nail in the coffin
And buried you below
Deep in the ground
All alone you will go

I close my eyes
All I feel is hate
I close my eyes
I have escaped
From this hell you put me through


5. NEVER HOMESICK

Collections collecting dust
Iron turned to rust
Collections collecting dust
Iron turned to rust

Existence, I'm just getting by
Subsistence, you didn't even try
I hope you live
Knowing that you let me down
A long life full of shame
You'll never change

A home now unknown
Now you're all alone
A home now unknown
Now you're all alone

A never has been, phony fucking prick
You're not a man
You're why I'm never homesick

A never has been, phony fucking prick
You're not a man
You're why I'm never homesick

Collections collecting dust
Iron turned to rust
Collections collecting dust
Iron turned to rust

An inconvenience to you is all I was
This can't be undone
If only she knew what you'd become

Last words unheard
You selfish cheap coward
You were meant to be a father figure
But stood with your back turned
Last words unheard
You selfish cheap coward
You were meant to be a father figure
But you stood with your back turned

I can't wait until you hear these words
I hope it stings and you feel it burn
I can't wait until you hear these words
You selfish cheap coward

It'll bring a smile to my face
Open the top drawer
Load your gun and take a taste


6. DISAPPEAR

How the fuck does it feel
To know you're nothing?

Fake it 'til you make it
That won't work here
Either be real or disappear

Stop making all these shows a popularity contest
Don't put the face of a friend on
When you're just a fake
For your own personal conquest

It isn't sly
It's as transparent as a ghost
Weaseling your way through life
Won't get you anywhere
Without stabbing your friends in the back

I'm not fucking deaf
And I hear the words you say
Never fucking forget
The way you used to be

You wouldn't know tough
If it punched you in the goddamn face
You fucking snitch

Don't think you're safe
From these goddamn words
You little bitch


7. WILTED

[Instrumental]


8. TORMENT

You've forgotten all your friends
Everyone's a stranger
You looked at me with fresh eyes
I should have just lied

When you asked what was wrong
And you tried to get up
You fell straight to the floor
I stood at the door

I didn't know what to say
This day is on repeat
It clouds my thoughts
Who knew it would end this way?

It's like your slate's been wiped clean
Everything was just a dream
Your body has been poisoned
And your memories taken
You've forgotten everyone now
You've forgotten everyone now

You were all alone in the end
You repeated yourself
And asked the question again

Decaying and brittle
You could barely speak
Decaying and brittle
You looked so weak
It was only days later when you left
You were set free with a smile on your face
Now it's all I can see

You were dying it would be any day now
Tears filled your eyes as you remembered
Everything came back, it wasn't a dream
Your world turned black
Back to reality

Everything came back, it wasn't a dream
Your world turned black
Back to reality


9. REPARATIONS (FT. JOHN PENTZ)

I stay addicted to the pain you caused me
Inflicted by the stain of humanity
A piece of shit
A liar, a cheat
I stay quiet while I load my magazines

How many lives have been ruined for profit?
Too many left in the wake
Of your conscience

I grit my teeth

I grit my teeth as you fill your pockets
I'm chomping at the bit
To rip your eyes
From their sockets

Your betrayal is deeper than you know
Keep feeding your starving ego
Your betrayal is deeper than you know
Keep feeding your starving ego

If you knew me now
Like I knew you then
You'd be on your knees
Begging for the end
Begging for the end

This is the end of the road on the path you paved
You can count your cash in a shallow grave

Your fakest tendency's to try and sympathize
But you're not man enough to look me in the eyes
A small time, pill pushing son of a bitch
Last to own it but the first to ditch
So hard headed

But you never learn a thing, do you?
I have to carve it in my knife before I run it through
Any last words I can carve on your tombstone?
I'll bury it with you
So no one brings you home

In the dirt

This is the end of the road on the path you paved
You can count your cash in a shallow grave


10. DROWNED (FT. JORGE SOTOMAYER)

My world was black and grey

For years it was just day to day
A shell of who I was
Because of what I lost
And it cost me so much

Staring at the wall for hours on end
Wasting my life again and again

This heavy void filled my mind
Prescribed a solution to save my decline

My attention was nowhere to be found
No focus, chaotic struggle
And it's holding me down
Like I'm being drowned

At the bottom of the lake
I see your face
So I let the water into my lungs
This is what I've become

My world has no color
Will it always be this way?

An empty heart
Wilted I will stay
An empty heart
Wilted I will stay


11. BLACK OF MY EYES

I'm trapped
With all the voices and screams
The endless daydreams
It seems hopeless
I know this is not real
It's just in my head
I'm still forever in dread
Fuck it

Chemically imbalanced
I'm stuck in my head
I look back and I hear the voices again
It's like I've been running forever
But I don't know where to go
It's like I've been running forever
So I go into the unknown

No victory in sight

These indecisions
Keep me from seeing the light
I have no one to guide me now
No victory in sight

I don't know who I am
I was lost along the way
I've lost the battle
This demon's here to stay

I'm trapped here In this dark
With all the voices and screams
The endless daydreams

Chemically imbalanced
I'm stuck in my head
I look back and I hear the voices again
Chemically imbalanced
I'm stuck in my head
I look back and I hear the voices again

I can't focus on anything or anyone
It's all a blur
I've built up my wall
I've been torn from it all

I'm stuck in here forever
With no end in sight
I'll be here 'til I die
In the black of my eyes
In the back of my mind


12. TURNING POINT

If you listen to this song
I hope it hits home
I'm the son that you raised
Now tainted to the bone
I was so young
Everything went south
On that day I saw you put
That loaded shotgun in your mouth

I tried for years on end
To make you happy, to make amends
You were a fake, a coward, a dead beat dad
Always reflecting on the life that you once had

Down talking her to try and get me to sway
Just bit you back and kept me away
Down talking her to try and get me to sway
Just bit you back and kept me away

You think I got my morals from you
After all the shit you put me through?
A con, a fake
Whichever you prefer
I promise you I got my morals
I got my morals from her

Don't poke fun
At the woman that raised your children
You snide motherfucker
I hope you hear this

I hope you look back at your life
And realize everything you've done
I hope you change because
It'd be nice to have a father again

You fucking dick


13. PRISONERS (FT. JAMES MISLOW)

Gather every Sunday
And pretend you're not sinners
You're no better than us
We're all prisoners

Created to control the masses
And put you in line (Put you in line)
Pick a side
Or you'll burn
For eternity

It's all fucking shit
And you're all sheep
Kneel to a higher power
That doesn't exist

I roll my eyes
At all the lies
You blindly follow
Your "facts" are hollow

False prophets claiming an eternity of burning
A cult in disguise
Your god I will defy

God free until the day I die
I won't waste my time on my knees
Hearing all of your lies
God free until the day I die
I won't waste my time on my knees
Hearing all of your lies

I'm being choked by the Holy Ghost
Cut it close, Jesus Christ has a knife against my throat

Gather every Sunday
And pretend you're not sinners
You're no better than us
We're all prisoners