1. BURN TO EMERGE

Will I ever escape? Can we ever change?
Will I ever escape? Can we ever change?
Will I ever escape? Can we ever change?


2. BLINDED

Have you ever been blinded by the pain?
Blinded! Blinded by the pain

Unwilling to see/senseless
So blinded by selfishness
Only focusing on myself
And ignoring anyone else

Becoming driven by despair
Feeling trapped into a corner

Losing more and more of reality
Perceiving all the hurt only one-sidedly

Have you ever been blinded by the pain?
Losing yourself inside the heartache

(Losing yourself)
Feeling too powerless to change
Stuck and unable to escape
Incapable to see another way
I need someone to shake me/to wake me

I don't even need full clarity
Just to start the shift from blind to blurry

Have you ever been blinded by the pain?
Losing yourself inside the heartache
And does that mean we cannot change?
Or will we always be seen that way?

Will we always be seen that way?
And does that really mean
we have not changed?

Or does it only mean
The truth is not in how we're seen?

But in the actions that we're now determined to take
Revealing the new path we chose
to mend the heartache

Was it a pattern or a disastrous mistake?
Is the truth in what you see or what I say?

Have you ever been blinded by the pain?
Losing yourself inside the heartache
And does that mean we cannot change?
Or will we always be seen that way?!

Be seen that way!?/BLINDED BY PAIN!!!

Blinded by the pain!!!

And does that really mean
we have not changed?


3. SHAPED BY FIRE

Go!

The wise before me chose
to refine themselves
Melt away their shortcomings
by enduring trials

A process we will all undertake
Even if we try to prevent change

Face it before you are pulled in!
Face it while it's still within!

Like iron
Shaped by fire/We aren't born this way
Shaped by fire/We are reborn through pain
We aren't born/We aren't born this way
We are reborn/We are reborn through pain

(Yagh! Though I too have endured fire)

I wasn't wise enough
to ignite the flame myself
But carried enough fuel
for a flicker to excel

Face it before you are pulled in...
Face it while it's still within...

Face it before you are pulled in!
Face it while it's still within!

Shaped by fire/We aren't born this way
Shaped by fire/We are reborn through pain
We aren't born/We aren't born this way
We are reborn through pain

Shaped by fire/We aren't born this way
Shaped by fire/We are reborn through pain
We are reborn/We are reborn through pain

The time has come
To watch the fire grow
Find new things to throw in
Don't let the flames get low

I've grown used to the heat
That makes me reevaluate
What I carry with me
And what should be thrown away

Face it before you are pulled in...
Face it while it's still within...

Like iron
Shaped by fire/We aren't born this way
Shaped by fire/We are reborn through pain
We aren't born/We aren't born this way
We are reborn through pain

Shaped by fire/We aren't born this way
Shaped by fire/We are reborn through pain
We are reborn/We are reborn through pain


4. UNDERTOW

The life that I sought was
Already like a jail
Long before I was ever bound/Agh!!

Wrapped up in chains

No one had built the bonds
Used to hold me captive
I had locked away myself
In a captain-less ship

Destined to destroy ashore
Destruction was my savior

Crushing/Collapse/Crashing
From the impact

I can't escape
the undertow that's pulling me
But I keep fighting to get away
the undertow that's pulling me/pulling me

My control disappeared
'Cause it was never real

Aboard a ship with
Nowhere to go/Guided by lifelessness
A skeleton without a soul

Crushing/Collapse
(looming ahead) Crashing (is imminent) From the impact

I can't escape
the undertow that's pulling me
But I keep fighting to get away
the undertow that's pulling me/pulling me

I can't escape
the undertow that's pulling me/pulling me

Though I found freedom when
I stopped fighting everyone else
And loosened up the anchor
That I had tied around myself

I let go of the chains! Chains!
Just let go of the chains!
I let go of the chains used to hold me
in my addictions!

Killing me from within
Killing me from within

I can't escape
the undertow that's pulling me
But I keep fighting to get away
the undertow that's pulling me/pulling me

I can't escape
the undertow that's pulling me
But I keep fighting to get away
the undertow that's pulling me/pulling me

Just let go of the chains! ...Chains!
I let go of the chains used to hold me
in my addiction


5. TORN BETWEEN

Pulled both ways but still suspended
The worst of each reduced and blended

Still suspended/Suspended!

I thought I was stuck between two worlds
Because I was not willing to let go!

Recklessly pulled both ways
But somehow still suspended
(The worst of each reduced and blended)

But as life unfolded I realized
The momentum to drift from side to side
Came from within/(Came from within)
Came from inside!

I feel torn between two hearts dying
but I'll l trade them in for one
Broken and exposed, collapsing
So why would I hold on?

One heart turned black
The other blue and bruised

Arms breaking
Arms breaking from the dreams
Dreams shattered
The dreams that I can't reach
There has to be
There has to be a choice I have not seen

I feel torn between two hearts dying
but I'll l trade them in for one
Broken and exposed, collapsing
So why would I hold on?

I feel torn between two hearts dying
but I'll l trade them in for one

One darkened over time
burning away the shame!

Erasing hidden insights
I did not want to be seen
The other was beaten from being exposed
So it hurt less to never hold it close

[solo]

I feel torn between two hearts dying
but I'll l trade them in for one
Broken and exposed, collapsing
So why would I hold on?

I feel torn between two hearts dying
but I'll l trade them in for one

(So why would I hold on!?)
Trade them in for one!

Neither heart had the power
to fill my veins or be the source
of who I want to be

(Pulled both ways but still suspended...)


6. GATEKEEPER

You've lost touch!
You've lost touch with the outcasts!

Have you forgotten your own past?
Have you forgotten
that your house is made of glass?

So while you're pointing your fingers
You are unable to use your hands
to help with solving
solving real and present problems

'Cause we're appalling and
you've become too perfect to understand

You're a gatekeeper
Blocking the entrance to nowhere
You're a gatekeeper
Trying to keep others in despair

(Yeah!!! Keeping others in despair!)

I don't want you to get dirty
reaching down to a lowly creature

I don't want you to show mercy and make me like you, self-righteous preacher

Did you think you were the only one
The only one who held the keys?

Did you hope that your judgement would
Spread just like a disease?

You're a gatekeeper
Blocking the entrance to nowhere
You're a gatekeeper
Trying to keep others in despair

The self importance of the moral elite
To think that their approval
means anything

[solo]

So eager to capitalize
Capitalize on other people's pain
But when the healing begins
So quick to turn away

Have you forgotten?
Have you forgotten your own past?

You're a gatekeeper
Blocking the entrance to nowhere
You're a gatekeeper
Keeping others in despair


7. THE WRECKAGE

The wreckage seemed too great for me
I saw my dreams collapsing/Collapsing!

But through debris of tragedy
Not one of us died fighting

The wreckage!

We somehow found a way
through storming weather
Enduring skies turned gray
when we all said never

The winds/The rain
Downpour needed to cultivate

We don't get to choose when it rains
We can fight or just get washed away
Will we be transformed
or feel like we're drowning?/Drowning!

The wreckage!

So use the storms ahead
to flood out shortcomings
And then use what is left
to water what is worth planting

The winds/The rain
Downpour needed to cultivate

Debris/Tragedy
But not one of us died fighting

We don't get to choose when it rains
We can fight or just get washed away
Will we be transformed
or feel like we're drowning?

Will we fight or just get washed away?

And now the mountains that we face
Are starting to look more like hills

We rose to a higher plain so
the whole horizon fell/it fell
the whole horizon fell

Through the debris of tragedy
Not one of us died fighting/Fighting!

We don't get to choose when it rains
We can fight or just get washed away
Will we be transformed
or feel like we're drowning?/Drowning!

We don't get to choose when it rains
We can fight or just get washed away
Will we be transformed or
feel like we're drowning?/We're drowning!

The wreckage that once seemed insurmountable to me
Is now becoming a part of rebuilding

We somehow found a way
through storming weather
Enduring skies turned gray
when we all said never

So use the storms ahead
to flood out shortcomings
And then use what is left
to water what is worth planting

Deep roots that refuse...
Deep roots that refuse!

[breakdown]

Deep roots that refuse to break!! Break!!
Deep roots that refuse... break!!
Deep roots that refuse to break!!


8. MY OWN GRAVE

(The lies/the weight/deceit/decay)

The lies/The weight
It's clear I lost my way
Deceit/Decay/Decomposing/Ah!

I thought I was an architect
but I was just moving dirt
Stacking mud over malice-covered-up
Forming nothing but a pile of hurt

I hadn't been building (building)
The time was spent digging (digging)

Boring the barriers that kept others
away (away)/The deeper the walls
the less anyone could hear/hear me fall

So now I know
there is no one else to blame

Buried alive inside of my own grave
And there's no one else to blame
Buried alive inside of my own grave
Inside of my own grave/Beneath my lies!

Delusional enough to think
I’d designed something great
Like a giant headstone inscribed
to describe my shameful fate

I hadn't been building (building)
The time was spent digging (digging)

An ugly truth from which
there was no way to escape (escape)
Nowhere left to hide and then
finally forced to face what I'd become

Buried alive inside of my own grave
And there's no one else to blame

Buried alive inside of my own grave
What I'd become
Buried alive inside of my own grave

Beneath my pride crushing me
Beneath my lies collapsing

But we are still alive/We are still alive

Buried alive inside of my own grave...
And there's no one else to blame...
Buried alive inside of my own grave...

...My own grave!

Buried alive inside of my own grave
And there's no one else to blame

The lies and the weight
I know I lost my way/What I'd become

Buried alive inside of my own grave
And there's no one else to blame
Buried alive/Buried alive

Finally forced to face what I'd become!

[breakdown]

What I'd become
In my own grave (buried)
In my own grave (alive)


9. TAKE WHAT'S LEFT

I took what you gave me/destroyed it all
I had to lose everything
to know that I was wrong

And now I see what was true all along
A void in me now that everything is gone

(Ya! Now that everything is gone!)

The emptiness can be a source of clarity
Taking away a way for us to hide
Always revealing

No choice but to rebuild
No voice/no peace/no love/no home
Nothing left to hold/Nothing left but hope

Take my broken frame/What still remains
free from the chains/free from the chains

Nothing left to hold/Nothing left but hope

Like hunting for prey
that we don't even need to track
It's so easy to follow what's next
We are left with only one path/one path

No choice but to rebuild
No voice/no peace/no love/no home
Nothing left but hope

Take my broken frame/What still remains
free from the chains/free from the chains

Take what's left in me/what's worth saving
No matter how much time it takes

From merely hope
we are brought back to life
From broken bones we revive

Take what's left! and create
Take what's left! and then rebuild

(You had every reason to give up on me
But you stood and waited
when everyone ran away)

I took your gifts/destroyed them all
And then lost everything
to know that I was wrong

But you still carried me
when you could barely walk
You reminded me I was never too far gone

Take my broken frame/What still remains
free from the chains/free from the chains

Take what's left in me/what's worth saving
No matter how much time it takes

Take my broken frame/What still remains
free from the chains/free from the chains

Take what's left/Take what's left!
and rebuild


10. REDEFINED

I refuse to let go of the memories 'cause they've changed everything inside of me

If I could go back now
to save myself the loss
Substanceless character brought back would be the cost

Agony today is tomorrow's strength
So don't run away/'cause misery is...

Evolving into something that we can't see
Evolving and becoming/Transforming

...So don't run away

The pain can never be erased/Remain and Turn it into strength/Turn it into strength

What do we value
in the midst of complacency?
But in despair
we beg for something, anything

Even our mistakes can have the power
To light the way Like a glaring tower

The pain can never be erased
Remain and turn it into strength

From our failures we are refined
Replacing frailty/Allowing us to be
Be redefined

Healed scars can be stronger than skin
The wounds we have can be rewritten
Redefined/Redefined/Redefined

Agony today is tomorrow's strength
Redefined/So don't run away

[solo]

...The pain can never be erased...

The pain can never be erased
Remain and turn it into strength

The pain can never be erased
(never be erased)
Remain and turn it into strength
(turn it into strength)

From our failures we are refined
(this perfect fight)

Replacing frailty (pray your last day)
Allowing us to be/Be redefined
(from our failures we're stronger in fight)

Replacing frailty/Allowing us to be
Be redefined

Don't run away/Misery's evolving


11. ONLY AFTER WE'VE FALLEN

The worst form of illness is
one that goes undiagnosed
Subtle decay secretly spread
A cancer of the soul/A cancer!
A cancer of the soul

We are all dying
Some of us just faster than our friends
But pointing to a greater fault won't cure what we have hidden (hidden!)

I used to be able to pretend
but I can no longer hide from who I am

My deceit was displayed for all to see
The only thing that could have saved me

Only after we've fallen
Can we then find the cure?
Looking up from the bottom
When dust settles it's clear

(When the dust settles, it's clear!)

It's so easy to believe
that you are nothing like me
'Cause your deceit is lesser
and yet to be seen but
doesn't that change what you're hiding?

Only after we've fallen
Can we find the cure?
Looking up from the bottom
When dust settles it's clear

Only after we've fallen
Can we then find the cure?
Looking up from the bottom
When dust settles it's clear

Only after we've fallen
Can we then find cure?

We are all dying! A cancer of the soul!
We are all dying! A cancer of the soul!

A heart that is bound by snakes
With a mind that's sprouting wings
A dangerous combination
That fails to address our infection
(Infection!)

[solo]

My deceit was displayed for all to see
The only thing that could have saved me

Only after we've fallen
Can we then find the cure?
Looking up from the bottom
When dust settles it's clear

Only after we've fallen
Can we then find the cure?
Looking up from the bottom
When dust settles it's clear

Only after we've fallen (fallen!)
We are all dying (dying!)

But will we find the cure?

Only! After! We have! Fallen!
Looking up from the bottom
It seems so clear!


12. THE TOLL IT TAKES

There's a sentence they gave me
Then one that remains unchanging

Like skin that's burnt by frost
It'll peel if I pull away
It hurts to hold or let go
As I'm trying to sustain

Like feeling hunger pangs
and eating bone to stay alive
It tears me apart inside
but it seems like the better way to get by

Like a broken hourglass they fell
Cutting sand through my fingers
down the deepest well

I know the toll it takes
But I won't let you go
The past I can't replace
Is all that you'll ever know

There is no turning back
I can't fix what I broke
The past I can't replace
Is all that you'll ever know!

You're a part of me
that I may never be able to repair
Like a lung that's collapsed
I'll always know that you're still there

Always surrounding my heart
Even if it rejects air

I know the toll it takes
But I won't let you go
The past I can't replace
Is all that you'll ever know

There is no turning back
I can't fix what I broke
The past I can't replace
Is all that you'll ever know!

The true sentence I still face
Is one I brought upon myself

[solo]

Lost in a dark cell/They said it's easiest
to just numb yourself and let go

But these open wounds
will forever feel fresh
And I refuse to let them close yet

I know the toll it takes
But I won't let you go
The past I can't replace
Is all that you'll ever know

There is no turning back
I can't fix what I broke
The past I can't replace
Is all that you'll ever know!

I know the toll it takes
But I won't let you go


DELUXE VERSION BONUS TRACKS:

13. ROOTS BELOW

All we can do is heal/Or let it destroy us

Some of our wounds
Come from those around us
While some are self-inflicted
By thorns growing from within

But the story remains the same
Once we carry the hurt and shame
All we can do is heal/Or let it destroy us

The wounds that we're left with
we cannot control
The curse of the pain
feels like all we know

Until we find the strength
drawn from the roots below
In blackened soil new power grows
(Grows!/New power grows!)

Sentenced to a lesser life
For what we've been through
We're growing in ways that we
Never thought possible before

[solo]

The wounds that we're left with
we cannot control
The curse of the pain
feels like all we know

Until we find the strength
drawn from the roots below
In blackened soil new power grows

Regeneration comes after death!

[breakdown]
And virtue from rooting out damage
Cut off what can't survive

[solo]

The wounds that we're left with
we cannot control
The curse of the pain
feels like all we know

Until we find the strength
drawn from the roots below
In blackened soil new power grows

Until we find the strength
drawn from the roots below
In blackened soil new power grows

(New power grows!)


14. DESTRUCTION OR STRENGTH

Whether locked up/Or on top of the world
I felt the same sense of unrest

Pursuing numbers/The approval of others
Outward illusions of success

Just an illusion
An illusion masking restlessness

All ending in a downward spiral
Rock bottom is all relative
Some people lose their homes
Others lose their heart

The sad truth is: I lost them both
'Cause I perilously chose
To compromise my soul

I could not see past all the distraction
Until everything to hide behind...
Until everything to hide behind was gone

Now that everything is gone
I'm free to see without distraction
There's nowhere left to hide
As I face what is inside/what is inside

Now changing like the tide
devoid of peace/but now finding
What brings serenity
and what can be centering

It's not the things it used to be
Because they have been taken
and cannot be retrieved

Now that everything to hide behind...
Until everything to hide behind was gone

Now that everything is gone
I'm free to see without distraction
There's nowhere left to hide
As I face what is inside/what is inside

What is left? When you take it all away?

A battle between desolation and sorrow
Leaving behind Destruction... or strength!

Destruction or strength!
[solo 1]
Destruction or strength!
[solo 2]
Destruction or strength!

Whether locked up or on top of the world
I felt the same sense of unrest
but now it's gone

Now that everything is gone
I'm free to see without distraction
There's nowhere left to hide
As I face what is inside/what is inside!

(Whether locked up or on top of the world
I felt the same sense of unrest)

What is inside!

Just an illusion
An illusion masking restlessness