1. STARE AT THE CEILING

Pushing myself to an edge I never could've foreseen
No one would've ever expected this from me
I tried my best
put forth so much effort
I tried my best
In the end didnt get any better

I am a wire frame
My aesthetic is built on shame
And I hate every piece
of everything I ever became

Discourse does nothing to explain
The finer points of who shares the blame
I can't look myself in the eye
Such lack of faith such lack of pride

But thats the problem

You can't see me the way I see me
I'll always be I'll always be
I am a slave to everything
Surrounding me infinite shame
I am a slave to everything
Every eye gaze with disdain
Social veil comfort and hide
Regressing pride regressing life
Because on inside further than fine
Because all that I do is a lie

You can't see me way I see me

The watermark on the ceiling of my roof is growing and rotting away
The covering of shelter and comfort I always thought would house me
The plaster it grays it melts away becomes transparent
I've always got the darkest clouds above my head I can't out run them

And I am my own God
But I fail to believe
Look at all these leaks
Maybe I should just leave

I lack pride I'm unhealthy

Back to the floor stare at the ceiling
Watching trails of water fall and dissipate
And I can see it clearly now the cracks are graying
Follow them back to their source lie awake


2. DEATH DRIVE

I've lost my motivation
To keep holding my head above my exhilation
Clouding windows I can't see throught my cold reflection
Put my head right through the glass my imperfections

Why I can never be satisfied
With my life I'll over analyze
Back down to her back down to earth
It'll hurt when the breathing stops
Back down to her back down to earth
Broken glass and the cold black top

Falling sideways across the black pave
Mother tell dad his ways aren't to blame
Sarah the ways the ways that you changed
Nothing in life ever stays the same

Why I can never be satisfied
With my life I'll over analyze
Back down to her back down to earth
It'll hurt when the breathing stops
Back down to her back down to earth
Broken glass and the cold black top

Everything is subject
To eroading rotting away
Every door that opens
Will slowly wear the frame

Everything will fade away
Every door will wear the frame


3. KARMA

With love
I will hold your weight for you
With every ounce of conscience
I will focus prism hue

I swear there will be brighter days
I swear clouds will part with rays

Of sunshine taking away what he did
And karma counting
Adding up his sins
I know we've got our flaws we've got our consciousness
I know you've got your walls
Build from consequence

Take me out of my head of your bed
No longer clean no longer clean
Reup reclothe reup and rewind
Empty inside empty inside

I'll break
Every bone
Wincing
To make it shown
That there's
More than
Damaged
To your


4. STARE AT THE WALL

Everything I would run away
I would run away
All my problems I'll run away
I would run away
Every exit every hallway
Every hallway
Everything I would run away
I'll run away
All my problems I'll run away
I'll run away

I carry myself in solace
With my own selfishness
My shoulders will hang lower
My head lose consciousness

I am nothing more than a self indulging
Worthless mistake
I'm slowly waning away from everything I make
My promises are a void
Of honesty and devoid
In order to circumvent
It feels so distant when

We bury good intention
In favor of prescription
In favor
In favor

I carry myself in solace
With my own selfishness
My shoulders will hang lower
My head lose consciousness

I am nothing more
Than a culmination
Of missteps and sore
I wish that I could
Love myself more
Practice selfworth and
Maybe restore a little health

I can't feel

I chose not to
I can't feel
I chose nothing new
Make me numb
Blinds close shut
Make me numb
Blot out sun
Make me numb

The white walls you'll find
Somewhere you will find your light
The white lights you will hide
Somewhere you will hide your light
The white walls you'll find
Somewhere you will find your light
The white lights you will hide

Stare at the walls
The white you will find
Find peace of mind
Sink in the light
Let it take inside
Stare at the walls
The marks you will hide
Connect dot and line
Sink in the light
Let it take inside
Stare at the walls

I can't change my ways