1. ADDING INSULTS TO INJURIES (I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I HAD)

So how's my profile?
Can't you see the scar?
I think it's more internal but...
You should see the car.

A head on with denial
The doctors all agreed.
Time to open me up for some
Exploratory surgery.

I'm adding insults to injuries
I didn't even know i had.

I have all the symptoms
I need the ICU
My system is so weakened
But they say i'll be pulling through.

The therapy's not working
When's it gonna end?
I'll get a second opinion
To go under the knife again.


2. BREATHING ROOM

It only hurts when I breathe.
It started with the blueprints of habit.
Building walls of defining moments.

My world is caving in, the air is getting thin
Can't they back it up and gimmie some breathing room.

I'm running just to stand still
My mind was a solid foundation
Now the plans are lost translation.

Am I breathing? Am I Breathing?
I need some breathing room.

I'm falling apart inside my frame.
(that is hard - hard as nails)
I'm still obsessing on all...
(on all of the details)
If you hold it in
It's not gonna go away.
If you let it out
Watch out for what you say.
Watch out for what you give away.


3. GUTLESS

I know we've got the same opinion
About a different situation.

You're Gutless, what are you good for?

Well, I'm not here to save you
From making a fool of yourself.
The age of discovery
All hail to conformity
Shut up, listen to me
Last chance to prove it to me.

You're the one and only
You're the one and only one for me.

I'm not coming to rescue
Someone that won't even help themselves.


4. WEARING THIN

I've worn out every cliche
Today is no different i can't walk away.
Life after death or another close call
I still want the world even though i've seen it all.

I'm stradling both sides of the rusting fence.
I've been hit and missed and I'm bruised
But there's no evidence
I'm sick of hearing about it and what could've been
Yeah i still got my thick skin, but it's wearing thin.

Time's flying but I'm still not having fun
Maybe the punchline isn't quite done
When those around me started to pass
Laughing with their forward foot firmly on the gas.

When I finally slowed down the pace
And take a look at history all over my face
When the tension's soured you know what it sounds like
Pumping up the treble and turning down the bass.

There's a ying and a yang
A whimper or going or going out with a bang
I hope the picture's worth a few words I sang
And the rope gets tighter before I have to hang.


5. VANITY DRUG

Do I have to tell you the way it is?
Do I have to show you what's up and in?

They rocked in a code of numbers one to forty
Karma burned out around the number forty
But if you wanna rock, yeah I can show you
And if you're gonna rock, yeah I could show you how

Straight down on your knees

Mute riffed legends that I can tell you
Fueled by the vanity and drugs I can tell you

Back up from your knees
Tell me what....So, I can go and get it.

If you wanna rock. Yeh, I can show you!
I can show you how.

(Homage to KARMA TO BURN...R.I.P my friends)


6. PACIFIER

I'm gonna get some new kicks
And not even say a word.
Watching you avoid conflicts
About things you never heard.
Don't need to know your problems
I don't mean to be unkind
But i've got enogh shit going on
Yeah, to keep me occupied.

Pacifier, woh can you trust?
Who can you, who do you trust?

Said you'd alawys be there
Or was it all in vein?
Pushing buttons to stop your elevator's
Co-dependant brain.
I don't need to know your business
I don't want to feel your pain,
You made sympathy an art form
By changing up its name.

Some may call you gifted
Others say you're blessed
Truth is you're a fragile, lying
Second guessing mess.
Blood and holy water, can't save you now...

You're filled with good intentions
So calming and so pure.
Shove yourself in the middle
You've alawys got the cure.
Always playing both sides
No one's ever right or wrong
Your insecurities drag me down
And I just want you gone.


7. CAVITY SEARCH

Close your eyes, they're the same no matter where you have been.
Lose yourself in their earth and under your skin.
Remember the names for a while, then it's all just a blur
Not sure anymore who you are or who you were.
Deny the fact you just can't stand to be alone.
Live out the lies to the point you're living in a world all your own.
You're a waste in a place you should have left unknown.

Don't you see they're all the same
Don't you argue with me, Can't you see they're all the same
Why can't you believe me and see they're all the same
Don't you argue with me, Can't you see they're all the same

Ask yourself why the good stuff never seems to last.
It's not too late to begin again and bury your past.
Cause all your friends and enemies are starting to look the same.
Another cavity search to blame it on and throw it all away.

It can only get worse until someone gets hurt
Was it all in your mind, was it the best you could find?


8. THE CALMING EFFECTS OF SKYDIVING

With the rise in altitude I sense the shift in attitude
We pierce the clouds as we get up closer to God.

My thoughts are racing so fast
And then everything goes black.
20 years pass before me
The wind hits my back.
You gotta look death in the eye.
To make yourself feel alive.
Is that what makes you lose your mind?
Is that why you wanna skydive?

Now i've begged forgiveness
For all in my checkered past.
Now is not the time for karma
To bite my ass.

The higher we get, the more we pray
To drop and then walk away.
A wet spot grows between my legs
As my balls curl up inside me.

A warmth that i've never known
And a numbing of my face and bones.
The earth is again below me
As I kiss the ground.


9. VOICE DEBRIS

In the grain of my voice debris
I dig for the words buried deep inside of me.
Can't you hear it or see what i mean?
All of my senses echo with deception and lies.

I've been blessed with this curse
Five times the baggage, and it just got worse.
Is this my fate for the rest of my life?
My war is running out of fight
I don't know how much more I can say
Before i finally burst.

I've been shit on so many times that my
Skin turns brown under flourescent light
Just out of reach but close enough to smell
I've been the sacrifice, bastard and angel from hell
Am I coming or going? I can't even tell

I'm still naked under my clothes
My heart is still pouring out of every hole.
I've got nothing left to hide on the out or inside
Time to bury the dead parts and take care of what's still alive.


10. GATHERING DUST

I've come to far to back out now stop beating myself if I knew how can't
Move I'm covered with grief feels good like a kick in the teeth

I'm gathering dust. Dust
I'm standing still
I'm gathering dust.
But it's temporary.

Climbed a mountain of anger to get here whats over in minutes took years
It draws you in just like a magnet spits you out in a thrust of vomit

I've answered my own questions the way I want it to be won't get another
Chance tomorrow I'm going to stop gathering.......dust.


11. HOVERCRAFT

You're ready for lift off and you're strapped in tight.
Thoughts are racing and
Everybody knows how high you're getting.
Hovercraft
Your mind is melting and your eyes are shut
Don't know where you're heading
Everybody knows how high you're getting.
Hovercraft
Mumble/adlib
You're closed down and in, they're coming to get you
Do you remember or are you forgetting
Everybody knows how high you're getting.
Hovercraft
Mumble/adlib


12. DOPAMINE

How I feel is hard to deal with, since the time I got here
But I'm lookin' the same, so whata ya want?
Changes? My level's jumpin' jumpin'

What I say... And who's believin'
What i need... Is too revealing
What i mean.. Seems quite deceiving
Dopamine... Mixed with feelings

A pre-condition, a different nerve.
I embrace and watch the moods, dives and curves
Bouncing between highs and lows
My head is swelling and my levels jumpin' jumpin'

What do you do to fill up the empty void?
What do yo usay to make it go away?
What do you hear to lose the strain and fear?
What if I just turn and attack?

What did I gain?
What did I lose?
Changes? My level's jumpin' jumpin'.

See it, believe it.


13. HEAD GEAR

There's always something, that will show you the way
Guiding the masses on what to do and say.

If that's all you wanted, that's all you're getting
If that's all you wanted, well then that's all you're getting.
If that's all you wanted,
Then that's all you're getting from me.

From me to you...
Why should i struggle?
Why should i strain?
Why should i bother?
If the result's the same.

But i have a vision
It's all part of my plan
Based in theories
They don't understand

Aim high, shoot low
Why lead, when you can follow.

Why waste it?


14. SIDE STITCHES

The first cut is like a pinch, then an itch
The kind you can't scratch or look at
It knocks the taste right out of your mouth,
Just to try and smell the sickness

Why don't you wanna dig, why don't you wanna be,
Why don't you wanna dig inside me, yeah

Dig, dig on the side.
Dig, on the inside.
Dig on my siede and leave side stitches.

When it's exposed, from under my clothes,
Examine the scars of precision.
Now touch my pain and soul if you want
Under my skin and incision

No shame or fear inside
Or crusted on the surface
Now, will you show me more than I know?
Or agree because i said so?


15. BORN TARGET

Held down and pushed back.
It's simple, but it looks complex.
With traces of evidence that are too hard to digest
Looking for the answer or some kind of cure
But you only find more questions.
You try to ignore, but you can't.

Hide behind and deep inside.
Secrets everybody knows
But you don't know which way to go

You're locked in your head and bound to its floor
And it's time to get on out, but you can't find the door.
And you don't... Feel... Safe.

Born target

Step back and face facts
The medication doesn't work.
It's time to heal, and fix you up.
Before you really end up getting hurt.


16. THIRD DEGREE BURN

We have ignition
A strong sense of ambition
We've watched it start to smolder
It heats up and then it boils
The detest and the unrest
You know you can't deny this
To taste it, to waste it
And watch it all get blown away

What i do and what i say just makes you burn
So close, you smell it
But you know you can't control this
You always stop and wonder
Just who's out to steal your thunder
You're playing with fire and everyone's desire
To see this, to be this
To have it all go up in flames
You're burning, from the inside... Out.