1. MY CROSS TO BEAR

I try to be a person of you
These thoughts attack my soul from angels
I try to see
Past all the lies
Past the sin of the world
False ideals tear me apart
Pray for and hope of change

This is my cross to bear
My cross
My choice
My life
This is my cross to bear

I work so hard to be what you wanted for me
You bore the cross so I could be
You died so I could live
You died so I could breath

I work so hard to be what you want
You were born so you could die
You carried my sins on the cross
You died so I could be alive

My cross to bear
My cross to bear


2. CROWN OF THORNS

I have failed so many times to become the person
The person that I long to be
Perfection, the standard of my everything
Unable to realize I bring my fall

Perfection, a task not possible
I try so hard, not hard enough
My God, lived without sin
Myself, I’m indulged in it

My God, how long I will sing this song
And my God, how long til I come home?
My God, I'll sing until I have no breath
And my God, come and take me home

Blood-stained hands carry my sins
My hands carry no such wounds
Your eyes have searched for me
I look away, I look away

I have failed to be the person I strive to be
I fall so short to the expectations
You wore the crown of thorns, as I wear the crown of shame

Your eternal sacrifice
Has torn a whole inside my heart
I fail to sin, not for the last time
I will rise back up, and carry on

My flaw of the man I shouldn't be
Is not the man you died to see
So I'll learn to be who I should be
And give back to you, and give less to me


3. ETERNAL WARFARE

I need tomorrow more than then before
I have fallen again to lust
I need tomorrow more than ever
I have fallen to his games

Reckless thoughts brought up by thoughtless actions
"I will always provide a way out."
I’ll wait until I fall to my knees again
Wait until I fall to sin

"I will provide a way out."
"I will provide a way out."

With hands around my throat, I grasp for air
Both hands around my neck, I need life
The snake around my throat, save my life
I need your love to survive, save me

Tomorrow has never seemed so far
This guilt has won again
What have I done to myself?
Jesus, save me


4. BETRAYED

Your eyes have turned red
Once beautiful now ashamed
The girl I once adored
Now different, now gone
Bring back the heart I once thought so highly of
Bring back the one who wasn't so high and mighty
I will not sit around and watch you bring your demise
I cannot sit around and watch your bleeding eyes

Take back what you've said
Take back all you've done
Your heart will be alone
You do not deserve me

I don't want to let you be part of me
You had your chances
And now I am coming clean
Your ego has become larger than life
Have fun with your beauty, it's all you'll ever know

Your eyes bring disgust
Your heart fading fast
Your soul once was gold
Now nothing brings it back

Color my insides black and reveal the pain
My heart will beat again


5. THE UPRISING OF A DOWNFALL

I now realize that we are not meant to be
We tried everything but it was never what it seemed
Everything we had was not what it should have been
We try to make this but, it in the end, it failed

I was there for you from the start, and it was never enough
We tried so hard to make it work, and it was never enough
You were there for me from the start, and it was never enough

I will die strong
Not fall as a disgrace

Now I see it's time for me to go
I cannot sit here and give more of myself
I have to do this for myself
I have done this for myself