1. CHANGE OF SCENERY

I’m sick of the solitude,
Sick of the loneliness,
Tired of this empty feeling
That’s been filling my chest.
(This empty feeling has been filling my chest)

I’ve been wasting too much time
In the wooden chair at my desk,
As hours pass and days pass.

But I’ve learned that I can’t exchange time for happiness.

“Don’t seek love, let it find you.” They said.
I can’t help but think that I’ve tried my best.
(I’ve tried my best)

There’s nothing left for me,
I need a change of scenery.


2. DRIVEWAY

“Don’t go !” is all you said to me, as I was backing out of your driveway.
I stopped to roll down the window to press my lips against yours,
And to wipe the tears off your face, with the hope that this goodbye wouldn’t be for good.
(That this wouldn’t be for good)

I watched you fade into the distance
And with the passing of time I would fade from your mind.

It rained all the way home.

And since the time I spent with you, I’ve been spending my days alone.
And most nights, I hold you in my dreams, with the illusion of feeling you next to me.


3. A REMINDER

The past haunts me like the fields in Gettysburg.
The ghost of your memory still wanders inside my head.

A reminder of what I had and what I’ve lost.

I still have all of your letters in a box in my closet,
And each is concluded with your promises of forever.

But you were never any good at keeping promises you made to me.


4. HOLDING ON

I wish I could put into words
How great of a need I have for closure.

You were a leaf in the wind that was blown away from me.

You were already gone, but I was left holding on.

Pursuing what was out of my reach, foolishly holding on to instability.
This is all I have come to know.

For too long I have been trying to face this challenge,

The challenge, of leaving you in the past.
The struggle, of forgetting you at last.


5. LOSS

My golden days are gone,
And these colder days have taken their place.
Where the mornings are lonely and unpromising
And I wake in a bed of snow.

I can’t find comfort in anything, or shelter in anyone.

Something within me is missing,
And I’m at a loss.