1. UNTIL GRIEF DISAPPEARS

I am alone in this world of slander
Live like a ghost and solvent in the fog
All that pain around me
It eats me up from the inside
The empty souls on the streets

I don't want to see
I don't want to hear
I don't want to taste
I just breathe in the hate
That is the decision between to live or to walk in isolation

My lungs are filled with soil and I sink into the sand
I fall into oblivion and let myself drift from the current
The saving waves can not reach me
I drift further and further away

This life makes me sick
There was never a hope for my existence

I don't want to see
I don't want to hear
I don't want to taste
I just breathe in the hate
That is the decision between to live or to walk in Desolation


2. THE VEIL

See the truth through your own eyes
And do not trust the shadows
I can get you on the right path
There is a place where no dark exists
Only the light gives us our forgotten memories back
People standing with their backs to each other

They do not know anymore
They do not want to remember
They hide in their dreams
They have no redemption
No redemption

I find my memories in you again
Keep them
I see the truth in your eyes and not the shadows

They are the last things I have left
Keep them forever
They must burn in your thoughts
Keep them forever
It will burn
Keep them forever

They hide in their dreams
They have no redemption
And the veil will disappear


3. AVOID THE LIGHT

I am the curse
I count the days
I‘m still awake
It never ends
When will I get this poison out off my vains
I feel like a stranger
I want to leave this body
My skin burns like fire and I want to drown in the water Without pain

I will never wake up from this nightmare
I have stopped counting
The days go by
The years eem to me like seconds
The moon is my best friend
I avoid the light on any occasion
This is my inspiration

I am losing my perspective and I sneak through dark alleys
Until I find a way out and can relieve myself from suffering
The night takes me into the abyss
The night takes us into the abyss

Avoid the light
It will not give you salvation

I am the curse
I count the days
I‘m still awake
It never ends
When will I get this poison out off my vains


4. BELOW THE WEIGHT OF A MOUNTAIN

(Instrumental)


5. TO HAVE A DREAM IS TO BE CURSED

I just want to see the sun
But no matter how hard I try
I m not reaching my goal but I can't rest
'Cause this is missing to feel alive

This isn't the life I was supposed to live
These endless waves of hope crush my chest
With such powerfull strength
Until everything is silent
Until everything is silent around me
I just want to see the sun

It seems like everything I touch falls into pieces
I just want to see the sun
But no matter how hard I try
I just want to see the sun
It seems like everything I touch falls into pieces
I just want to see the sun
Because I am too desperate
I just want to see the sun
O matter how hard I try
Everything is gone

This isn't the life I was supposed to live
These endless waves of hope crush my chest with such Powerfull strength
Until everything is silent

Do you know how it feels
To follow a dream you will never catch?
To have a dream is to be cursed


6. DROWNING

This nightmare in me
Tries to drag me down
Ripped into parts
Forever sunken in this ocean
It's like suffocation
Losing myself in this moment
I built this wall around me
To keep myself up again
But it pulls me down

This island that is me is threatened to drown in this storm Around
The waves pull me down
This wall will soon be a sunken rock in this rough kind of Sea and the thunder in me

I struggle for air leaving a trace of life
Seeking for help in a hopeless world

I can't hope to pick myself up
It seems like my last breath has left my lungs
I prayed for absolution
To learn how not to die
To swim | to survive

This island that is me is threatened to drown in this storm Around
The waves pull me down
This wall will soon be a sunken rock in this rough kind of Sea and the thunder in me


7. SHARDS

I see this world crushing on me
It‘s like burning in hell and heaven is so far away
I breathe clean air to get the dirt out of my lungs

A faint whisper is blowing through my mind and I close my Eyes and reach for the emptiness

I walk through the dark valley up to the infinite flows
From there I let myself carry on this ship, until the end of My hopes and dreams

Close my eyes
The ghosts in my dreams are only shadows and I will never Wake up
Will never wake up
I will not loose anything
I‘ll never be able to assign correctly
So I just have to dream

I see
I breathe
I crawl through the shards of my own dreams


8. THE ABYSS

I feel it hard in my bones
I can't stand it anymore
I can feel it in my lungs and vains
I can see the shame about myself in your eyes
The fear comes over me and my blood is pumping
I dissapear into nothing

Father I broke with myself, the belief in me is gone
Forgive me my mistakes
Mother I am so hopeless
Can you give me my heartbeat back?

I burn down all the bridges I have built
I tear down all the walls I have bricked
I flood every angle of my belief

I loose my soul with every step
The sky turns to black
Clouds disappear
My fear returns
My memories are gone

We will never see the sun
My memories are gone
We will never see the sun
All light will perish
I burn down all the bridges that I have built
I tear down all the walls that I have bricked

Father I broke with myself
Mother I am so hopeless
Forgive me my mistakes
Can you give me my heartbeat back?


9. LAY MY MEMORIES TO REST

The times I remember will never come back
I can't stop remembering
I can't forget the tears I've cried

It comes back anytime
I remember all that has changed and all that went so fucking Wrong

You turned your back on me and I went down
I remained silent in myself
You turned your back on me and I went down
I remained broken in myself

Oh please let there be someone who carries me home

I have to get over everything that meant something
And get over all these remaining memories

I have to lay my memories
I have to lay my memories to rest
I found so many people who can

Take me back
Take me back home
I set sail for a new future without you
This is my perfect vision of silence


10. THE LONGEST DAYS

Who will share this way with me?
Who will share my choice?
I will be the light in the dark
I will take you away from the bleakness

Would anyone keep listen to your voice if they knew you Don't tell the truth
Would anyone keep look into your eyes if they knew you show Them darkness
No one will listen to your voice if they know you don‘t tell The truth
No one will look into your eyes if they know you don‘t tell The truth

The longest days have to change before we begin to cross our Swords and fight against these ways
Digging graves for those liars and their stories

We know it's worth keep fighting for
We can not accept defeat
It's hard to say our hearts will fall and our souls will be Swallowed

There is no hope
There is a reason