1. GOPINATHA

O gopinatha, lord of the gopis:
Please hear my request
I am a wicked materialist, always addicted to worldly desires, and no good qualities do i posses
O gopinatha, indeed i am a servant of lust
Worldly
Desires are awakening in my heart
And the noose of fruitive work is beginning to tighten
O gopinatha, i do not know what devotion is
Abandoning my real treasure,
I have worshipped this mundane world
But please, do not consider this servant an outsider


2. HOLYNAME

I have no emotion
I have no devotion
It's empty motion
Oceans of notions intent on ego promotion
No elation, no devistation
Supplication seems a foreign creation
Barren and beaten and broken and bruised is the
Briar-ridden
Thorn-land of my heart
My cries are lies from conceitful eyes
I won't simmer in this complacency
I won't settle for this false me
I'll cry it out:
Holyname
Holyname


3. HOPELESS?

The deeper i try to go, the shallower i find myself
I dance on the strings of selfishness, self-righteousness
Imprisoned in my house of greed
Entombed in torturous
Envy
...i'm not free.
Ambassador of arrogancy, every step a proud conspiracy
Everything orbit me :emblem of hypocrisy
Imprisoned in my house of greed
Entombed in tortuous
Envy
...i'm not free.

(self-analysis - is it painful to hear? The diagnosis must be clear or the disease will never disappear)
Strength of the strong; wisdom of the wise;
Proven now: how long can you hold the mirror to your eyes?
Govinda.
Gauranga. Hey nitaichandra.
I'm
Not helpless


4. IDEFY

Call it a lie
Call it a crutch
Call it denial
Say it's an escape it's only the fear sought
To beguile
Say i've lost my tear
Say i've lost my self doubt
Say i've lost my life
Say i've copped out.
I defy you
Soul is reality
Regardless of what your beliefs may be
Experiments? Proof?
But are you brave enough to enter the laboratory?
Transcendence perceived but will you open your eyes?
A searcher, but are you willing to find?
Or just remain content
Wrapped tight in popular lies

Say no one can know; well how do you know that
Say there is no truth; then your statement's false


5. THIRST

I try, to slake my, thirst on desert sand.
Hot dunes choke my throat, arid & parched.
I try , to slake my, thirst on desert sand.
How can i, slake my thirst on desert sand?
Brutal sun burns dry. Mirage: mesmerize
Oasis = illusion.
Rigid, scorched delusion
Communication, reciprocation,
Pure infatuation;
(for these) my dry thirst's burning cracked;
For madhava


6. GROW

Grow, but what/who will have to go?
You know i gotta grow i gotta yearn i gotta learn
& i got to move ahead
Friendships changed = progress made (?)
Somethings are gonna hafta re-arrange;
But does that mean we gonna hafta grow estranged?
I need inspiration, not monotonous degradation.
You know i gotta grow i gotta yearn i gotta learn &
I got to move ahead.
You're not excluded; you're invited.
Don't feel intimidation
From the pushes & pulls of the general population
I'll never shut the door, but i've got to search
For more


7. 10.8

Aham sarvasya prabhavo mattah sarvam pravartate iti matva bhajante mam budha bhava-samanvitah

Mac-citta mad-gata-prana
Bodhayantah parasparam
Kathayantas ca mam nityam
Tusyanti ca ramanti ca

Tesam satata-yuktanam
Bhajatam priti-purvakam
Dadami buddhi-yogam tam
Yena mam upayanti te

Tesam evanukampartham
Aham ajnana-jam tamah
Nasayamy atma-bhava-stho
Jnana-dipena bhasvata


8. SLAVE

Don't tell me you don't surrender
And don't say you're not a servant
I see you slave away to the dictates of your senses you must obey.
Slave
In the name of freedom
We tie us up in chains.
You live on your knees, despite your lyrical pleas.
You bow your head to the ground.
Lust: this is your god
Greed: this is your god
Sex: this is your god
And he wipes the floor with you - slave
I reject this whole charade


9. LIAR

You said i could find live in the folds of your flesh
You said you loved me
You never knew me
You said it was called love
You said it was more than skeletons colliding
I tried so hard i cried so damn hard

You tell me to force a smile
You tell me to tread on a trail of tears
You tell me to swim in your ocean of sorrow
No
I reject your lies
Frustration rule me, no more


10. TULASI'S SONG

(Instrumental)