1. ANTPILE

Shit
Son of a bitch


2. TRUE FEAR

There's no justice. Am I crazy?
To think that all this is crazy?
Another march for a nation that's hurting
Pain pushed back like the force you're exerting
There's nothing to say
When people are killed daily
By cops with a hard on for violence
Mad cause I'm yelling, I'm mad cause you're silent

Stay calm
Don't breathe or you might get beat to fucking shit
Right hand on his right hip
Thumb resting on the pistol grip
Do you even speak English?
Are your tattoos gang affiliated?
No I just wanna get home
Searched my shit. Let me go
(And to think I had it easy)

So I'll tell you
If you ask me
If I have doubts
Trusting the police

Look around you
Unarmed men shot in cold blood
While a kid with a dime bag
Serves more time than a rapist
What kind of lie are we living
(What kind of lie are we living)
When so few are protecting and serving

People protesting
Against the ones protecting
It's a fucking red flag
It's a sign of the struggles they've had

Fuck those who kill

Every time I see an officer behind me
I can't help but view them as an enemy
True fear systematically
Time's up, you fucking cowards


3. THE HAMMER

You will never cease to seek validation
Desperation grows lower than my lowest lows
Trapped inside where I hide
You will never know, you will never ever know
Bitch

Panic sets in as I envision the abyss I've crept in
Don't come back here, turn away knowing none can go near
Memorize this strict warning from a fucking bastard
Misery lives and she will hunt you till it's all that makes sense

Another day, my friend
Into the mirror I descend
Reenact these reactions
Duplicate the appearance of passion
Act up as a weapon of distraction
When deep down my nerves strike up like matches
And I'll never leave this state of mind
I've tried. It's useless. It's useless

I remain afflicted
I remain afflicted
Forever suspicious
Of anyone that listens
Knowing well I'm nothing worth fixing
My tongue is a shovel, it dug deep
Bringing you to my level
Another day, my friend
Another day I must suffer to pretend

That this shit doesn't kill me
That I'm fine and no lover to misery
My own friends don't visit me
I know why. No one Ever wants my company
It's all there
My mirror Medusa, my master
My secret. My slave. My captor
From birth through death and forever

I won't let you walk away yet
I take your steps as a fucking threat

My warning is a fucking threat

Panic sets in as I envision the abyss I've crept in
Don't come back here, turn away knowing none can go near
Memorize this strict warning from a fucking bastard
Misery lives and she will hunt you till it's all that makes sense


4. 8 YEARS

8 years ago life took from me

Just under 16 you were ripped away from me
Watching my family weep for my brother's life
Tragedy had come for me
Wearing a fake face for other people's sake

You never left me
Your spirit dwells within me
While apathy rots in his seat
Don't you fucking look at me

In the court room you asked for my forgiveness
A family left with nothing but flowers and memories
Your sympathy means nothing to me
No apology will heal my family
No forgiveness

8 years inside for murder, mother fucker
Not long enough, you should have suffered longer
Now you're free and you wanna be happy
I bet you'd love to forget my family

No pity for you
I can't forgive you
Thomas Thorn, this is for you
Thomas Thorn, no forgiveness

8 years to the day


5. BELLIGERENT

I lose little sleep. It's sad, but true
Drowning in unhappiness. It's nothing new
Anger now comes easily and frequently
Replacing who I used to be with someone weak
I wait patiently for clarity
Anxiously I count my time with no relief

So I mold my grief into madness
Release all my pain and my sadness
Quick fix. An explosive reaction
Making a mess with the way that I've acted

I don't know when it all began
I had a bigger heart when I was a younger man
Still I deny
I have any anger issues
Still I deny
Chances are I'll probably fucking lose it

I lose little sleep. It's sad but true
Drowning in unhappiness. Fuck you
Frustration it never ends.

If you fucks could just fuck off and die please
I think I might finally be happy
I know this isn't healthy
I never asked you to help me

Maybe you are the cause of this
Years of people walking up and down my nerves
But you think I should let you in?
Just so you
So you can fuck me one more time

The world made me like this
Sad part is I couldn't care less, bitch
So fucking move


6. NO KIN

Take a step back to a time past
Old story from the bottom of the fucking map
Fair skin with the wind behind a rebel flag
Blood is blood but I never had imaged that

My own kin wallowed in ignorance
Burning crosses. A beacon of prejudice
My uncle told me of the clan. Our ancestors
Tethered by blood in this modern America

I have to fight for an equal life
I don't know who would be more surprised
Brown skin ridiculed by blue eyes
World view through a noose or a white hood
It's all bullshit. I'm the living proof

You hear me?
I'll outlast you

Heritage that cuts me like hemorrhage
No homage to ignorant narrative

Weep for my kin soaked in southern blood
I bare the shame of your name and your actions
To the families affected by hatred
My heart breaks. I wish I could change it

Now it's my time
I am the last of my family's name
My birth banished the old ways
The final hour. The last say

Fuck your hate, you mother fuckers


7. B.C.

Human kind has reached a time
Where faith can take a step back
(Follow truth and fact)
Jesus Christ. White washed in the blood
Of plantation crops and native plots
A proven tool to bait the hooks
While the church controlled the history books
(Mother fucker)
You love Christ because it's right?
He arrived on ships with men who forced their thoughts

Sleep beside the fire
That burns brightest the darkness

History and man's beliefs tell two tales of destiny
Knowledge leads to set our kind free

Man made god to make sense of this world
Nature proves we all lose. There is no control

Pagan kings and offerings
Men created Christ to keep control
Loosely pieced from past beliefs
To unify the heathen gods beneath a cross
Integrate or be erased
Conquered lands set the pace for breeding faith
Religion needs the human seed
Our species is unique. Confided to our beliefs

Sleep beside the fire
That burns brightest in darkness
Sleep beside the fire (Knowledge will lead. Move forward)
That burns brightest in darkness (Knowledge will lead. Move forward)

Go


8. SALT WATER

Victim
The role you've always chosen
Sadness
Deception moves this bitch, but I can't

I see right through you
You don't have me fooled
Quite the pretender
Broken and bitter
Dime a dozen

Beyond fake when you wallow and wail to me
Each word frantic for sympathy
I'm agitated by your deviant empathy
No help from me

You say that you will
Build yourself up
But we both know you won't
Another ploy to muster emotion
We both know you won't
Another game that you've made
We both know you won't
You won't make the fucking change

Beyond fake when you wallow and wail to me
Each word frantic for sympathy
I'm agitated by your deviant empathy
No help from me

The helpless create their life
It's so easy to never fucking try

It's all on you


9. SPLIT

My life slips away now
Under microscopes
I split into pieces

All my life
Separating these visions
While dividing the sequence
Into pieces
I spend my lifespan
Tracing a new plan
For me to find a way out

To get back to
All the feelings I lost
Like a wall on edge of emotion
Too high to scale, too long to look past
This is another impasse
Endless traps on the path
In which my feet falter
Don't trip or fall farther

Backwards
Into my warpath
Walk back my words
My shallow plan


10. RIVER WALKER

Day falls to night
You've become
Someone else
To me now
In this light
I can see
Who you are
Bleed me out
Be my god
Be my last
Weigh me down
Hang my head
Toss me back
Break me down
Hate the smell
Hate the sounds

You're the one that I found
You and no one else
You're the one that I found