1. LONESOME SOUL

Cashing in on rainchecks
I live withdrawn from surroundings
I'm trying to feel it's not very rich
Nothing stays golden

Yesterday is in the past but tomorrow I don't see coming
We have a gift, a new today but I'm so sick of the present

This is the end of what we used to know
I'm breathing just fine but am I alive
I'm living safe as a lonesome soul
But I'm dying to feel so much less alone
I'm reaching out but I'm feeling nothing

As heavy hearted as a feather with no wind
And broken hearted moving in circles
Like an angel with one wing

Yesterday is in the past but tomorrow I don't see coming
We have a gift, a new today but I'm so sick of the present

This is the end of what we used to know
I'm breathing just fine but am I alive
I'm living safe as a lonesome soul
But I'm dying to feel so much less alone
I'm reaching out but I'm feeling nothing

I'm still there
Walls surrounding me
I'm still there
With bricks others have thrown

This is the end of what I used to know
I'm breathing just fine but am I alive
I'm living safe as a lonesome soul
But I'm dying to feel so much less alone

This is the end of what we used to know
I'm breathing just fine but am I alive
I'm living safe as a lonesome soul
But I'm dying to feel so much less alone

This is the end of what we used to know
I'm breathing just fine but am I alive
I'm living safe as a lonesome soul
But I'm dying to feel so much less alone
I'm reaching out but I'm feeling nothing
Reaching out but I'm feeling nothing


2. CLIP PAPER WINGS

Floating on like a plastic bag without a home
Pages folded became paper planes that we could fly
We've clipped every wing we used to fly

Your wings might be broken but it's not too late
You hide your emotions so you can escape
You can't be afraid to make mistakes
And you can't fake perfection

Broken compass still moving forward
A constant north the one I'll never know
Like everything I gravitate to what ends up killing me
We're separated by a hell of a lot more than the sky

Your wings might be broken but it's not too late
You hide your emotions so you can escape
You can't be afraid to make mistakes
And you can't fake perfection

It's not what you've done but what you'll choose to do

Your wings might be broken but it's not too late
You hide your emotions so you can escape
You can't be afraid to make mistakes
And you can't fake perfection


3. WALLS

I feel at home with shadows from ghosts of the living
I dance along to melodies as silent choirs sing
I'm sick of always giving when there's nothing left to lose
That place we're in is breaking, it's try to break me too

I built these walls to keep the outside world from me
And I'll fight to stay in the hell of my own mind
It's safer on the inside
Underneath where you can't ever get to me
And I'll fight to stay in the hell of my own mind
It's safer on the inside

Built these walls
It's safer on the inside
Built these walls
It's safer on the inside

Chaos reigns inside of all of us
All this pain it's not where I belong
It's not my fate and you're a hypocrite
You're the dying proof of it, now I know

Broken people just like you can be so dangerous
Knowing you'll survive by feeding off the rest of us

I built these walls to keep the outside world from me
And I'll fight to stay in the hell of my own mind
It's safer on the inside
Underneath where you can't ever get to me
And I'll fight to stay in the hell of my own mind
It's safer on the inside

Built these walls
It's safer on the inside
Built these walls
It's safer on the inside
Built these walls
It's safer on the inside
Built these walls
It's safer on the inside

It's safer on the inside
It's safer on the inside

I built these walls to keep the outside world from me
And I'll fight to stay in the hell of my own mind
It's safer on the inside
It's safer on the inside
It's safer on the inside

Underneath where you can't ever get to me
And I'll fight to stay in the hell of my own mind
It's safer on the inside

Built these walls
It's safer on the inside
Built these walls
It's safer on the inside
Built these walls
It's safer on the inside
Built these walls
It's safer on the inside


4. TRAIL OF BLOOD

There's nothing like a trail of blood to find your way back home
And nothing feels as cold inside as heaven down below
I've been lost and never found, afraid to speak my truth out loud
With empty hands I came into this world, and I'll leave just the same

Death, you cannot take me, you've tried and failed before
With everything so deafening, each breath worth fighting for
I refuse to be your casualty 'cause pain has its reward
No longer trapped in agony, you cannot take me, I survive the storm

Is hell a place or just a word, because as far as I can see
They both feel like one in the same, so which do I believe?
Some days we feel everything and others not at all
Do I cave beneath the weight or rise above it all?

Death, you cannot take me, you've tried and failed before
With everything so deafening, each breath worth fighting for
I refuse to be your casualty 'cause pain has its reward
No longer trapped in agony, you cannot take me, I survive the storm

Maybe that's the hell that I'm living
Battles between where I'm numb or I'm feeling
Remember when we filled our lives
With the will to fucking live

Death, you cannot take me, you've tried and failed before
With everything so deafening, each breath worth fighting for
I refuse to be your casualty 'cause pain has its reward
No longer trapped in agony, you cannot take me, I survive the storm

There's nothing like a trail of blood to find your way back home
There's nothing like a trail of blood to find your way back home


5. VERSION OF ME

You're the one who started this, now it's time to finish it
Don't become something you despised when you started
I can feel it in my bones, feel it in the air tonight
Starting arguments with the ghosts of people still alive

I knew exactly what you wanted, I pretend to want the same
Another reason I'm too haunted by what could have been
I feel dead in myself and I can't feel alive in anyone else

If it made you hurt, made you feel so much
It must be love that I gave up

What if this version of me
Gave up today on who it could be?
I know I'm still broken because
I can't fix myself with somebody else that's breaking

Whether you believe you can or can't change
I guess that you'll be right either way
The dark can't keep hiding in darkness
It's getting harder to see

If it made you hurt, made you feel so much
It must be love that I gave up

What if this version of me
Gave up today on who it could be?
I know I'm still broken because
I can't fix myself with somebody else that's breaking
What if we could just escape from our situations?
Out of our heads, let our hearts do the heavy lifting
What if this version of me
Gave up today on who it could be, who it could be?

What if this version of me
Gave up today on who it could be?

What if this version of me
Gave up today on who it could be?
I know I'm still broken because
I can't fix myself with somebody else that's breaking
What if we could just escape from our situations?
Out of our heads, let our hearts do the heavy lifting
What if this version of me
Gave up today on who it could be, who it could be?
Who it could be?
Who it could be?
Who it could be?
Who it could be?


6. HOME BITTERSWEET HOME

On my own, let's face it, that's all I've ever known
What's left to show, that I can break a foundation as quickly as it poured?
But I still believe in things I've never seen
It's bittersweet being homesick for places that don't exist to me

Can we be honest to each other so I can tell the truth myself?
We've all tried to please the world from inside our hollow shell

The safest arms are not my own
I can't carry the weight of what I can't even hold

Can we be honest to each other so I can tell the truth myself?
We've all tried to please the world from inside our hollow shell
I'm not satisfied with happiness, not satisfied with hell
Can we be honest to each other? I'm not happy here with myself

"Counting down the hours till the sun comes up again,
A repeat of the yesterday that I'm stuck within.
Maybe I need urgency, maybe medicine,
It's a hard pill to swallow when you feel like a raindrop in an ocean."

Can we be honest to each other so I can tell the truth myself?
We've all tried to please the world from inside our hollow shell
I'm not satisfied with happiness, not satisfied with hell
Can we be honest to each other? I'm not happy here with myself


7. MISERY HATES COMPANY

Forget about yesterday, it's moved on from you
Live without the doubt that just won't go away
We've all stood at the edge, contemplated jumping
A leap of fear, loss of faith, we can't go

You see a face you think you know
But it's not the one I show
I feel more, more at home
In the places I don't know

I don't belong to my mistakes
Tired of sleeping wide awake
It's killing me slowly
It's crowded and lonely
Even when I crawl I drag my feet
When did the world take hold of me?
It's killing me slowly
It's crowded and lonely
I can't feel at all
I can't feel at all

I find myself back here again
But I'm not empty-handed
I'm not leaving, I'm not done
I'm not the kind that would run
Being lost is a lovely place
To find yourself again

You see a face you think you know
But it's not the one I show
I feel more, more at home
In the places I don't know

I don't belong to my mistakes
Tired of sleeping wide awake
It's killing me slowly
It's crowded and lonely
Even when I crawl I drag my feet
When did the world take hold of me?
It's killing me slowly
It's crowded and lonely
I can't feel at all

I owe another shot to the world
It took a shot at me and missed
I owe another chance to myself
Take me back to the beginning
We all come from something

I belong to my mistakes
Tired of sleeping wide awake
It's killing me slowly
It's crowded and lonely
Even when I crawl I drag my feet
When did the world take hold of me?
It's killing me slowly
It's crowded and lonely
I can't feel at all
I can't feel at all


8. PERFECT STRANGERS

I recognize that smell, it's heaven scent
It reminds me of bridges I've been burning
And I have been abusing things and I am using
Every excuse to leave, but I just want you to stay

And I want to say goodbye, but in my head I said goodnight
I always find a way to mess up good things in my life
Close your eyes on the chapter and this night
I know you've tried to read me, but I threw that page away, away

Maybe if we could just start over
Go back to when we were just perfect strangers
I could reintroduce myself
As someone I'm a hell of a lot more happy with

And I want to say goodbye, but in my head I said goodnight
I'll always find a way to mess up good things in my life
Close your eyes on the chapter and this night
I know you've tried to read me, but I threw that page away, oh-oh
But I threw that page away

Are these the saddest stories
Because they're told the most?

Ooh, let's keep it at goodnight
I always find a way to mess up good things in my life
Close your eyes on the chapter and this night
I know you've tried to read me, but I threw that page away

Close your eyes, say goodnight
Close your eyes, say goodnight


9. BROKEN VESSEL

At the rate things are going, it's getting hard to breathe
And if I don't leave soon, this will be the death of me
Another chapter of my life I keep keeping myself from sharing
You're the compass I still follow, there's no gravity

I'm like a broken vessel, but I didn't sink in the sea
I'm drowning now 'cause I let you inside of me
I wanna feel the fire again, fire again
The flame is gone and all I want
Is the fire again, fire again
The most beautiful hell I've ever seen

Suffocating here on dry land
While you're somewhere pushing somebody else in
I bought in, you were oh so deep
But I won't dive again

I'm like a broken vessel, but I didn't sink in the sea
I'm drowning now 'cause I let you inside of me
I wanna feel the fire again, fire again
The flame is gone and all I want
Is the fire again, fire again
The most beautiful hell I've ever seen

I wanna feel the fire again
The most beautiful hell I've ever been
I'm like a broken vessel, but I didn't sink in the sea
I'm drowning now 'cause I let you inside of me


10. FAUXTOGRAPHIC MEMORY

There are things that I'm dying to tell you
About things that are killing me to say
And I know that I don't want to lose you
But we both know I'll push you away

Fauxtographic memory
A mind that's still developing
I turn my back on all I see
Cause everything feels make believe
Fauxtographic memory
A mind that's still developing
I turn my back on all I see
Cause everything feels make believe
You tried to stay, I made you leave
And made the world give up on me
I can't accept reality
Cause everything feels make believe

Cause everything feels make believe

I keep swallowing the hell so you don't stomach it
From what it's like to be around someone that lives like this
I keep losing sleep in beds still made from soaking sheets
And I'm still haunted by the ghosts of people still breathing

I already hate the words, they're not a thing we even share
Stop looking for a metaphor, it isn't there

Fauxtographic memory
A mind that's still developing
I turn my back on all I see
Cause everything feels make believe
You tried to stay, I made you leave
And made the world give up on me
I can't accept reality
Cause everything feels make believe

Cause everything feels make believe

You're wasting away
You'll have to learn to love within
You'll have to learn to live without
You're wasting away
You'll have to learn to love within
You'll have to learn to live without
You're wasting away

Fauxtographic memory
A mind that's still developing
I turn my back on all I see
Cause everything feels make believe
You tried to stay, I made you leave
And made the world give up on me
I can't accept reality
Cause everything feels make believe

Cause everything feels make believe


11. KEEP ME IN MY BODY

Turn me upside down like an hourglass
Time is running out and too much time has passed
Slipping through the fingers of calloused idle hands
Grasping for a breath while choking on the sand

Maybe I'm too scared to stand in my own skin
Maybe I've become transparent

If I only have one life left to leave
Get me out of my own head, but keep me in my body
This is the lie that I believe
Always blaming someone else, but I do this to myself

You're suffocating me with positivity
But either way, it's still fucking suffocating
I refuse to be what you want from me
I can't be perfect, but tell me what the fuck is perfect anyways?

If I only have one life left to leave
Get me out of my own head, but keep me in my body
This is the lie that I believe
Always blaming someone else, but I do this to myself

I do this to myself
I do this to myself

It's okay to not be okay
It's okay to feel this way

It's okay to feel this way
It's okay to feel this way

I'd rather live than die this way
I'd rather give than take away

If I only have one life left to leave
Get me out of my own head, but keep me in my body
This is the lie that I believe
Always blaming someone else, but I do this to myself

It's okay to feel this way
It's okay to feel this way
It's okay to feel this way
It's okay to feel this way