1. ...AND THEN

As any idiot, I can pretend
I can present to myself
How powerfull I am
Until it comes
A day of change
Of a really bad change
And then
When I find again
That is just another loser what I am
I´ll be able to say:
No, that´s not ok
The world is dirt
The world is dirt
And then
When she comes again
She or anything
That can make me feel better enough
To think I can exterminate my enemies
I´ll be able to say:
That´s ok
Since it´s a human life
I got to live it as a man
Who said I can´t?


2. A MEMORY

Nothing matters anymore
But a memory I hope I won´t lose
It brought me a different way
It was as if the darkness of my soul was small
It fed my desire of believing
It made me notice that my anguish
created a greater ideal
It told me that all search leads to the light
That I must not to give up without a trying
I want to keep it with me
In a place where no one could steal it
Where my faith resists
(Where my reason can´t question)


3. PORTRAIT OF MY SOUL

My solidarity comes only after empathy
My Happiness is a state of conscience´s inebriety
My hypocrisy is the base of collective sincerity
My benevolence is an act of natural selfishness
My lie is a shield to keep me alive
My ethic and moral defy my most intimate feelings
My distrust is a result of my lack of self confidence
My illness is to fail into the temptation of believing
My fragile existence, impotence and passivity
My questions always without answers
My enchantment for the game is lost
My hopelessness feeds my eternal tedium
My best company is loneliness
And my greater desire is a painless death


4. RED MANTLE

Covered by a red mantle
My heart is dead
Drowned in pure blood
not even sadness I can feel now
But nobody is looking at me
I never saw anything so intrigant
At last, all the hearts were dead
But what happened after all?
Even children from the place
They learn not to look at and...
The red mantle covered us all
Who did kill our hearts?
Will it be does anybody want to know
What did it represent in us?
It represent our only chance


5. I WON'T ASK

I won´t look the sky to ask you rain
I´ll make rain, I´ll be rain and water the land
And thus I´ll make my paradise a fruit of faith
Faith in my strength, the miracle is in me
The destiny of life belongs to me
I won´t wait for you because the solution is in me
Before the altars, I lose my time
I´ll defeat my despair without mystifying
And when I succeed, I don´t want to be sanctified
I won´t ask you to cure me anymore
I´ll make the cure, I´ll be the cure, I´ll stand straight
And thus I´ll make my paradise a fruit of faith
Faith in my strength, the miracle is in me


6. SEARCH OF ESSENCE

The essence of man is light
Together, some corrupt others
The essence of man is darkness
Together, some try to control the others
Search in the deepness of being
Each one of us has it own answers
Hungry men pop in their mind
Object of the desire won´t be shared
Some vanish their hunger using the force
Others, weakers, for sure will die
Now my feelings betray me
I wish not to believe in all of this
I will live in the shadows controlling my impulses
And my answers I still have not
Each dream, each hope, trasform
Illuminate my mind
And clarifying the facts, my answers comes up
The equality was created because we are not equal
I know the answers and I hide
For how long, pretending am I?
Where will this question lead me?
I´ll only know what I´m looking for
I will discover my essence and It will change nothing


7. AFTER ALL

After searching for me
After a so long time
After barring my dreams
After shutting my mouth
I thought I was ready for everything
Anything could be mine
But, after all
I found I didn´t care anymore
The search was my only prize
But now the search is over
And I feel as everything I did
Was almost meaningless
The road was end
The road was end
After all


8. EYES THAT ROAM IN THE DARK II

This maze has no exit
I am tired of searching
I think, indeed, that I am already getting used to it
Its walls are always familiar
Something that can always predicted
I am lost in my lack of faith
I fear the destiny that waits for me
I cry for not having dreams, for a pain that I feel
A pain that I can´t explain with words
I feel, I suffer, I cry and I try to die
There is always one piece missing in the puzzle
Which reason would make me happy
Not even reason itself answers
I´ll continue here and I´ll watch
Life dispersing, getting lost
Inside of me, I´m already lost
Inside of me, I´m already dead
And without courage of finishing that all


9. MUTATION

Nobody deserves a second chance
And just some people deserve the first
Finally, I am learning to be fair
How can I forgive if I can´t forget
I don´t want to be correct anymore
I just want to survive
I am changing and I can´t stop
Don´t ask me to come back
Now, I want to make mistakes,
I chose to be a sinner
After all, god needs to be compassionate
I´m changing and finally I am myself