1. VIOLENT MOOD SWINGS

Motherfuck the way you think
You never made sense anyway
Building up to tear it down
You're codependent on apathy
By design you fucking sterilize - so you desensitize
Make it easier to swallow
Self-involved you fucking took it all - who's gonna take the fall
Cause it's never gonna be the same, change

Don't wanna see, don't wanna think
Don't wanna speak for yourself
It's like a fucking disease and it shows

Repetition paves the way
All for you to weaken and sedate
So contrived and watered down
A fucking shadow of what should have been
Isolate so you can separate - and fucking terminate
To diffuse the situation
Force on me a common enemy - with no identity
Now it's showing your perception too, too

You will never see


2. SMOTHERED

The black and cold reminds me
Of all the distance we have crossed
And if your darkness blinds me
I could never be more lost

But I'm not the one who seeks your protection
I'm not the one to share the disguise
And I'm not the one who reeks of rejection
I'm not the one to tear the same way twice

You push from the inside - smothered
You push from the inside out - smothered

Have all your walls surround me
They're closing in they block my sight
The violence around me
Found me when I could not fight

But I'm not the one to take your direction
I'm not the one who wears the disguise
And I'm not the one to share your reflection
I'm not the one you break the same way twice

I will never win
I will never win with you

I read you
I fear you round up no more than you know
I hate you
I still do everytime you let me go


3. STILLBORN

I don't think you want to be the one to see inside yourself
I don't think you want to understand
That it clouds up your mind
I don't think you want to undermine
I don't think you want the bottomline
I don't think you want to see inside this goal
That you've created

No, you don't even listen
You don't even hear me until I scream at you
Now, I see your intention
A new intervention just to wear me down
Breed, selected division
You're on a collison course with your beliefs
Find a new evolution
You're full of sollutions now that you're born again

Reborn like a motherfucking stillborn
All devoid of feeling reborn
All devoid of feeling

I don't think you'll ever be
The one to take the blame yourself
I don't think you'd even want to try
To see through different eyes
I don't think you want to sacrifice
I don't think you want to fucking try
I don't think you want to step outside
This lie that's been inbedded

Think, it's all a delusion
Relieve your confusion when you put me down
Fear, afraid to accept it
You only defend it 'cause it's handed down
Faith, it's all on the surface
It's only convenient when you follow through
No, I'm not gonna give in
You're already beaten when you're born again

It's time to make the cut
And let you bleed for yourself on your own
Of all the things I need
Is just for you to stop from judging me

Sick
So get the fuck away from me
You make me sick
So stay the fuck away from me

Reborn like a motherfucking stillborn


4. DEAD TO ME

Put on another face, they always take the place
Of all the things that you have become
Your instability is nothing new to me
It's always something that made you what you are

You're dead inside
You killed your pride
I won't be there
And no one cares
Your insecurity
The failure that it brings
And all your misery
Keeps coming back to me

Save yourself the pain
And go away
For the rest of my life
Bury you today
I separate
For the rest of my life

You give me countless lies and hope I sympathize
You hit my only nerve and that is all it took
Separation now
Let it go, you let it go
New evolution
Thrown away
You're thrown away, you're gone

I'm done with you
Dont follow through
I won't be there
Cause you don't care
The way you're suffering
Is all the same to me
Your cred-ibility
Killed your reality

Your delusion
Claim confusion
Easier to pass the blame on
All your hatred
Seems so wasted
You're the one who's dead inside me

You're fucking dead to me


5. ASTHMATIC

It starts to tear me down
Destroyed by what I create
It left the nerve exposed
Feels like a lost cause
Frustration's all I have left
It's what reduced me to this
Turned me against myself
It's still a lost cause

I can't keep doing this to myself
But it's the only way to forget who I am

Your disability
Kept pushing me away
It went beneath what's so real to me
And threw it all away
I underestimated
The lengths that you would have gone
To deny who you are
You threw it all away

I will keep doing this to myself

Cause it's the only way to forget who I am

I never wanted your help
I never needed your help

This failure has to be all mine all mine now
I'll turn my back on myself
If it's my only way out
It can only help me if it hurts

I won't give into, I won't give into...
I won't become one with your lies

I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
This failure has to be all mine all mine now
I'll turn my back on myself
If it's my only way out
I'm too tired to feel anything anyway

I will keep doing this to myself
Cause it's the only way to forget who I am

I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
This failure has to be all mine all mine now
I'll turn my back on myself
If it's my only way out
I'm too tired to feel anything anyway

I have become one with your lies


6. THE HEIGHT OF CALLOUSNESS

My frustration caused the callous
Turned my senses into spite
My perception with no conscience
Made the fear seem almost right

I was unaffected for so long
Now I'm fucking ruined
I was desperation for so long
Now it's fucking gone

Can I see it? Can I see it? Can I see it? Can I?
I can't even recognize myself
I turned into what destroyed it
Drown the truth out until it all makes sense again

I was unaffected for so long
Now I'm fucking ruined
I was desperation for so long
Now it's fucking gone

Take my fucking conscience from me
Try to save me from myself
Turn my fucking thoughts against me
Now my ways will be dissolved

Fuck integrity
Fuck integrity

My frustration caused the callous
Turned my senses into spite
My perception with no conscience
Made the dear seem almost right

I was unaffected for so long
Now I'm fucking ruined
I was desperation for so long
Now it's fucking gone

Take my fucking conscience from me
Try to save me from myself
Turn my fucking thoughts against me
Now my ways will be dissolved

The height of callousness
The height of callousness takes over
The height of callousness
The height of callousness it's over

Fuck integrity
Fuck integrity


7. NEW DISEASE

Now I can take this, everything I know
Realize that I'm nothing I wanted to be
I can never change anything I've done
Because it's the only this I have left

Blame myself again for what I didn't do
Never even knew it was coming from me
It changed the way I felt, the worst is yet to come
Because I have gone too far now

Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

Is this all worth what this has done to me
Watered down my senses and turned them on me

Fuck morality and everything I know
If I didn't hate this than I couldn't cope
Impersonate myself for what I used to be
Denial is all that's left now

Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
This meant so much to me

Doubt
Did I ever want this?
It's all I could've been, it's all I would've been
Doubt
Did I ever want this?
It's all I've ever been, it's all I'll ever be

Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
This meant so much to me

Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease


8. SYNTHETIC

I can never feel the way you do
But it still becomes me now
I can't take the way you do
But it's still inside me

Synthetic solution
Synthetic, I'll become
Synthetic, if it makes this go away

Still I waste another day of my life
And it sickens me to feel this way
Now I can't make up my mind, is this right
How I let you get inside of me?

Twist my words the way that you do
Cause it falls on deaf ears now
Still, I've learned to numb your views
But they're still inside me

Synthetic solution
Synthetic, I'll become
Synthetic if it makes this go away

Still I waste another day of my life
And it sickens me to feel this way
Now I can't make up my mind, is this right
Now I let you get inside of me?

I will never follow you...

At this time I thought I was myself
And I thought I never could become you
All this time I thought I was myself
And I thought I never could become you
Wrong

Still I waste another day of my life
And it sickens me to feel this way
Now I can't make up my mind, is this right

How I let you get inside of me?

I have become synthetic


9. CYANIDE 2600

Your disease is a fucking waste of time
Turn it on when it fits your needs
Never mattered that I couldn't feel a thing
Anything you meant was forgot

Tear it down, it's what you don't know
Turn it around because it questions your integrity
Take it away because you can't control it
Throw it away because its what you are

Your tongue's a dying wasted lie
I've seen through you when you need
What makes you think it's not your fault
Everything you were is so far gone

You don't want to know if you don't get it
Everything you touch is dead or terminal
Everything you were walks away from me
Everything you were is lost

Realize what you've become
Criticize to make it all numb
Separate yourself from your views
What it takes to redeem yourself

I can see it start to begin
Everything that you thought was so clear
Shutting down what you thought was real

Giving up to a lesser God
It's all you're worth and it's all you were
Shutting down what you thought was real
What it takes to redeem yourself

Realize what you've become
Criticize to make it all numb
Separate yourself from your views
What it takes to redeem yourself

What it takes to redeem yourself
It's all you're worth...


10. DETACHED

What do you believe?
Or do you still conceive?
What do you believe?

See what you do to me
You feed off my mind, well then you break my ability
To maintain a 20/20 vision on life
So why not let the pain go...

Detached, crawl inside my head
Open up my mind is all they told me
Detached, and I don't relate to your fantasy
But I'm detached

What do you want from me?
There's nothing left to bleed
What do you want from me?

See what you do to me
You feed off my mind, well then you break my ability
To maintain a 20/20 vision on life
So why not let the pain go...

Detached, crawl inside my head
Open up my mind is all they told me
Detached, and I don't relate to your fantasy
But I'm detached

Away, there's no shame
I can't stop the bleeding

Fall - who killed the lights on me?
Fall - that's how it has to be
Fall - someday you'll come to see
Fall

Don't let it rain, don't let it rain...

Detached, crawl inside my head
Open up my mind is all they told me
Detached, and I don't relate to your fantasy
But I'm detached

Don't you let it rain...


11. WHERE WE FALL

One time feel the restraint take
Disposed, pull my head away
Fall down, reject what's in front of me
But I feed the open intent
Let you relieve it if it's what you needed to achieve it
Slow down, my breath can it feel right
But they tried to question my insight
And I start to blister without
Flowing through my tongue starts to grow

It's now retired - enter me
Come inside my empathy
It's now retired - enter me
Let it go and you will see

Would you fuckin' try to calm down
What else would you put me through
While I watched what happened to you
Now you say I need to put it all away
Your regret keeps me going cause you beat me to it
You tell me how I should feel
Try and stop always changing what you want to see
Can you keep your higher ground when you look straight
Cause where we fall is where we rise

It's now retired - enter me
Come inside my empathy
It's now retired - enter me
Let it go and you will see

Why we fall, I look at myself, I'm feeling small
And now I fall

For all of my life, is this what you sold me?

One time feel the restraint take
Disposed, pull my head away
Fall down, reject what's in front of me
Still I feed the open intent
Let you relieve it if it's what you needed to achieve it
Slow down my breath can it feel right
But they tried to question my insight
And I start to blister without
Flowing through my tongue starts to grow

It's now retired - enter me
Come inside my empathy
It's now retired - enter me
Let it go and you will see

Do I even fucking care?


12. SHINEBOX

Confide in you, decide it's true

Forced on me and then you don't like it
Forced on me and then you don't like it
Forced on me and then you don't like it
Forced on me and then you don't like it

I break in two because of you

Forced on me and then you don't like it
Forced on me and then you don't like it
Forced on me and then you don't like it
Forced on me and then you don't like it

Seems to be a crime and so you feed it more
Seems to be a crime and so you feed it more
Seems to be a crime and so you feed it more
Seems to be

So sad, what if you don't like it, you don't like it
So sad, what if you don't like it, you don't like it, you lose

You get it

Don't lie to me...