1. IOWA (INTRO)

Relax...it's over,you belong to me,
I fill your mouth with dirt
Relax...it's over,you can never leave
I take your second digit with me... love..
You are...my first,I can breath
I find you fascinating
You are...my favorite,lay you down to sleep
It's all that I can do to stop...love..
So blue...so broken,paper doll decays
I haven't left you yet
So cold...subversive,your eyes are full of bleach
Tomorrow, I will go away again...love...
You are mine,
You will always be mine,
I can tear you apart
I can recombine you
All I want is to covet you all
You belong to me
I will kill you to love you.
(Love)


2. EXECUTE

It appears that we have reached the edge,
That zenith where stimuli and comatose collide
Forty years ago, the man proclaimed the age of the gross
To be upon us, and even though the man was destroying
Our heritage and insulting our intelligence,
That era has become very real.
We labor for pleasure and abhor the guilt of pressure.
My generation will go down as the architects
Of contemporary disgust.
Some have fought and died.
Others have allowed the strong to be butchered for a price
They themselves don't care about and will never understand.
I myself am beleaguered by the selfish face of a kind of Man that is not mankind.
Distrust in information.
Fundamentalism of opinion.
Catastrophic boredom, and a fanatical devotion to that which does not matter.
Where is your glory now, people?
Where are your gods and politicians?
Where is your shame and salvation?
You rage for no reason because you have no reason.

What have you ever fought for ?
What have you ever bled for?
The face of tge earth is scarred with the walking dead.
The age of the gross is a living virus.
This is the future you have created.
This is the world you have set ablaze.
All you lies are coming true.
All freedom is lost.
All hope is gone.


3. GEMATRIA (THE KILLING NAME)

12/08/73 - That was all I got and now you got me

All I ever really wanted was to take the blame
I will go down in history and not down in flames
Meningitis / I will survive this / Dry Sockets and a Schizophrenic crisis
The time of the nine has begun
Get out of the way or you will suffer as one

This is so typical / Apocalyptical
Hanging on abysmal release / Jesus
I don't need this / Don't wanna be this
Icon in the making / My hands are f**king shaking

What if God doesn't care?
What if God doesn't care…

Remember / Surrender / The time is now
Continue / We're in you… and we will burn your cities down

America is a killing name
It doesn't feel or discriminate
Life is just a killing field
It's all that's left - nothing's real
Throw away your disposable past
And fall apart like a cigarette ash
We are the fatal and vital ones of the world
And we will burn your cities down

What if god doesn't care?
What if god doesn't care?

America is a killing name
It doesn't feel or discriminate
Life is just a killing field
It's all that's left - nothing's real
Throw away your disposable past
And fall apart like a cigarette ash
We are the fatal and vital ones of the world
And we will burn your cities down

Down…

We will burn your cities down

Feed the Hungry - Feed them shit
Feed them bones and politics
You wanna revolutionize?
Be specific and believe your eyes
Start a war in another backyard
And we'll destroy your house of cards
Give me a minute and I'll change your mind
Give me a bullet and I'll change your life

Remember / Surrender / The time is now
Continue / We're in you…
And we will burn your cities down

America is a killing name
It doesn't feel or discriminate
Life is just a killing field
It's all that's left - nothing's real
Throw away your disposable past
And fall apart like a cigarette ash
We are the fatal and vital ones of the world
And we will burn your cities down

We will burn your cities down

America…what if "God" doesn't care?


4. LEFT BEHIND

I know I know the faces that have disappeared in time
Find me wrapped in glass and slowly soaked in lime
All my friends have pictures made to make you cry
I've seen this and wondered what I've done to
Calcify...

(I ignore you)
As I close my eyes, I feel it all slipping away
(I come toward you)
We all got left behind, we let it all slip away

I can't stand to see your thalidomide robot face
Don't even try it! You had to be a liar just to
Infiltrate me - I'm still drowning

(I ignore you)
As I close my eyes,I feel it all slipping away
(I come toward you)
We all got left behind,we let it all slip away

Take...this...away..
I can feel it on my mouth
I can taste you on my fingers
I can hear you like the holy ghost
And kill you if you get too close


5. DUALITY

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the tings I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on

Have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited as my time's elapsed
Now all I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact
You cannot kill what you did not create
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You're left with me 'cause you left me no choice

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on - I'm not gonna make it!

Put me back together or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the pieces then you can leave me alone
Tell me the reality is better than the dream
But I found out the hard way - Nothing is what it seems!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works its way inside
If the pain goes on - I'm not gonna make it!
All I've got, all I've got is insane

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works its way inside
If the pain goes on, I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got, all I've got is insane


6. WAIT AND BLEED

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander over where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

Goodbye!

I wipe it off on tile, the light is brighter this time
Everything is 3D blasphemy
My eyes are red and gold, the hair is standing straight up
This is not the way I pictured me
I can't control my shakes
How the hell did I get here?
Something about this, so very wrong...
I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn't like this
Is it a dream or a memory?

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander over where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

Get outta my head cuz I don't need this
Why I didn't I see this?
I'm a victim - Manchurian candidate
I have sinned by just
Makin' my mind up and takin' your breath away

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander over where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

Goodbye!

You haven't learned a thing
I haven't changed a thing
My flesh was in my bones
The pain was always free

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

And it waits for you!


7. EYELESS

Insane - am I the only motherfucker with a brain?
I'm hearing voices, but all they do is complain
How many time have you wanted to kill
Everything and everyone - say you'll do it but never will

You can't see California without Marlon Brando's eyes

I am my father son
Cuz hes a phantom, a mystery, and that leaves me nothing!
How many time hace you wanted to die?
Its too late for me - all you have to do is get rid of me

It's all in your head
It's all in my head
It's all in my head

I tried - you lied to me for so long.
Everywhere I go, there's a sense of it
Freak on my antics and give me a choice
Doesn't matter if I give a shit
It's the shit that you gave me

Do you wanna feel pain? Takin' my name in vain
Caring never felt so lame inside
Anybody else got pride? Do you wanna take my life?
Maybe I'll reverse my ride
Who the fuck are you? Fuck you!
Better suck it up cuz you bled through
Better get away from me
Stay the fuck away from me

I feel safe - seems you're saved

Look me in my brand new eye


8. SULFUR

My guilt and my shame always sell me short
Always feel the same
And my face and my soul always wear me thin
Always under control
But the longest hours you'll have in your life
Are the ones you sit through to know if you're right
So I'll wait, but I pray that I'm wrong
Because I think I know what's going on

So let me get this straight… the only will is my own
I do whatever I want and stay alone
All my decisions make it untouchable and tainted
I'm gonna suffer for the rest of my life
But I will always find a way to survive
I'm not a failure, but I know what it's like
I can take it or leave it… or die

Stay - You don't always know where you stand
'Til you know that you won't run away
There's something inside me that feels
Like breathing in Sulfur…

My life is undone
And I'm a sinner to most but a sage to some
And my gods are untrue
I'm probably wrong, but I'm better than you
And the longest hours I've had in my life
Were the ones I went through to know I was right
So I'm safe, but I'm a little outside
I'm gonna laugh when I'm buried alive

Stay - You don't always know where you stand
'Til you know that you won't run away
There's something inside me that feels
Like breathing in sulfur…

Like breathing in sulfur

Stay - You don't always know where you stand
'Til you know that you won't run away
There's something inside me that feels
Like breathing in sulfur…

Like breathing in sulfur


9. VERMILION

She seems dressed in all the rings, of past fatalities
So fragile, yet so devious, she continues to see
Climatic hands that press her temples and my chest
Enter the night that she came home, forever

Oh...
She's the only one that makes me sad!

She is everything and more, the solemn hypnotic
My dahlia, bathed in possession, she is home to me
I get nervous, perverse when I see her it's worse
But the stress is astounding
It's now or never, she's coming home, forever

Oh...
She's the only one that makes me sad!

Hard to say what caught my attention
Fixed and crazy, aphid attraction
Carve my name in my face...to recognize
Such a pheromone cult to terrorize

I won't let this build up inside of me... (x4)

I'm a slave and I am a master
No restraints and unchecked collectors
I exist through my need to self-oblige
She is something in me that I despise

I won't let this build up inside of me... (x8)

She isn't real, I can't make her real (x4)


10. THE NAMELESS

Obsession - take another look
Remember every chance you took
Decide - either live with me
Or give up, any thought you had of being free

Don't Go! I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you...
I Know, the only thing I ever really loved, was hate

Anyone, No, anything, yes, anyways, fall, anybody, mine
Anybody, tell me
I want, you, I need, you, I'll have, you,
I won't let anybody have you
Obey, me, believe, me, just trust, me, worship, me
Live for, me
Be grateful, now, be honest, NOW, be precious, now
Be mine, just love me!!!!!!!!

Possession - feed my only vice
Confession - I won't tell you twice
Decide - either die for me
Or give up any chance you had of being free

Don't go! I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you...
I know, the only thing
I ever really loved, was hurting you...
Don't go! I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you...
I know, the only thing I ever really loved was hate...

Stay inside the hole, let me take control
Dominate
You are nothing more, you are something less
Innocent
Something has to give, something has to break
Omnipresent
Fingers in your skin, let my savage in
You deserve it

Don't go, I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you...
I know, the only thing
I ever really loved was hurting you...
Don't go, I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you...
I know, the only thing I ever really loved was hate...

You're mine! I know who you are!

I can see you but you can't see me
I could touch you and you wouldn't even feel me
Wait a second and you'll settle down
I'm just waiting 'till you really let your guard down
You're relaxed, you're sublime, you're amazing
You don't even know the danger your facing
If I'm quiet, I'll slide up behind you
And if you hear me, I'll enjoy trying to find you


11. DISASTERPIECE

I wanna slit your throat and fuck the wound
I wanna push my face in and feel the swoon
I wanna dig inside,find a little bit of me
Cuz the line gets crossed when you don't come clean

My wormwood meets your pesticide
You'll never get out,cuz you were never alive
I am infinite, I am the infant finite
Come a little closer and I'll show you why

(No one is - safe)
Noises,noises,people make noises
People make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to nothing

How does it feel to be locked inside another dream
That never had a chance of being realized?
What the fuck are you lookin' at?
I'll tell you what you're lookin' at
Everyone you ever fuckin' laughed at

Look in my eyes for the answers - typical
I can feel it underneath like a miracle
Everybody in the world needs more than
Lies and consequences to power them
Once again,it's me and no one else
I can't remember if there was a someone else
It's not mine,it's not fair,it's outta my hands
And it's shaking - you'll never take me

(No one is - safe)
Noises,noises,people make noises
People make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to nothing

Nothing!

(Hate) Hate ain't enough to describe me
(Scream) Somewhere between screaming and crying
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be

(Why) When do I get to know why?
(Bitter) Bitter as the stink of when I try
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be

Pull your hands away
I'm gone - goodbye - it's so depressing
Withering away
Take a look - inside - my soul is missing
All I have is dead,so I'll take you with me
Feel like I'm erased - so kill me just in case

(Covet) Everything around me's mine
(Sty) Can't see through the sties in my eyes
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be

(Down) Scratching and clawing all the way
(Stay) You won't let me fucking stay
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be

(Live) Is there another way to live?
(Die) Cuz it's the only way to die
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be


12. PURITY

Maze... psychopathic daze... I create this waste
Back away from tangents, on the verge of drastic
Ways... can't escape this place... I deny your face
Sweat gets in my eyes, I think I'm slowly dying

Put me in a homemade cellar
Put me in a hole for shelter
Someone hear me please, all I see is hate
I can hardly breathe and I can hardly take it!

Hands on my face over bearing i can't get out

Lost... ran at my own cost... hearing laughter, scoffed
Learning from the rush, detached from such and such
Bleak... all around me weak... listening incomplete
I am not a dog, but I'm the one you're dogging

I am in a buried kennel
I have never felt so final
Someone find me please... losing all reserve
I am fucking gone, I think I'm fucking dying

You all stare, but you'll never see
There is something inside me
There is something in you I despise

Cut me - show me - enter - I am
Willing and able and never any danger to myself
Knowledge in my pain, knowlege in my pain
Or was my tolerence a phase
Empathy, out of my way
I can't die


13. DEAD MEMORIES

Sitting in the dark, I can't forget.
Even now, I realize the time I'll never get.
Another story of the bitter pills of fate.
I can't go back again.
I can't go back again…
But you asked me to love you and I did.
Traded my emotions for a contract to commit.
And when I got away, I only got so far.
The other me is dead.
I hear his voice inside my head…
We were never alive, and we won't be born again.
But I'll never survive with dead memories in my heart.
You told me to love you and I did.
Tied my soul into a knot and got me to submit.
So when I got away, I only kept my scars.
The other me is gone.
Now I don't know where I belong…
We were never alive, and we won't be born again.
But I'll never survive with dead memories in my heart.
Dead visions in your name.
Dead fingers in my veins.
Dead memories in my heart…


14. 515

(Instrumental)


15. PEOPLE = SHIT

Here we go again, motherfucker

Come on down,and see the idiot right here
Too fucked to beg and not afraid to care
What's the matter with calamity anyway?
Right? Get the fuck outta my face
Understand that I can't feel anything
It isn't like I wanna sift through the decay
I feel like a wound,like I got a fuckin'
Gun against my head,you live when I'm dead

One more time, motherfucker

Everybody hates me now,so fuck it
Blood's on my face and my hands,and I
Don't know why,I'm not afraid to cry
But that's none of your business
Whose life is it? Get it? See it? Feel it? Eat it?
Spin it around so I can spit in its face
I wanna leave without a trace
Cuz I don't wanna die in this place

People = Shit
People = Shit (Whatcha gonna do?)
People = Shit (Cuz I am not afraid of you)
People = Shit (I'm everything you'll never be)
People = Shit

It never stops - you can't be everything to everyone
Contagion - I'm sittin' at the side of Satan
What do you want from me?
They never told me the failure I was meant to be
Overdo it - don't tell me you blew it
Stop your bitchin' and fight your way through it
I'm - Not - Like - You - I - Just - Fuck - Up

C'mon motherfucker, everbody has to die

People = Shit
People = Shit (Whatcha gonna do?)
People = Shit (Cuz I am not afraid of you)
People = Shit (I'm everything you'll never be)
People = Shit


16. PRELUDE 3.0

I don't know why I never told you
I don't know why I never tried
When we shed these bitter skins again
All the reasons come to life
But now it's over

I don't know why you never asked me
I don't know why you never cared
When we hide these little sins again
All the reasons have to die
But now it's over
No!


17. THE BLISTER EXISTS

Bones in the water and dust in my lungs
Absorbing archaic like a sponge
The ultimate way is the way you control
But can you stay if you detach your soul?
Bury the present and squeeze out the past
The ones you endear to never last
Chemical burns and the animalistic
I'm just another harddline pseudo-statistic

Can you feel this?
I'm dying to feel this
Can you feel this?

Blood on the paper and skin on my teeth
Trying to commit to what's beneath
To find the time is to lose the momentum
You learn the lessons and immediately forget them
Automatic and out of my reach
Consult all the waste to find the key
Minimal life and the polysyllabic
I'm just another blank page
Push the button, pull the rage

Can you feel this?
I'm dying to feel this
Can you feel this?

I am all, but what am I?
Another number that isn't equal to any of you
I control, but I comply
Pick me apart, then pick up the pieces
I'm uneven!!!!

I am the damaged one!
All my life and the damage done!
I am the damaged one!
All my life and the damage done!

Can you feel this ?
I'm dying to feel this
Can you feel this?
I'm dying to feel this!!

I am all but what am I ?
Another number that isn't equal to any of you
I control, but I comply
Pick me apart, then pick up the pieces
I'm uneven!!!!!!!


18. PSYCHOSOCIAL

I did my time, and I want out
so abusive,fate
It doesn't cut,
The soul is not so vibrant
The reckoning, the sickening
Back at you, subversion
Pseudo-sacred with scared perversion
Go drill your gasses,
Go dig your graves
Then fill your mouth
With all the money you will save
Sinking in, getting smaller again
Undone, it has begun
I'm not the only one

And the rain will kill us all,
Throw ourselves against the wall
But no one else can see,
The preservation of the martyr in me

Psychosocial, psychosocial, psychosocial
Psychosocial, psychosocial, psychosocial

Oh, there are cracks, in the road we lay
From where the devil fell
The secrets have gone mad!
This is nothing new,
But would we kill it all?
Fate was all we had
Who needs another mess?
We could start over
Just look me in the eyes
And say I'm wrong
Now there's only emptiness,
But a message to bring
I think we're done
I'm not the only one!

And the rain will kill us all,
Throw ourselves against the wall
But no one else can see,
The preservation of the martyr in me

Psychosocial, psychosocial, psychosocial
Psychosocial, psychosocial, psychosocial

The limits of the day!,
The limits of the day!,
The limits of the day!,
The limits of the day!!

Fake and defenseless lie,
(Psychosocial),
I tried to tell you first,
(Psychosocial),
Your hurtful lies are given out,
(Psychosocial),
Can't stop the killing idea,
(Psychosocial),
If it's hunting season,
(Psychosocial),
Is this what you want?,
(Psychosocial),
I'm not the only one!

And the rain will kill us all,
Throw ourselves against the wall
But no one else can see,
The preservation of the martyr in me

And the rain will kill us all,
Throw ourselves against the wall
But no one else can see,
The preservation of the martyr in me.

The limits of the day!,
The limits of the day!


19. SPIT IT OUT

Since you never gave a damn in the first place
Maybe its time you had the tables turned
Cuz in the interest of all involved I got the problem solved
And the verdict is guilty..

...Man nearly killed me
Steppin' where you fear to tread
Stop, drop, and roll - you were dead from the git-go!
Big mouth fucker, stupid cocksucker
Are you scared of me now? Then you're dumber than I thought

Always is and never was
Foundation made of piss and vinegar
Step to me, I'll smear ya - think I fear ya? Bullshit!
Just another dumb punk chompin' at this tit
Is there anyway to break through the noise?
Was it something that I said that got you bent?
Its gotta be that way if you want it
Sanity, literal profanity - hit me!

Spit it out
All you wanna do is drag me down
All I wanna do is stamp you out

Maybe its the way you gota spread a lotta rumor fodder
Keepin' all your little spies and leavin'
When you realize
Step up, fairy
I guess its time to bury your ass
With the chrome straight to the dome
You heard me right bitch, I didn't stutter
And if you know what's good just shut up and beg, brother
Backstab - don't you know who you're dissin'?
Side swipe - we know the ass that you're kissin'!

Bigity-biggidy bitch boy, halfway houser
Don't hear shit cuz I keeps gettin' louder
Come up and you get a face full o' tactic
Lippin' off hard, goin' home in a basket
You got no pull, no power no nothin'
Now you start shit? Well ain't that something?
Payoffs don't protect and you can hide if you want
But I'll find you - comin' up behind you!

'Bout time I set this record straight
Cuz all the needlenose punchin' is makin' me irate
Sick o' my bitchin' fallin' on deaf ears
Where you gonna be in the next five years?
The crew and all the fools and all the politix
Get your lips ready, gonna gag, gonna make you sick
You got dick when they passed out the good stuff
Bam - are you sick of me?
Good enough - had enough

Fuck me! I'm all out of enemies!
Fuck me! I'm all out of enemies!


20. HERETIC ANTHEM

I'm a ennemi pop star threat and I'm not dead yet
Got a super dred bet with an angel drug head
Like a dead beat winner,I wanna to be a sinner
An idolized bang for the industry killer
A hideous man that you don't understand
Throw a suicide party and I'm guaranteed to fucking snap
It's evilsonic,it's pornoholic
Breakdown,obscenities it's all I wanna be

If you're 555, then I'm 666
If you're 555, I'm 666
(What's it like to be a heretic?)

Everbody's so infatuated
Everybody's so completely sure of what we are
Everybody defamates from miles away
But face to face,they haven't got a thing to say
I bleed for this and I bleed for you
Still you look in my face like I'm somebody new
Toy - nobody wants anything I've got
Which is fine,because you're made of
Everything - I'm - Not

If you're 555,then I'm 666
If you're 555,I'm 666
(What's it like to be a heretic?)

30 seconds, 16, 8, 4, lemme tell you why
I haven't the slightest,I'm teaching your brightest
They're listening,clamoring
All the money in the world can't buy me
Go ahead, lie to me
Tell me again how you're tortured
I wanna know how you followed your order so well
You're full of shit
You had a dream, but this ain't it


21. MY PLAGUE

I'm in conniptions for the final act you came here for
The one derivative you manage is the one I abhor
I need a minute to elaborate for everone the
Everyday bullshit things that you have done

Your impossible ego fuck is like a
Megalomaniacal tab on my tongue
You fuckin' touch me I will rip you apart
I'll reach in and take a bite out of that
Shit you call a heart...

I don't mind being ogled,ridiculed
Made to feel minuscule
If you consider the source,it's kinda pitiful
The only thing you really know about me is...
...That's all you'll ever know

I know why you blame me(yourself)
I know why you plague me(yourself)

I'm turning it around like a knife in the shell
I wanna understand why,but I'm hurting myself
I haven't seen a reason to stop it
I can't just drop it
I'm just a bastard,but at least I admit it
At least I admit it

I know why you blame me(yourself)
I know why you plague me(yourself)

Kill you - fuck you - I will never be you
Kill you - fuck you - I will never be you
I can't fuckin' take it anymore
A snap of the synapse
And now it's fuckin' war
Kill you - fuck you - I will never be you


22. ALL HOPE IS GONE

The state of the nation - violation!
A broken promise is as good as a lie.
The hell is humongous, the devil's among us
And we will burn because we won't unite!

We won't witness anymore freedom.
Where is anybody? Do we need 'em?"
I would rather fight,
Than let another die.
We're the problem,
But we're also the solution.
All hope is gone!!!

If you want you cannot take it from me.
If you think you can, you still don't know me.
Let me tell you, when I said it, I meant it
And I will always have the right to defend it.

Fifty seconds, a hundred murders.
The bill of rights is a bill of sale.
What will you do when the war is over?
What will you do when your systems fail!?

[Chorus:]
We have made the presence -obsolete.
What do you want?
What do you need?
We'll find a way,
When all hope is gone!
We've seen the fall of the elite.
Bury your life,
Take your disease.
We'll end the world,
When all hope is gone!

[Chorus]

The wretched are the wounded,
The hungry starved to death.
At a place where no-one goes,
The air itself is a final breathe.
So discontinue,
The antisceptic cash charade.
As the cry of justice comes,
Our malignant fire fades.

I am the reason your future suffers.
I am the hatred you won't embrace.
I am the worm of a pure distinction.
I am the remedy, spit in my face!
All your lies and wars are out-dated.
All your subjects are dulling mind games.
I can rattle off a million other reasons why
But doesn't matter when the only thing we love will die.

[Chorus] (x2)


23. SNUFF

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again…

So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care.
I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my fate
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you…
My smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart… when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not hear.
I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love.
Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend.
Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a saint…
My own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away - You're all the same
Angels lie to keep control…
My love was punished long ago
If you still care, don't ever let me know
If you still care, don't ever let me know…


24. SURFACING

Running out of ways to run
I can't see, I can't be
Over and over and under my skin
All this attention is doing me in

Fuck it all! Fuck this world!
Fuck everything that you stand for!
Don't belong! Don't exist!
Don't give a shit!
Don't ever judge me!

Picking through the parts exposed
Taking shape, taking shag
Over and over and under my skin
All this momentum is doing me in!

You got all my love, livin' in your own hate
Drippin' hole man, hard step, no fate
Showin' you nothing, but I ain't holdin' back
Every damn word I say is a sneak attack
When I get my hands on you
Ain't a fucking thing you can do
Get this cuz you're never gonna get me
I am the very disease you pretend to be

I am the push that makes you move


25. BEFORE I FORGET

Stapled shut inside an outside world
And I'm sealed in tight - bizarre but right at home
I'm claustrophobic closing in
And I'm catastrophic, not again
I'm smeared across the page and doused in gasoline
I wear you like a stain, yet I'm the one who's obscene
Catch me up on all your sordid little insurrections
I've got no time to lose,
I'm just caught up in all the cattle
Fray the strings, throw the shapes,
Hold your breath, listen

I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
Before I forget that

I'm ripped across the ditch and settled in the dirt
And I wear you like a stitch, yet I'm the one who's hurt
Pay attention to your twisted little indiscretions
I've got no right to win
I'm just caught up in all the battles

Locked in clutch...pushed in place...
Hold your breath...Listen!

I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
Before I forget that

My end, it justifies my means
All I ever do is delay
My every attempt to evade
The end of the road and my end
It justifies my means
All I ever do is delay
My every attempt to evade
The end of the road
I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
Before I forget that


26. EVERYTHING ENDS

You are wrong, fucked,and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything

Shallow skin,I can paint with pain
I mark the trails on my arms with your disdain
Everyday it's the same - I love you hate
But I guess I don't care anymore...
Fix my problems with the blade
While my eyes turn from blue to gray
God, the worst thing happened to me today
But I guess I don't care anymore

You are wrong,fucked,and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything

My flaws are the only thing left that's pure
Can't really live, can't really endure
Everything I see reminds me of her
God I wish I didn't care anymore
The more I touch,the less I fell
I'm lying to myself that it's not real
Why is everybody making such a big fucking deal?
I'm never gonna care anymore

What the hell am I doing?
Is there anyone left in my life?
What the fuck was I thinking?
Anybody want to tell me I'm fine?
Where the hell am I going?
Do I even need a reason to hide?
I am only betrayed
I am only conditioned to die


27. VERMILION PT.2

She seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do when she makes me sad

She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable
She's a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do when she makes me sad

But I won't let this build up inside of me
I catch in my throat
Choke
Torn into pieces
I won't, No
I don't want to be this
But I won't let this build up inside of me
She isn't real
I can't make her real

Pathetic, benign, accept it, undermine
Your opinion, my justification
Happy, safe, servant, caged
Malice, utter weakness
No toleration, invade
Commited, enraged, admit it
Don't condescend, don't even disagree
Destroy, decay, Disappoint, delay
You've suffered then, now suffer unto me


28. 742617000027

The whole thing, I think it's sick


29. SIC

Enemy - show me what you wanna be
I can handle anything
Even if I can't handle you!
Readily - either way it better be
Dont you fuckin' pity me
Get up, get off..

What the hell am I sayin'?
I don't know about malevolent
Sure as hell decadent
I want somebody to step up, step off
Walls! Let me fall! Fuck you all!
Get a grip, don't let me slip 'til I drop the ball!

Fuck this shit, I'm sick of it
You're goin down, this is a war!

Who the fuck am I to criticize your twisted state of mind?
You're leavin' me suspect, I'm leavin' you grotesque
Feels like a burn from which you never learn
Cause and effect, you jealous ass
Press you face against the glass - suffer

I've just begun
Its about that time
Gotta get mine

You can't kill me
Cuz I'm already
Inside you

Sick


30. TILL WE DIE

Our friends are all hurting from moments
And regrets and charity laced with a lie.
Still we keep hoping, to fix all the defects
And strengthen these seminal times.
We go on together for better or worse,
Our history is to real to hate.
Now and forever we stay until morning,
And promise to fight for our fate.

Till we die
Till we die

The start of a journey is every bit worth it,
I cant let you down anymore.
The sky is still clearing,
We're never afraid and the consciences opens the door.
I never stopped trying,
I never stopped feeling like family is much more than blood
Don't go on without me, the piece that
I represent compliments each and everyone.

Till we die
Till we die

We wont be forgotten we'll never give in.
This war we've achieved has allowed us to win.

Till we die
Till we die

My last true confession will open your eyes.
I've never known trust like the night.
Let it be spoken, let it be screamed, they'll never ever take us alive.

Till we die
Till we die

We wont be forgotten we'll never give in.
This war we've achieved has allowed us to win.

Carry on
Carry on

(We'll never be broken, we wont be denied.)
(Our war is the present we need to deny.)
(We'll never be broken, we wont be denied.)
(Our war is the present we need to deny.)

Till we die
Till we die

We wont be forgotten we'll never give in.
This war we've achieved has allowed us to win.

Carry on
Carry on

We'll never be broken, we wont be denied, our war is the present we need to deny.

Till we die
Till We die

We wont be forgotten we'll never give in
This war we've achieved has allowed us to win

Till we die
Till we die

We'll never be broken, we wont be denied,
Our war is the present we need to deny.