1. SCHIZOPHRENIA

his thoughts are diggin' through my brain
my thoughts put up resistance to him
he's in my head, sometimes strong, sometimes weak
but however i fight, i can't do him any harm

sick thoughts drive me to things i never want
how he makes it? is he stronger than me?
where is the mystery, where his sore point?
can I defeat him, or will he subject me?

he is the second self, strong like the first
he is always by your side, don't try to repress him
sooner or later he will get you too
you can't defeat him, he's a part of you!

an eternal fight, struggled by everyone of us
the most are strong enough, but someone can't get it done
an endless war without a chance to reconciliation
a vicious circle, sometimes i win, sometimes he's the winner

he pushes me to kill, i don't hold him back
he shows me the way to evil, i follow him there
he sends me to hell, i don't will prevent him
he is in sure distance and laughs at me!

furious i try to grab and destroy him
but just like in a nightmare he leaves more and more
humiliated and defeated i left behind
hopeless i lay on the ground and choose the death


2. PERVERTED APPETITE

big empty house – creepy silence
an ugly morning – all is grey, the streets are wet
i feel like to puke my own guts
lost my childhood in everlasting loneliness
in search for a union of two sick souls
all possibilities are tried, all ways are walked, end in nowhere

let me smell your flesh
let me taste your flesh
let me smell your blood
let me taste your blood
let me eat your flesh
i wanna feel you inside of myself

dirty feelings always grow – can't realize it
desire raises – i need salvation
then he appears from the darkness of hopelessness
shudders are twitching my loins – the kick of my life?
lust is filling my inner self – shiver my limbs
he gives himself to me – is this my fulfilment?

let me smell your flesh
let me taste your flesh
let me eat your flesh
i wanna feel you inside of myself

a new dimension of passion is opening to me
my fantasy beyond all humanity
his body in my body for eternity
the smell of cremated flesh fills the air
the instinct of wild animals forced us
to be united forever

let me smell your flesh
let me taste your flesh
let me eat your flesh
i wanna feel you inside of myself


3. BEHIND THE MASK

mask of a clown – a mask of smiling, hypocrisy
mask of a clown – my mask
alone i stand in the ring – many thousand eyes look at me
their faces turn to grimaces
i begin to hate them!

nourished by laughter
quenching my thirst by the sources of grief
hiding emotions behind the mask day by day
leaved alone with my fear

the show is over
the music goes dumb
the laughter is silent
the dream is dead

i take off my mask and see into my face
my mouth distorted to a smile
a tear rolls across my cheek
a single tear – a tear, lost in eternity
it burns a hole - a deep hole in my soul

the voice of my heart screams
deadly wounded – never touched
drowned in the sea of sorrow, suffocated by life
hopeless imprisoned behind my deeds
Crushed under the mask

Lay me down to sleep and dream
in the tent, a dead clown lies on the ground
blood drops into the sand
the audience laugh and applaud
each laughter hits a new wound into the dead flesh

i wake up in the morning
time for my entrance
enter the tent – the mask in my face

banished the emotions of hate
but a knife in my hands


4. STATE OF THE RAT

they crept to the top, high above our eyes
with hollow words, empty promises and lies
we believed in them, credulous and blind
the beginning of a new life was in our mind
and they eat all, just like greedy rats
they eat our clothes, the hair from our heads
there is no meaning for the tears we cry
we never can reach them, they are much too high

we are living in a state of the rat
our unconsciousness makes them fat
they are unimpeachable, resistant against all
and there is no force, that makes them fall

their force is too strong and will you crush and smash
their greasy fingers always grab to your cash
their ugly grimaces laugh at you loud
they will put you down, if you stand up and shout
we are too weak, because we're disconnected
we are too fearful, egoism-infected
from this vicious circle we'll never break out
while our brain is affected with a paralyzing cloud

we are living in a state of the rat
our unconsciousness makes them fat
they are unimpeachable, resistant against all
and there is no force, that makes them fall


5. THE ATHEIST

desperate they are searching for power and help
hoping for forgiveness of their sins
their faith in god makes them stronger
but without faith they are much weaker
blind and naive they follow god and the church
with their old-fashioned rules

wings of destiny drive them into the addiction of their faith
pain and their biggest fears disappear by their imagination
but your faith will not help you,
when you stand before your judge on the end of your days
on the end of your days!

i don't follow your rules
i don't believe in your god
i follow my own way, my own faith
i believe in my own god
i am an atheist!
i believe in my own god
i am an atheist!

everyone must pay the price for his deeds and actions
especially you, self-pleasing fighting for the church
to wash away your sins and your sick desires
you will see, there is no hope and help behind this facade

oh, how i laugh at you, at your naivety
and how i despise you because of your carelessness,
your weak character
a lot of you will burn in hell too
further rely on your faith and the chains, that you put on yourself


6. VISIONS OF A BETTER WORLD

(Instrumental)


7. NECROPHILE

no one knows him, no one takes notice of him
he is a loner in all ways and relations
extreme addictions and preferences happen in his brain
controlling his body with full force
he knows himself, so he likes to move in the dark

he's driven to go out, when the night comes down
only in the dark his victims are within reach
he searches for corpses, dead men to use
he doesn't dare touching living flesh
he needs the smell of the dead
to satisfy his instinct

dead flesh, full of the smell of death
dead flesh, full of severe cold
dead flesh, defenceless like a child
craving for lifeless bodies
it never ends before this thirst is quenched

he lives among ourselves, unnoticed and pale
he feels good in this world of easy prey
he's a beast in human shape
driven by a mania that nobody knows or understands
he isn't a part of us
and help won't reach him soon

he gets untamed, if not kept under our control
he's sick and deranged with his actions and when dealing with sexuality
there is no hope for recovery of his morbid appetite
the only relief is death
almost all things are defined and have backgrounds
not for him, he is a necrophile!

dead flesh, full of the smell of death
dead flesh, full of severe cold
dead flesh, defenceless like a child
craving for lifeless bodies
it never ends before this thirst is quenched


8. DESPERATE THOUGHTS

my life is so empty, all days are the same
the time comes to a standstill
i sit in my chamber for myself to blame
and dismal thoughts let me thrill
i feel so chill
all around is so still

all fade to grey - you can leave me or stay
all fade to grey - there's nothing more to say
i go astray - while i try to leave this way
i drift away - and i think I cast away

i see into hell
always i hear my own knell

all fade to grey - you can leave me or stay
all fade to grey - there's nothing more to say
i go astray - while i try to leave this way
i drift away - and i think I cast away

i don't want to live
i don't want to die
what can i do, that makes me ill
i just can't break out
so i always cry
and so many tears i spill

myself to kill
is that really my will?

all fade to grey - you can leave me or stay
all fade to grey - there's nothing more to say
i go astray - while i try to leave this way
i drift away - and i think I cast away

all fade to grey...
leave me or stay...
all fade to grey...
nothing more to say...


9. AMPUTATION

deadly infections, a smell of rotten flesh
open wounds, embolism in your veins
twisted limbs rotting while you breathe
disgusted at your own body let you puke

panic!
eyes are dropping off your skull
dying nerves, no feeling of pain
deadly parts of your limbs are like garbage
they cut it off and throw it in the trash

they cut it off!
throw it in the trash!

no feeling for your legs, you have no choice
you must cry for help, or you must die
a cripple for the rest of your life
this bad chance makes you ill

no one can believe your pain
no one understands your grief
no one knows how it feels
with your sorrows you're alone
no one can really help you
no one can really love you
no one knows your terrible emotions
they see you and look away

if you survive you must live on without legs
always dependent on help of the others
a life in a wheelchair, helpless day by day
this is your life after the amputation


10. IF YOU BLEED

someone is injured, feel the pain?
so what, i have my own chain!
i know, that's not my fault
he's desperate, depressive, debased?
and feels just like erased?
spare me from this emotion assault!
not my fault!

if you bleed
it's bad for you, but i'm not guilty
so bleed!
it's not my own blood, i'm not interested in you!

disaster and misery
came to me suddenly
why it choose me of all the people? why?
i'm desperate, depressive, debased
feel just like a carcass
no one will hear my cry

hear my cry
tell me why
i feel pain
go insane!

now I'm broken and i'm so alone
they kick me away just like a stone
and if i look back, i can't deny
all that i said was nothing but a lie!

but now it's too late...