1. AWAKE

Is this all there is?
There’s nothing to see
A world that asks so much
But leaves me worse than empty

Is hope still alive
In this endless parade?
There must be something pure
To fill the lonely void of this charade

Wake up,
Stop pretending
This day’s beginning in ending
No more blank illusions
Your dark dream,
Throw it away,
A way for survival
New day,
Bright arrival
Take back all that you gave up


2. PICKING AT THE SCAB

If I could start this again
One more chance to keep myself from slipping
From the beginning to the end
Would I face the things that I’ve stopped feeling?

Tearing at my mind
Still can’t find release
Fuck this sore inside my head
Wishing I was dead
So rip the bandage off
And see what’s underneath
Picking at the scab
Giving me some relief

Here lies heaven
Here lies hell
Both in me
In between hope and reason
Incomplete
But I still can’t find relief

So rip the bandage off
And see what’s underneath
Picking at the scab
Giving me some relief


3. PARASITE

So easy to believe
You’re a person with a harmless need
You say there’s nowhere to turn
So I give to you what you want of me

I am your new addiction
I am your ultimate friend
But now I’ve learned too late
The more I give, the more you take

Never enough, is it?
It’s never enough
Never enough, now is it?
(Take it away, take it away)

Never enough, is it?
It’s never enough
Never enough
You’re feeding from me, you’re feeding from me

Now that you’ve taken it all
And still come back for more
You’ll never realize that
You’re nothing but a parasite

Never enough, is it?
It’s never enough
Never enough, now is it?
(Take it away, take it away)

Never enough, is it?
It’s never enough
Never enough
You’re feeding from me, you’re feeding from me

Parasite
(Never enough!)
Parasite
(Take it away!)
Parasite
(Never enough!)
Parasite
(Take it away!)
Parasite
(Never enough!)
Parasite
(Take it away!)
Parasite
(Never enough!)
Parasite
(Take it away!)


4. SILENT KILLER

Watch the unfolding
This growing grey inside
Creeping slowly,
Silent killer
Of all the real things that I hide

Such a perfect betrayal,
The one within
I’m shattered, scattered,
And words don’t matter
Without a fight I’ve given in

Crush this denial, it’s all coming clear
Crush this self-loathing that cages me here
Crush all the holes that can never be filled
Fuck self-destruction and fuck useless guilt

Through the empty,
Breathing steady,
Shed my skin,
I’m stripped away
Flood my senses,
Found my pieces,
Give it all to stay this way
Feel the silent killer wash away

Didn’t know the possible
To rebegin
I spent so long waiting for an answer
That was already there
Didn’t know the actual
Who I really am
I looked so far, thought life was out there
But I forgot how to live

Through the empty,
Breathing steady,
Shed my skin,
I’m stripped away
Flood my sense,
Found my pieces,
Give it all to stay this way
Feel the silent killer wash away

Ripped out
Stripped out
Burned out
Crushed out
Feel the silent killer wash away


5. TROUBLED DREAMS

Drifting off to that place between
The waking life and the endless dream
A tapestry of haunted scenes
The memories are calling me

When filled with whispers stereo
I’d give up everything to know

Imagery
Troubled dreams
Poetry of smart machines,
They’ll never know who I am

Looking in,
Somewhere deep beneath this skin
As my world turns inside out,
I’ll be here
All alone
I see more than 0’s and 1’s
Can I be who I’ve become?

Symphonies surrounding me
Take the breath right out of me
I’ll never rest
Time is fleeting

Imagery
Troubled dreams
Poetry of smart machines,
They’ll never know who I am

Trying earnestly,
Failing miserably,
Picking up the past,
Learning brilliantly
To be loved
To be free


6. PASSING THROUGH

Code red in my head
Out of control
‘Cause nothing’s making sense
I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I’m just passing through

Nothing’s known,
What to feel,
What to say,
There’s no ground,
Floating down,
Falling fast
Sinking in this haze
I’ve got nothing to grip
So hard to believe
I won’t give up the thought
That I’m just passing through
Just passing through
Just passing through
Just passing
Just passing
I’m just passing through

I want to feel the ground
I wish I knew where it was
I need to see something real
And I want to know
How do I get past ?
How do I get past myself?


7. TRAPPED INSIDE

Cannot speak
Paralyzed
The more I wait here,
The more I die

Cannot breathe
Suffocate
Wanting out
Because it feels like I am

Trapped inside

Back again,
Closing in
No escaping,
Because there’s no end in sight
Locked away
Wanting out
Because it feel like I am

Trapped

Trapped inside
Trapped inside

Cannot speak
Paralyzed
Wanting out
Because it feel like I am
Trapped inside
In my mind
No way out
Because it feel like I am

Trapped inside
I’m trapped inside
I’m trapped


8. CODE RED

(Instrumental)


9. STANDING AT THE EDGE

Frozen,
Two paths in time
Waiting
For the instant to decide

Feel the whole world spinning
Choices everywhere
One life waiting for me
Another over there
Wish I knew the answers
Thought it’d be so clear
What I thought I’d wanted
Suddenly right here

Standing at the edge
How much can I take before I drop into the empty space?
The hours are closing in

Too late to pull back
Too far in between
All I see is distance
The unknown under me
I’m so far
I can’t take it anymore
I’m not ready,
I’m not ready,
Keeps pushing me to where I am

Standing at the edge
How much can I take before I drop into the empty space?
The hours are closing in
Standing at the edge
Nothing left but letting go and dropping into empty space
Give up everything I know

Standing at the edge
How much can I take before I drop into the empty space?
The hours are closing in
Standing at the edge
Nothing left but letting go and dropping into empty space
Give up everything I know


10. LIES

Emotion,
Devotion,
Lies
Complete me,
Believe,
But don’t look in my eyes
I can’t deny,
I can’t deny
This lonely,
So lonely heart wants more

There’s no place for truth
When there’s no room for change
And empty motions
Are all that remain
It’s burning me up
It’s taking its toll
This life here with you
That keeps me from being whole
I don’t belong here anymore

Contain me,
Erase me,
I’m all used up
What can we do now?
What can we be now?
If we’re undone
Don’t hold too tightly,
‘Cause the ending’s coming soon
No future
No present
The past belongs to you

There’s no place for truth
When there’s no room for change
And empty motions
Are all that remain
It’s burning me up
It’s taking its toll
This life here with you
That keeps me from being whole
I don’t belong here anymore

Emotion,
Devotion,
Lies
Complete me,
Believe me,
But don’t look in my eyes
I can’t deny
I can’t deny
I can’t deny

There’s no place
for truth
When there’s no room for change
And empty motions
Are all that remain
It’s burning me up
It’s taking its toll
This life here with you
That keeps me from being whole
I don’t belong here anymore


11. FADING

So much to tell you
With no words to say
We live in fear
Of losing your light on this day
Feel you slipping so far away
Watching the could’ve beens
Bloom and decay

What will break the spell?
What will break the spell?

Are you so far?
Is it too late?
Hanging onto the fragile threads of yesterday
You are fading,
And I can’t let go

One last moment
And time stands still
One last ember of hope to kill
Let go, let go,
It keeps whispering,
But I still can feel what’s left of you
Still haunting me

What will break the spell?
What will break the spell?

Are you so far?
Is it too late?
Hanging onto the fragile threads of yesterday
You are fading,
And I can’t let go