1. PAIN OR REALITY

I know of the evil, the dark side of the mask
But she entices me, writhing me at last
Her vernal likeness, a hypnotic drug
Seemingly veracious ‘til the virago comes

Down on one knee, she will dispose of my body
Under scorching ones, demoness I succumb
Embryonic state, my heart of late
Benevolence shown, ripping flesh to the bone

Foraging for reasons to the acts she does
Emptying the cartridge, her sanguinary fun
Evil inherits her body today
But what kind of evil will this figure portray

Down on one knee, she will dispose of my body
Under scorching ones, demoness I succumb
Embryonic state, my heart of late
Benevolence shown, ripping flesh to the bone

Who is this whore of ancient lore?
She has seduced me into the noose
Why could I be so easily brought to my knees?
Death comes to me

Is this pain, or reality?
Is she killing me psychologically?
She is the evil goddess, the dark in my night
I cannot escape her grasp, and no relief in sight

Down on one knee, she will dispose of my body
Benevolence shown, ripping flesh to the bone


2. IMPALED

The last Messiah walks the dirty streets
Saving all lost souls, purity through agony

I was born to kill
Satisfy my need
Feel the warmth of blood
Raining down on me

Take the lost home, I operate
Incisions, impaled, perversions of rape

I am your god, impaled in name
Sins of the flesh, sucking the pain
Bleeding me now, your arms tied down
Cry out to God, he can’t save you now

A women sinner, fallen from grace
Take her home, put her in her place

Butchering the whore
Anguish on her face
In death she will be
Dying in vain

Excessive amounts of blood, pleasure through the sick
Sever the abdomen, the blood flows thick

He hath been impaled, blood rolls down his brow
Simple crown of thorns, on his head adorn
He hath been impaled, hanging from a cross
Suffer for our sins, suffer for our loss

Forget, all that I know
And what was to be
Slit my wrists to the end
The pain finally


3. ETERNAL SUFFERING

Loath, I loathe the day, the day you came home
I Feel, such sympathy, for no one
Back in those times, feelings grew free
Now gone, as with yesterday, the empathy that was me

The tides are changing, death encompassing

How was I to know, it would never grow
Regrets don’t elude me
She...

Somber eyes, can’t deny, the pleasure of my alibi
Seeking the one like you, but there’s no one
Please wait for me, all I can request
Who the fuck am I kidding, there’s no hope for this jest

The tides are returning, drowning perversely

In the dark shadows, her jet-black hair
Am I dying?
They are...

I live for suffering, is there more?

The lust burning inside of me, this is perverse suffering
The voice, demon, piercing the agony in me

Why must my insides rot? Death from inside out
Placing the blame on you, but I still have my doubts
There must be relief for this, lovelorn melancholy
I promise I’ll think of you, as I enter the sea


4. BECOMING GOD

Someone tell me, what I’m doing
Cold and bloody, shade of dead
Waking up, without a memory
A cold floor, in a dark room
Something’s bleeding, God is it me?
Cold and stained, like twisted paint
Turn my eyes to what’s next to me
Familiar form, blurry sight

Feels soft like skin, cold like concrete
Blue like death and sickly pale
As I focus, it comes clearer
Ripped and raped, some unknown girl

Get the fuck up, run for your life
Got to find out, what happened last night

Got to find out
What’s inside me
Did I do this?
Who am I?

Terrified and running faster
Don’t know where the fuck I am
Serenity in my terror
Time to think and sort shit out
As I run, it comes back to me
All the times I’ve blocked it out
Two are one, now minds together
No more shall I hide myself

I have found myself within me
Can’t deny what I have done
Learn to embrace love of violence
Realize now I am God

With this newfound freedom in me
Weight has lifted, pacify
Taking life is how I’m living
Through each day, intensify
Population, only cattle
Stupid beasts are born to die
Cannibalize, rape and killing
Consume flesh that feeds off life

Feels soft like skin, cold like concrete
Blue like death and sickly pale
As I focus, it comes clearer
Ripped and raped, some unknown girl

Becoming God
Unknowing God
A sleeping God
A vengeful God