1. MEMORIES OF THE AFTERLIFE

Dreaming dreams never dreamed before
Am i even myself anymore?
They sink my grave and set the stone
You walk away and you let me go

Here i am, now alone
As a ghost with flesh and bone
I rot as my loved ones cry
And watch scenes of a wasted life

My forgotten memories line a hallway
With all my failures on display
A circus of souls and a burning cross
A portrait of everyone ive ever lost

No one is here waiting for me

A sea of sound and a sky of light
Born again in the dead of night
Stars watch me like crying eyes
Waking up again in the place where i died

Never alive but not quite dead
Hanging on to words unsaid
At last the dream is over
I lay awake inside a coma

I see everyone again
The living, dead and the unborn
I've seen things i'll never forget
The memories of the afterlife

No one is here waiting for me

No one is here waiting for me


2. A LIFETIME BY DESIGN

21 gun salute for our fallen brother
Hand another folded flag to his mother
Standing in line trying not to cry
They empty a full mag into the sky

Remember them
Every friend
Coming home
In a bodybag

Another atom blast lights up the night
And the tears are wiped with stars and stripes
Children laying in peices, ill never understand
Don't ever ask for peace with a gun in your hand

Our future revealed
On the battlfield
Nothing more
Than a human sheild

He looked at me, he fell away
A fallen soldier, my only friend
Marching all night, we ask each other
When will this war ever end?

The madness of war they all adore
Blood drunk and asking for more
Those die who werent afraid to fight
How can any of this be right?

Laying in the rain writing his last letter
To his wife and his child he never even met
Full of regret, he tells her not to wait
He hugs his rifle and smokes his last cigarette

Bred for war
Since we were small
A sign of the times
A lifetime by design

He looked at me, he fell away
A fallen soldier, my only friend
Marching all night, we ask each other
When will this war ever end?

The madness of war they all adore
Blood drunk and asking for more
Those die who werent afraid to fight
How can any of this be right?

Enemy fire blazing through the sky
Reminds me of fireworks on the 4th of july
Like stars in my eyes, what a lovely sight
Laughing as the priest reads me the last rites


3. CITY OF GHOSTS

Pale faces and hearts of stone
Every child is his fathers clone
An entire lifetime spent alone
Every killer is bred at home

Shredded flesh upon your swollen fists
And scar tissue across your wrists
Broken down soul, scavenger of pain
Never the same, only a face remains

Learn to all live the same
And condemn all that you cannot name
Aspire to be next to nothing at all
Live blind and the blind shall fall

Beaten to death and back to life again

(I awaken)

Your eyes bleed sunshine
But your heart remains so cold
In a world where i can't tell apart
A ghost from living man
And here i am, walking in your shadow again
Here we are, worlds away but never far apart

Forced to show signs of fear and weakness
But how could i just repent?
Endorsed by a benign sense of sickness:
Innocence, hope and blind remorse

Watching their eyes shine
In the burning house that used to be mine
People move along like puppets
On the burning streets that are their stage

Beaten to death and back to life again

(I awaken)

Your eyes bleed sunshine
But your heart remains so cold
In a world where i can't tell apart
A ghost from living man
And here i am, walking in your shadow again
Here we are, worlds away but never far apart


4. THE ARCANE LANGUAGE OF DEMENTIA

Sitting, watching, fearing all i see
Many, secrets, held inside of me
Cold and shaking, sweating all over
This is my first breath after a coma

They can't understand, why i never speak
You'll never see me again the way you remember me
The way you wanted me to be
Now revived, half alive, not nearly enough to survive
Forget my name and forget the past
Your heart will be set free from me at last

Do what we say and follow the rules
If you start to talk we swear you can leave
But promises only comfort fools
And its hard to speak when you cant even breathe

You can't understand
This is where i remain
I can't watch you fly away
Fly away

If this could be real
Then i'd try to feel
For just one day

A medicated mind, an injection directly to the brain
A near lethal dose, to kill the pain
I dont recognize my face, i dont feel the same
A spiritual momentary affliction, a catatonic fit
Quiet now, this wont hurt a bit
The permanent silence, the ultimate hit

A flock of ghosts by my bedside
A silent whisper and i am free
The final trip, a lucid ride
Was all i ever needed

You can't understand
This is where i remain
I can't watch you fly away
Fly away

If this could be real
Then i'd try to feel
For just one day

Staring through the window
Into a thousands lives ago
Like a memory of a dream
That i swore ive never seen

Quiet now
Come along for the ride


5. A TEXAS FUNERAL

Drunk, high and stoned
On a 100 straight k's of torn up road
A fugitive with his foot to the floor
And caught by the local law

No one crying, no one grieving
"We just bury em' breathing"
No memories to share, no songs of joy
Just a good old fashioned texas funeral boy

Give em a torch and a bible
And hammer the fucking lid shut

Dirt falls through the cracks
And hits the page
Of the last words he will ever read

Flashlight starts to blink
And it stabs him with fear
Crys untill his mouth fills up with tears
Last thing he read was...

"When you find your home
I'll fade away" repeated on first line
(Don't - you - know - what - you've - done?)

Punching the walls, screaming till he bleed
Scratches the roof untill his fingers break
A lifetime flashes before his eyes
Calming down, he accepts his fate

He read verse for verse
The battery getting worse
The air starting to wear thin

He says his last prayer
As he gasps for the air
Wondering if anyone would even care

And all of a sudden
Everything went black

Dirt falls through the cracks
And hits the page
Of the last words he will ever read

Flashlight starts to blink
And it stabs him with fear
Crys untill his mouth fills up with tears
Last thing he thought was...

"When you find your home
I'll fade away"
(Don't you know what you've done?)


6. FORMULA FOR FAILURE

Everything you once cared for just became another possesion
And everything you thought you loved was just another Obsession
A painful confession, a numbing aggression
A sober reflection of a world of depression

You cannot fail
Hold your breath and follow me

I cannot see
Spread your wings and fly with me

Every breath is a gift
But life is all you make of it
You fall and break, just take my hand
And i will help you never fall again

I can now see clear
Far beyond my fear
One last chance to say...

A swandive to the concrete,
A front row seat to a life complete
Born and raised in a loving home,
But craved a life on the street
A failure to recognize, a growing problem in disguise
A wounded soul in the throes of demise

I can't feel you
You've taken so much from me

Can't save yourself
A crying heart begging to be freed

Every breath is a gift
But life is all you make of it
You fall and break, just take my hand
And i will help you never fall again

I can now see clear
Far beyond my fear
One last chance to say...


7. CONVERGENCE

I keep watching this spirit
That consumes the street
Its voice is violence
And its song is deceit

Try to reach out and touch
Try to pretend
But everyone who you called a friend
Thinks you are already dead

Chalk my outline on the concrete
And leave the flowers by your feet
Next to the building that is burning down
Under the stars of stray rounds

A freeway of scars on my mind
A cure for time, i cannot find

One thing you say will find me your eyes
All that you fear will converge in time
All that you see, all that you dream
All that you never ever wanted to be

Where are those that need my help?
Where are those i must protect?
Where are those who fight with me?
Where are those who want to be set free?

A freeway of scars on my mind
A cure for time, i cannot find

One thing you say will find me your eyes
All that you fear will converge in time
All that you see, all that you dream
All that you never ever wanted to be


8. SPIRITUAL ARCHITECT

Another user, Another OD
You beg on the street, just to get what you think you need

Shattered and broken, hollow inside
Try to numb the pain that, you cannot hide

You fall
And you say
"This will take my pain away"

"Help me"
"Save me"
There is nothing left to save

If god is the needle and the hit is your prayer
Then heaven is the gutter and you're almost there

If life is a train and the driver is fear
Then the next stop is hell, and ill be waiting here

And my need is gone...

Can't see the problem, cant see the effect
Can't see the good man, who is now wrecked


Take a look in the mirror, take a look at yourself
You dont even remember, the face you see

No chance and no hope
Just too late to save

You spent your whole life
Digging your own grave

If hope is a bullet and faith is a gun
Then salvation is death and your life is done

If this life was a dream and and its the end it seems
Then i would be drowning now, will you follow me?

And my need is gone...

Another kid to young to die
Didn't want to say goodbye
Didn't want the fun to end
I guess i just miss my friend

And my need is gone...


9. UNDERWORLD SUPREMACY

Fucking street kid, you never learn..
You beat another person just for fun
Lose your trust and you lose your friends
You traded your mind for a fucking gun

You will waste away in silence
When you lose your taste for the violence
What the hell have you gotten into
They have made a monster out of you

I see your killer disguise
Still wearing a child's eyes
So sad the monster we see
Isn't the boy we recognize

Punched on, kicked in and beaten blue
You pay your due to your fucken crew
You prey on the weak and get your first kill
God forgive you, cause no one else will

Shot and killed on his birthday
I still remember his favourite toy
Mum and dad look down at him and say
"Look at how they destroyed our boy"

I held you till your last breath
Watching the fading life in your eye
I wish you the peace in death
I could never give you in life
He was alone, streets were his home
The boy died on his own
A slave to the gun
We bury our only son
What did we let him become?

I held you till your last breath
Watching the fading life in your eye
I wish you the peace in death
I could never give you in life
He was alone, streets were his home
The boy died on his own
A slave to the gun
We bury our only son
What did we let him become?


10. DEGENESIS

Born as a failure, no system or solution
The illegitimate product of evolution

Hack the senses and purge the mind
Genes and data intergrate and bind

Sentient constructs overide and multiply
Feed me with life so i can never die

Feed me with life so i can never die
Feed me with life

Shattered minds re-emerge into one collective consiousness
Stolen thoughts, using remote minds to think and thrive

It floods my thoughts, it makes me whole
The growing cluster, the virus in my soul

Circuitry lines now feed my mind
My corroding eyes emit light and shine

Ressurected branches of mind
combined, refined, mankind is re-defined

Seperated from flesh and bone
Reproudced models of my clone

I see the world reborn in reverse
I see flames tear across the skys

And once more you fail me

An echo resonates through the corridors of time
Extracting every mind to converge to mine


11. THE HUMAN ERROR

Nerve branches corrode and recoil
My eyes cloud and cataract
And i see clearly now

Devour this dream
I've lived my entire life inside
Deliver me to the paradise ive been denied

Conceived and deprived
Born in catatonia
Sever your addiction
Of a life of fiction

Disconnect this spirit from me
And destroy the false being within

Centuries erased in seconds
But death only hurts the ones we leave behind
Awaken inside distant memories
Elevate me to something more

Desensitized orphan of war
A sensory corrupted passenger
On the road to a divine trauma

Infected with fear, i can't breathe
And the virus flows through me
And i still don't believe

Shed this vile skin that poisons me
Remove the shackles of guilt that imprison me

Centuries erased in seconds
But death only hurts the ones we leave behind
Awaken inside distant memories
Elevate me to something more