1. BEFORE

Before I knew that I could leave it all I'd longed for
Each day with head in hands seemed like eternity

I thought true love would make it easy if we played our parts
Two souls hovering, floating, gliding for a counterpart

I imagined hell to be like this except with a little more fire
It takes no brains to work this out
Free me before we die...


2. NIGHTLIVES

I hear the voice of six billion or more
There must be something more than this
Dysthymic and low, numb to it all
There must be something more

A plane where the skies are tamarind
My Eden

From my dreamsigns I have been given a brand new day
Ready and willing to build away
In my nightlives I have been given an endless fuse
So I can burn my nights with you

In my waking world, I can't walk through these walls
Or feed my hands to each other
Eye-to-eye with my watch face,
To me it's flickering...
Lucidly I forge my nebulae!

From my dreamsigns I have been given a brand new day
Ready and willing to build away
In my nightlives I have been given an endless fuse
So I can burn my nights with you

I imagined hell to be like this except with little more fire

Nightlives

Finally I am now awake
Yet my eyes are closed
Still my dreamsigns guide me on
To the otherworld


3. FREEDOM

Set the masses free
And destroy minority
The slate will be wiped clean
And the world will sing of Freedom

Sacrifice control
Worlds will renew

Juggling the options obscuring the view
For thousands have always plundered the few
But what could make this change?
Freedom, is just an arm's length away


4. LUST

Marching out on the town tonight and standing tall
I picked you out from across the room in this white light, so bright
Come back to mine tonight and we can work it out, lay it out
I catch a whiff of your scent and that porcelain skin
Oh, it reels me in!

Please let down your silk robe softly
And take your rightful place in front of me
My love for you is just consentual lust

Marching out on the town tonight still standing tall
Your shape overwhelms me, I can't breathe, I can't sleep (I can't sleep, I can't sleep)
I've been through women before but I have never ever felt this at all
You're under fire from all of my lust (from all this lust)
Come back to mine tonight and we can work it out, again and again!

Please let down your silk robe gently
And take your rightful place in front of me
My love for you is just consentual lust

Please let down your silk robe sexually
And take your rightful place in front of me
My love for you is just consentual lust

Lusting for you...


5. SOULMATES

You opened up the door and welcomed me so shyly
A mass of fringe; strawberry tinged and then I knew you
Though perhaps naively you defined a girl to me
All through my teens sans self-esteem, I waited long...

At first I didn't know what this was or could be
But now I'm sure you are the one who holds me tightly
Walking together, growing strong
Amidst this void we found our call

Settle, I had not
For all I dreamed of, I'd got
Though some may claim it's fabled
Tell that to my wife!

Will I ever live my life in a lifetime
With a lioness to share my pride and goals
And I found her from the others
There's a siren in the darkness
With nothing else to be seen
She is all that is there
Her love in the dark
Her laugh is the lightning
She's the only one I call my soulmate

An unlikely pair; fire and earth
The stars would scoff at us, if we dare
An innocent friendship, the start of Him and Her
But I refuse to have my life spelled out
Only we knew what was missing

Only we can make us whole
And I can trust you only
I believe you may indeed be my soulmate


6. STRENGTH

I embrace loneliness with a withered smile
All this sadness in my life will never take me higher
Torment and terror plague my mind
Thoughts slip away like petals from wilted rose

I try to conjure up the courage to face my fear
But I sit there hour after hour
Shadows stir me with the fact that all that once was joy
Has abandoned its fate to leave me in despair

And then it happens, I see you
I float on purity
I breathe again
For the first time (Melting the Ice that once dominated me)

The sun rises through murky clouds
Transparent is my soul through its smile
beams of gold pass through my body
The violent sounds turn to sweet melody
Life has finally caught up with me

I head to unseen waters
Toward a light that is lovingly familiar
A figure glimmers in the distant sunset
The me I'd dreamed of with a little more strength

Before I knew that I could leave it all I'd longed for
Each day with head in hands seemed like eternity
I thought true love would make it easy if we played our parts
Two souls hovering, floating, gliding for a counterpart

And then it happens, I see you
I float on purity
I breathe Again
For the first time and the last time
And then it happens, I see you
Into obscurity
I breath Again
For the first time (Melting the ice that once dominated me)

7. LOSS

Romance was not manifest
Candor; a lesson learned that

Reaching out has always brought me pain
Whilst darkened thoughts lead to an early grave
You waved goodbye and bought a one way ticket out from
My loss
All earth's light could never feel my loss

I want to thank you for sparing me
The years or empty hope strung
along for what seemed like a legacy

Your face is tightly etched into my mind
Like scar-tissued caligraphy


8. HOPE

From the rubble of hardened steel rain
A starfield of wonder awaits
The nebulous warmth of a world far away
The legend where all hope is born
I'm with you my son and I'm with you my girl
The palace where freedom awaits
The nebulous warmth of a world far away
The heaven I've dreamt of is sworn

My world a sphere of ice
And me its cold insides
Stars warm my heart
The distant nebulae
I hope...
Regaining hope to reignite the pilot light
I hope to one day find me

From the wreckage of fusion-faced worlds
A cosmos of promise awaits
The beckoning dust of a world worlds away
The legend where all hope is born
I'm with you my son and I'm with you my girl
Our palace where freedom awaits
The beckoning dust of a world worlds away
The heaven that glimmers today

Hope to me is a place I can't explain
I bathe in its light, my child, my love
Feel through me, a place I can't explain
Bathe in its light, oh hope is my dream!

I hope to one day find the answers
Why I'm here, answer me
I hope to one day find the answers
That live inside me...


9. PROMISE

Promise me you'll try eternally
I need someone who will grow

I'm not with you just for now
Paint me something grander
So I can dream on...

Gaze into the stream, see the potential inside
And look behind the eyes and into the soul that veils your thinly clad strides
Unwillingly sacrifice your drive to move forth!
What is it you fear?


10. OTHERWORLDLY

A hidden trail that opens up a world
One like no other; free of the bounds that rule

Turn your back on something perfect
Promised me forever only to lose this

Through the wormhole and rise to another frame
Frame of reference free of a world of blame

The broken pathway, the road one should never take
Safety first or last? Depends which game we play

Is this happiness or is it hate? Tell me!
Make up your mind, it’s too late? I’m telling you

Reach down inside and realise what you’ve lost
It’s simple to find, if you’ve even got a heart?

You strung me along over this, over
him?!
You strung me along through this
nightmare!

Your turmoil and false-will will be your eventual demise
Your reality and grasp on life – I’ll never sympathize
Your wrongdoings now define you when you’re down from your high kite ride
You’ll not have my remorse
my love or my life

I’ll cross the mountain
You built for me
Your being ephemeral?
I’ll rise ethereal
Nightfall!

We meet in this dim light
You’re judged on the pain you dealt
Your being, trivial
I’ll rise as night falls
Stand tall!

You cower in the corner
You sob to reel me in
Your being, simply gone
I’ll rise otherworldy

Sliding down, Slipping
Swimming in light, It’s warm
When I open my eyes, Lights are out
when it’s cold, Black windows
and dampness.
My head is throbbing
it hurts me, I want it to stop
I hated myself
chunks of thorns and dreams
tear my heart away, it bleeds
tear myself away
why do i want these things that cannot be?
Why does it hurt so much
I smashed all the mirrors in the house
Little silvery pieces
I close my eyes, and I want to see light
I want to see light
I want to see light...