v1. COLD WINDOW

(Instrumental)


2. SHADES IN OBLIVION

In the silence I walked through the empty town
And in the darkness I await for my veins to bleed
Shining fangs piercing my neck and wrists
Yet I tighten that leather belt
I won’t survive the night...
I sit alone praying for narcotic mist
Such lost as I’ve never felt before
The ashes will be dispelled by the wind
Memories within and the shame of my guilt
Blackened tree rising proudly towards the white sky
Silent whisper releasing the dedication
Not a single leaf nor any sign of life
Delivered in the time of desolation
Dry leftovers scattered all around
On their white board of hatred
Dented, torn and pressed
With the last spark of will
Disappeared in a quick burst
Of impatient flame
There was nothing left
And nothing will ever be
Smash my head into glass
Tear it apart and swallow
Scream such loud
I'd lose my voice
Feel the bitter taste
Of scarlet blood running down
I still await the time
When the light will come to take me
Black spot in the middle of the empty wall
Come closer to see how it bleeds
Only old wooden frame hasn't been lost
Step right back to feel as it shrinks


3. IN SECRECY OF BITTERNESS

Dullness and grief
Rushing all around
And all I can hear is your laughter
...
In endless agony of immortal soul
I'll rip my heart out and give it to you
I fell down for my very last time
And it will last forever
I pray for redemption in this maze I used to call life
Scarlet liquid
Slowly crawling down
Flooding my eyes
...
I'll scratch them out
So that they never see again
Arousing touch of cold steel
On my dried out skin
In the moment of my fall...
I believed in insane...


4. VERMIN

The book
With covers in black and white
Lying there
Right next to my swollen head
And I whine
Full of regret and contrite
With every minute
It's getting only worse instead
The walls
Bending down and the ceiling falls
Black void
Flowing out of the ring of illusion
Sweat
Shivers and silence enslave
Crushed lungs
Last sip and the throat starts to burn
You saw I pierce me eyes with nails
You saw I bite my wrists
You knew I tried to slit my throat
You knew I wanted to bleed out


5. AGONY WITHIN

(Instrumental)


6. DISARMING REFLEX

Not a single day without tears and pain
Lost in this maze of never ending suffering
I try to hide but there's no one to seek
I try to run but my legs are swollen
And the dagger dives deeper in my stomach
I bleed inside so you wouldn't see
Sudden spasm and all my muscles hurt
I vomit blood and rip my larynx out
Would have pushed fingers into my eyes
But then that picture would last forever
So I turn my intestines inside out
Left alone on the frozen stone
Rotten flesh and blackened blood
Throat swollen from the taste of bitter tears
Shrunken lungs thrown up in disarming reflex
Pieces of broken glass pushed into entrails
Tomorrow - my final breath
Exhale - remains the same
Inhale - thrust its knives in me
Silence - broken with agony
Implode - the desolated soul
Bury me - ground between the rails
Forget me - against the mirror
Feel me - in shivering air
Taste me - in the burning rain
Hear me - traveler in black
Fear me - dragging behind
See me - in the red sun
Kill me - with the knife of lies
Tear me - as I count the time
Break me- as one second stops
Leave me - rip me from inside
And dead black roses no longer hang upside down...


7. SOLITUDE

(Instrumental)