1. STILLBORN

A calm rushes over me
As I picture my corpse Ill-fated with the faults I can’t escape
(A sigh of relief)
A sigh of relief used to signify the blight
That infects the last few fragments of my skull

Sometimes I swear I think that I’ll be fine
I’ve made up my mind
Death is my birthright
I am a noose waiting to be tied

Still I try to elude the truth and embrace my disguise
Because this way of life takes its toll on mine
And I don’t want to be alive

Bury me breathing so I can watch myself decay
Bury me breathing so I can watch myself decay
So I can watch myself decay

We are stillborns by definition
But our pulse-infected wrists will disagree
We burden ourselves with intent and ambition
When we’ve accepted that all hope is lost
So dance past my lips and disperse
Leaving no trace of human condition
Our bodies blind the world with a sense of selflessness
That only a trained eye can see
You blame me for your blindness
Open your eyes
You blame me for your blindness
Open your eyes


2. THREAD

Your words grow cold and incoherent
And I’m searching for a fever
That could lift me to the border of dementia
My eyes are tired from surveying everything we used to share
And I would sew them shut if I had any strength inside
I remember every promise
I’ve carved them into my spine

I raise my hands to the sky and beg that this won’t go unnoticed
Though I know some fires are not meant to burn

We are bred to flicker and fade, not to retreat into the earth
Not to grow without remorse
We douse ourselves with the moisture
That we’ve drawn from the soil
We breed and unleash
We’re our own natural disaster
String me along like the thread that binds your ribcage
Tie my limbs to the anchor, and be sure that I’m left alone to sink

I will shine brighter than the sun
I will forever be your torch
Cast me away
And in time I will set fire to the fibers that connect us

My palms grow calloused from the cold
I need your touch to cauterize
Sustained by the flame of another
The embers begin to reignite

There’s a hole in the heart that will never be filled
The anguish will fall through your fingers
Respect can manifest itself through misfortune
I am alone, and the world carries on
I am alone
The world carries on and we don’t deserve a second thought


3. RESONATE

I’m shaking and so are my hands
And I can’t tell if it’s the cold or if I’m finally feeling regret
A martyr in my own mind and a pariah
Given the capacity of my own guilt

Do I fight the fact that I am a nervous wreck
Or do I face the forthcoming collision head on?
I don’t know how to abandon my blind heart...
(And I’m convinced that you deserve this)

My organs are dark and minuscule in comparison to yours
I’m no longer pining to cure my disease
I’m just dying to advance the process

Trim your wings and deceive me
Cinch your halo around my neck
Because death houses such beauty
If we can enjoy what will grow in its absence
(We are wasted)
We are thin and wasted at both ends
And we’ve accepted our position

I was never worthy of following your footsteps
So be sure to leave no evidence that you’ve existed
We dare not turn and face the figures treating us to our descent
If we knew their origin then we’d surely be disgusted
This is the kind of illness
That leaves us rotting from the inside out...
And we wear this on our sleeves

Content with our casualty
I would do this all over again
I’m the catalyst of our collapse
Haunted by conviction and a partner to the pain

Forgive me for who I’ve become these past few years
Forgive me for allowing my love to disappear

(Trim your wings)
Trim your wings and deceive me
Cinch your halo around my neck
And just leave me alone with my thoughts
Eaten alive until there’s nothing left to mourn
I will resonate through the minds of others
As a corpse and nothing more (nothing more)
Nothing more


4. STRANGER

Your ghost holds me close
As I’m ravaged by the solitary that surrounds my former home
Use me until you’ve spent the rest of my remains
And then try to validate your actions
Cursing every empty vein
That used to be inhabited by your impression

Paralyze me
To ensure I have no chance of knowing the feeling of affection
It’s no secret that I’ve shed the common decency
That appoints the world with the burden of devotion to our kin
I gave you everything I had and the world has left me exhausted

(So make me feel)
So make me feel something
Anything that might change my mind
As worthless as I am, I know that I still serve a purpose
To leech off the light and absolve my insignificance

Lay me to rest
Lay me to rest inside of a glass casket
So you can remember me with a smile on my face
Adorning me in my own failures
So you can count them as you stand above my bones

I wish I were a better man
I am a coward masked in courage
And just admitting this will not save me this time
So free me from my tired mind
And let me learn the difference
Between a single tear and the runoff of an ocean
Weak and weary from my predatory nature
So bless me with abandonment in my greatest time of need

Let me carry on knowing that I could never truly face my reflection
It’s much easier to caress the broken glass (broken glass)
Though if I accidentally catch a glimpse of myself in the shards
I will put my faith in the shrapnel to correct my vision

I am a stranger when I stare into the eyes of those I love
Look away in disgust
Protect yourself from the sight of my deception
I am a stranger when I stare into the eyes of those I love
Look away in disgust
Protect yourself from the sight of my deception


5. BURN

I’ve grown accustom to losing sleep.
Sweep me off my feet, dig your nails into my wounds and pull.
A lucid dream, where my chest will collapse from the weight of a fictitious ghost.
Tear through me, sacrifice me to your sea.
With broken arms I’m left to carry my shell with no help from the current.

Lifeless, I am dragging me down.
Hollow, I’m left to fend for myself.

Forget everything that you’ve come to know.
We are not meant for much but to carry our own misery.
Is there a God cursing every step that I take?
Or have I been forced to commit myself to the dirt?
We’re chasing the light in the darkest of graves,
But the fortunate ones know to wait until mourning.

Be still. Serenity blesses us in waves and with eyes like mountains, we’re drawn to the brow.
Leave this life behind and take the next step in the right direction.
Stare at the sky, and offer yourself to circumstance.

Be the burn. Burn me alive.
Be the burn. Burn me alive.


6. TRAGEDY

Take comfort in the cadence of the bond we share
A visionary born and raised to see with an unbiased sense of sight
We pause just for a second to properly embrace the radiance
We are the anointed dipped in filth
Taught to cower in fear of being identified
But tragedy will find us

I’m held captive by my spoiled soul
I won’t allow it to affect my stride
The procession will proceed as we’re gifted with our own idea of peace

So find yourself in me
I promise I will keep you as we harvest the passion that remains
Make my skin your sanctuary

I make a pact with the earth to draw life from the living
Make my skin your sanctuary
Leap to the beat of my blood
So place your hand in mine, drag your feet across the tops of trees
Breathe easy knowing that the branches will support you
And the weight of your complication

In the midst of the ruin that surrounds us
We communicate but only in tongues
Our lips will welcome the caress of the crucifixion
And we stain the wood with defeat

I am not a mortal, I am a metaphor for moving forward


7. WITHDRAWAL

I bask in familiar flesh with no shelter to call my own
A sacrifice for my sickness, I’ll dig a grave for those I love
I release the teeth from my jaw
Knowing that I will miss the pain when you take shelter in the mouth of another
You live in the back of my throat
Spawning sentences in unison with mine

Stay safe in my breath, you will never be lost
If our attraction is only skin deep, how deep is deep enough?

I’ve made a habit out of grinding my bones into a sharper point when I hear your name...
And I’ve named each cut you’ve cursed me with
Though I wish I had the courage to ask for more
Your spirit suffocates me
You won’t find asylum inside
I never asked for your blood in my veins
So haunt me not and disappear
I am a victim, despite what you’ve heard
Forced to dwell inside of endless withdrawal
We can never coexist, so I will offer up my heart
Don’t look back and try to find me
I was always doomed to watch you from the dark

Stay safe in my breath, you will never be lost
If our attraction is only skin deep, how deep is deep enough?


8. CHOKE

Congregate what little ounce of decency is left
And gather enough courage to invoke contractions in your vocal chords
Admission of guilt through confrontation
I’ve had to chisel every lie out of your mouth
And after all this time I’ve grown immune to your embrace
Spare me and my virgin ears from a stale conception
Admit that I’m the victim and cradle consequence
Line your insides with a sense of wrongly obtained righteousness
Spread your poison as thin as you possibly can
To ensure you violate every inch of common ground

Call me a cancer
Keep convinced that you’re not sick yourself
You will be exposed as soon as the world's eyes can fully adjust to the dark
I was the cure to your corrosion
But now I want to watch your skin rust and slowly grow discoloured
And when your throat buckles under the weight of the accumulation of perjury
I want to watch the life seep out of your tear duct
As your death rattle hits my eardrum and thaws what’s left of my cold heart

I hope you choke to death
The compass has been cracked
I hope you fucking choke to death


9. COLLAPSE

Back-pedaling into the black
But I can still make out the figures
That will threaten my well-being
The wind will rise and fall
But never sway from side to side

Progression halted
Encapsulating the fluid weave of death
Like a garden that contains all of its arrested offspring
We’re afraid to force our legs to break free from the earth
And take the first step towards our insecurity

Sleep away your selfishness
Slip into collapse
A still-like state of disregard
From which you can’t fall back
You never fully moved me
I’ve been embedded in the dust
And my mind has been ravaged by war

Pray for farewell as if I was yours to lose
I would love to love you, if you were someone else
So forgive me for being unresponsive
I’m sure it’s hard to train your ears
To hear me crying out for help
With my lips sewn shut by the stitches of my own indecision

So I’ll speak in whispers to permit my throat relief
I bite my tongue
Fill my mouth with blood
And swallow enough to kill me
Before I’m forced to lose more sleep
So I’ll speak in whispers to permit my throat relief
I bite my tongue
Fill my mouth with blood
And swallow enough to kill me

I would love to love you
If you were someone else
Am I fit to walk alone again
Or will you save me from myself?
Breathe life into me
Be all that I can see
Or carry on without me
And just know I wished you well


10. DROWN

Immerse yourself in the water that flows freely from my hands
You’ll find no substance, just the rain that we use to simply bathe and disregard
I bless my arteries with blades, and I welcome the sight of the back of my eyelids
In our most peaceful and remote state, we’re allowed to choose what we want to feel
Mortality is the greatest gift given to the living, but a curse to those who feel that they’re truly alive

Sentenced to trespass, I should spin towards the north…
but your gravity has left me alone and I’m left to roam as an apparition
Abandoned, I am a phantom limb in search of a frame to spread my plague
If the light leaves you blind, just shut your eyes and embrace the undertow
Let the waves puncture your lungs
In my dreams we drown together
Everything goes black but I can see you just fine

Condolences flourish and fall upon my feet
and help pollinate the dirt that sits in the pit of your stomach
I need to shed the idea of a lasting impression

Make peace with my spirit breach

Everything goes black and I still see you in my dreams
Lower your head to sleep and let me do the same
I’m confident that we will meet again, every time you wade in a body of water
I am the light that leaves you blind, but I watched you retreat and cover your eyes
In your rivers I reside
In dreams we drown together
Everything goes black but you will see me just fine


11. SOLACE

We shiver in the pause between words
Abandonment still fresh upon the tips of our tongues
The whispers we’ve chosen to live and die in will infect deaf ears with the discordance of deceit
Why do we scream when there is nothing left to say?
Silently acknowledging the solace in loss
I am content with throwing everything away because I lost myself when I found you

Carry me back to your bed
My conscience is my coffin and I swear sometimes I’d rather be dead
Make sure that I still feel, I don’t care how much it hurts
I’ll always be numb on my side of the earth

In the dark I watched the light hit your skin, hoping that my eyes might never adjust
Soft sounds save me from the confines of sleep because hearing your voice once was never enough
I think I’ve finally identified the Difference
I think I live in both my hell and my home
I will forever be a slave to your distance
Don’t let me in
Don’t let me go

Carry me back to your bed
My conscience is my coffin and I swear sometimes I’d rather be dead
Make sure that I still feel, I don’t care how much it hurts
I’ll always be numb on my side of the earth
Don’t let me in, don’t let me go

(In this moment)
I’d rather die than live without you
I’d rather die