1. PROLUSION

Path,
Pain:
Passion


2. AMALGAMA

Ama a gama que ama, que ama
Ama a gama que ama, amálgama

Amálgama
Fogo, chama que clama, que clama

It flows behind between
Disguised underneath
Lover’s eyes
That’s the actual sign
For which they may die
(One needs to be other)

Not one, not two
It’s as uneven as uncount
That’s the fire which melts
One into none
(One needs to be other)

(Every inch and all
And more
Pleads to be one, another)
Jamais amara, amará
Parte de um todo só
Sós ambos, sós ambos
Amores?
Amores são nós

Amálgama
Fogo, chama que clama, que clama

Ama a gama que ama, que ama
Ama a gama que ama, amálgama

You, your incrusted fears,
Bless and are blessed
To be starving years by years

Hunting far and wide
Non touching touches
In spite of
Hopelessness beside

(I trusted one to be me
Undressed of hopes and dreams)

You, your untrusted being,
Over flooding, in search,
By in another another’s seeing

But then
Eagerly, not wondering
That primal wonder thing

(Rip me out inside out
And find what else we both could be)
Why…

(Every inch and all
And more
Plead to be one, another)
Juntara, rejunte de chama
Dois em um único só?
Tampouco, há sol, há sóis
Tão pouco há sol a sós.

Amálgama
Fogo, chama que clama, que clama


3. ENTWINED

I’ve still walked on a path
Since I lost your faith
And you, on my thorny scared forehead,
Wrote in blood your sins

(Here I am, I’m back
Sketching a path full of lies
Here I bring you sorrow
All the fear and the pain bursting your eyes)

I’ve drawn it all again
I must be late (must be you)
You must be
Must be with me

For all the stuff I am
I must be late (must be you)
You must be
Must be with me

Forever I’m stained by you
Filthy but stronger I rose
(Life spins, don’t we know?
Nothing is gone)

I’ve drawn it all again
I must be late
You must be (must be you)
Must be with me

For all the stuff I am
I must be late (must be you)
You must be
Must be with me

(Thus, indeed, must be me, must be with me)

(I blindly drew a way for your denial
Instead I reached dark places inside of my own
Now countless shades are leaking out from me
Creating this misformed being, both you and me)

Under each pore on me
Threatening remembrances
Devour my serenity
Gallons and gallons of
Melting mercy memories
Have flooded away my being

So hold me and lick my sweat to purify
All the taste of guilt I can’t afford but I can’t deny
Dragging burdens and misfortunes
Disposing of faceless cries and shattered shouts
I should not refuse (take this misery inside)

Being another but me
Being away but in me
For all we’ve shared

All the silence we had before
All the thereness we joined
Through the nights we’ve laid on
Entwined


4. SILENT WORDS

In silence
Every word shouts for silence

Hear the silence of my loud words, loud words

Accepting truth and lies
Convictions can make you high
All the noise you turn to names
Only they let you go insane

All the silent words are silent worlds

Now, we’re between
An inner and outer voice
So unhear

Despite your guidance
I commune with no-words
Because in silence it must be done
No need of violence
Let nothingness flow
Because in silence it must be done

Speechless poetry
Spit out from your vicious mouth
I hear it out and loud
And yet I hear nothing
Silent words
Meaning nothing more than sounds
I hear it out and loud
And yet I hear nothing

Don’t dream aloud
Don’t cry out
Because in silence it must be done
Don’t spit words out
Don’t hit the speech
Because in silence it must be done

Hear the loudness of my silence, silence

Accepting truth and lies
Convictions can make you high
All the noise you turn to names
Only they let you go insane

All the silent words are silent worlds

Now, we’re between
An inner and outer voice

Despite your guidance
I commune with no-words
Because in silence it must be done
No need of violence
Let nothingness flow
Because in silence it must be done

Every song you sang
Every poem you declaimed
Are knots of speechless sounds
Every will you wrote
Every sign you made in coal
Are gone through ragged dirty lauds


5. EPHEMERAL

No, no-one

Like a breath so ephemeral
Yet eternal in my soul

Now

How long have I been in wrath and woe
What choices have I made
I’m in sorrow and hate and beg for more
How far have I gone

Who am I (you are)
Who am I (you are)
Who am I (just bright as a ghost)
Ephemeral

All the silent calls I have ignored
How far have I gone

(you are) Who am I
(you are) Who am I
(you are) Who am I (just bright as a ghost)
Ephemeral

Rebirth
Rethink
Rebuild
Resume

Oh, the stars, they die
Whispering lies, fading as time goes
Everyone falls apart every time

(Rebirth) all is fleeing from me (the past)
(Rethink) getting older not in time (we refuse)
But not to see
(Rebuild) inside and behind my eyes (lies bright in the sky)
(Resume) concealing destinies. (dead, it lives on)

Oh, the stars, mere ghosts
Echoes from a past, ephemeral
Everyone falls apart every time

You are just bright as a star
Just vivid as a ghost
Ephemeral, eternal
And my mind will not let go

Forever, thus far
Flaws and fortunes are ephemeral


6. A LULLABY FOR LUNATICS

Deviltry
Taste the sweat of your desire (taste the sweat of my Desire)
I’ll put a flower between your teeth (I’ll rip the flower as You bleed)
Before I should sleep
I hope you to die
Before I could cry

Oh my sweet harm
Drink the tears of a forsaken child
I’ll put a flower between your teeth (I’ll rip the flower as You bleed)
Before I should sleep
I hope you to die
Before I could cry
Cry, cry, crime.

Requiescat in pace
Rip rip rip
Ripping petals
Over your wintered body

Sleeplessly
You won’t, you won’t, you won’t
Awakelessness
I wish you
But you ever, ever return

It’s so much better when you die
So much better to touch you cold
All those things I can’t deny
They’re all gone, they’re all gone

It’s so much better when you’re dead
So much better touch you cold
All those things left unsaid
They’re all gone, they’re all gone

While you sobbed my name,
Again and again the same
I saw that what I did
I did for nothing

All the blood I’ve been bleeding
Fills and colors each petal and each moment of ours
Sip this poisoned flower tea, because I need you to decease

Your absence (my life belongs to you)
I had to be with your absence

You drew a draft of me (I miss missing you) (your death Belongs to me)
And erased all my beliefs (I miss missing you) (my life Belongs to you)
And now I don’t know who I am (I miss missing you) (your Death belongs to me)

I heard your name
From graves and deeper and deeper heart exhumes
(Streams of you in me again]
Open your mouth to the flower I brought for you to die
I’ve crawled under your bed and there I was entombed alive
[Still remember our last time)
For me to see you, liar
I’m back as you desired
(Felt the blood divine in pain
That very moment in which you died)

For you I sing this lullaby
A lullaby to see you high
In spite of angels have denied you

I’ll try
Again I’ll try

I spit the truth you made me swallow
I push the soil you pulled me under
Forgetting icons I’ve tried to follow
I need you buried
Deeply buried


7. SOLO AWAKENING

(Solo I close my weary eyes
Sigh of life
Sigh of life

Beyond this world of mine
There is some place and time
Distant images in my mind
Tricking my eyes)
Only I supposed to die forsaken and denied

(Solo I wake blinded by light
Eyes, my eyes
Solo I wake restless inside

Beyond this world of mine
There is some place and time
Distant images in my mind
Tricking my eyes)
Solo I stand watching your crimes
Judging the world bowing for lies (for lies)
Lamenting over it not to be mine (to be mine)
Solo I stand waiting for dying (for dying)

Intending to blame
Any others’ smile
Looking for hope
In pain and exile
Feeling forlorn
And being consumed

Being consumed, being consumed

Lost and searching for
Any reason
Thus I bleed my eyes to see

In sins and lies I chose to die

But in hate I can be just, only in hate I can be just

No way beyond
No life upon
Only hate burns in my core

(Beyond this world my eyes left behind
Beyond this world my heart despises
I feel alive
I feel life
I feel alive
I feel life)

My misfortune is to expect for some
(There’s) no light behind the dark, the dark

(Beyond this world of mine
There is some place and time
Distant images in my mind
Tricking my eyes)

Judging the world bowing for lies
Lamenting over it not to be mine (to be mine)


8. IN HEBETUDE

The universe dances, while we stumble on and on
Yearning, weeping, preaching
We’ve tried to cross over our cross
(Missteps are never over)

We have been part of a part of a whole
To which we have no touch at all
We chose not to listen the world's verse
We'd better decompose our own version
(Mismatches are never over)

You'd rather stay in hebetude
I’ll be long gone
Timesick, forlorn
Watching it through the door
Wasting it to the core

The universe dances, while we crawl under the floor
(Missteps are never over)
frail deeds, wasting needs
We have been always beneath the top

You'd rather stay in hebetude
I’ll be long gone
Timesick, forlorn
Watching it through the door
Wasting it to the core

When my desire speaks no more
I’ll be gone, long gone

Preaching faults and fallacies
It’s a way to believe thus to be
Unsound stanzas must be sung
Though a unique verse exists
Verses in echoes inside

The universe dances
Once we danced as one
Entwined, delighted
By pristine tunes we have lost

In hebetude, we ought to be
Thus peace means some
As long as no time in

In hebetude, hope is not a sound
But it turns lower and lower
Expectations to specters
Dancing around and around

In hebetude, ideas lay bare on a flat field
Rolling, twisting, sliding
They sooth the mean in me
Though “no” they mean

You'd rather stay in hebetude
I’ll be long gone
Timesick, forlorn
Watching it through the door
Wasting it to the core


9. ONLY BLOOD KNOWS

All the thickness
At random wandering
Blessing what is blessed
Growing the entire growth

I do bleed when you bleed in me

Although every single whisper…
Although the softest sigh of life…
All is swallow and thrown up
Again and again
Sigh after sigh

I do bleed when you bleed in me

You light up (light up)
And the entire world is swallowed as you want
There is only one way to run you out:
Not touching you before

Starvation is your name
Woe of us to step on your way
Breaking down, beseeching for
Both of us are doomed at all

I’m a dreamer (I’m a dreamer)
Walking through till the end of time
I’m a sinner (I’m a sinner)
Standing alone seeing life going by
I beg for (I beg for)
Bleeding but not bleeding inside
I beg for (I beg for)

Your blood

Pristine like the pain we both knew
Enticed by the light despite the emptiness

Diving in the sky
In which are your eyes
Black hold is tight
I feel the touch of emptiness

Being licked up by those entireness’ tongues
Namelessly, inhaling an unknown knowledge
Collapsing boundaries
Concealing whereabouts
I touch you as you touch me

An unfailing stream runs in my veins
I feel the touch of emptiness

An unfailing stream runs in my veins
We know what only bloob blood knows

When there’s nothing left to dream of (I’m a dreamer)
Not a hidden sin to wish for (I’m a sinner)
Open eyes beg to the wide (I beg for)
So that they can feel the blood (I beg for)

You light up (light up)
And the entire world is swallowed as you want
There is only one way to run you out:
Not touching you before

Starvation is your name
Woe of us to step on your way
Breaking down, beseeching for
Both of us are doomed at all

Starvation is your name
Woe of us to step on your way
Breaking down, beseeching for
Both of us are doomed at all


10. PASSION

Walk on me
Climb up into my knees
Trail along my neck
A track to redeem

Nailing down my face
An only way to achieve
The highest plain in pain
Meadows where you may decease

Your feet, your bones, your skin
You crawl, you beg, you dream
For me, for us, for them

I've found my way carving wounds that won’t heal
As my skin bleeds out, I languish still
My only solace is a silent grief
For it feels too painful to cry

It must be sorrowful, bitter and harmful
Because every thorn relieves the truth
Per aspera ad astra
For me, for us, for them

Walk on me
And feed me with the need
Of purifying the world
By hunger, hate and disease

You crawl, you beg, you dream
For me, for us, for them