We Came As Romans : Understanding What We've Grown to Be

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1. MIS//UNDERSTANDING

Am I not understanding this now?
This world I've held so close to my heart
Is all against me now
And it wears, and it breaks,
And it brings me down, so low, down so low
It wears me down, down to my bones
Straight through my skin
It wears me down, down to my bones
Wearing away until I'm nothing

Am I not understanding this now?
This world I've held so close to my heart
Is now more broken then ever
And I tried compassion
And to love every other
Ive tried forgiveness
And to hold on close to my brothers
And look at where its left us
Did I ever understand enough?

Did all my words fall on deaf ears?
Was what I wrote only shown to closed eyes?
Have you ever felt like you did everything right
And it still all went wrong

Am I not understanding this now?
This world I've held so close to my heart
Is now more broken then ever
And I tried compassion
And to love every other
Ive tried forgiveness
And to hold on close to my brothers
And look at where its left us
Did I ever understand enough?

Six years ago I married a bride
I'm not sure she was meant to be mine
Six years ago I married a bride
I'm not sure she was meant to be mine

So unsure of everything
So unsure of everything
I live in the marriage of life and love
But was I mistaken all along?
Have you ever felt like you did everything right
But it still all went wrong?

So here I am filled with doubt
Understanding with live will be
My only way out
Don't give up on me
Because it might take days
Take comfort in me if you
Feel the same
Feel the same

Don't give up on me
Don't give up on me

Take comfort in me
Take comfort in me

We need to fix ourselves
And make right all our mistakes
It's all we can do
It's all we can do
It's all I can do
So I ask will you?


2. EVERYTHING AS PLANNED

I Don't Sleep At Night,
I Don't Sleep At Night.
I Just Lay And Think,
About If Everything Went Just How I've Planned,
And How Nothing Is Going How I've Planned.

I'm Tied Down To The Bed I've Made,
The One That I Said That I Had Left.
I Shouldn't Speak Before I Know,
I've Built And Rebuilt The Bed I Lay In.
But I Always End Up Restless In The Same Place.

I Don't Sleep At Night,
And I Don't Know What To Think,
About The Life I've Made For Myself.
Or Have I Created My Own Hell?

Did I Set Myself Up To Fail?
Tried To Take Care Of Everyone Else,
Neglected Taking Care Of Myself,
How Can I Take Care Of Anyone Else?

The One Thing I Wanted Most,
Was Lost Because Of My Own.
My Own Irresponsibility.

Do I Get As Many Chances As It Takes?
(As Many Chances As It Takes)
Or Have I Not Earned Them?
Or Have I Not Earned Them?

Tell Me That I Have Earned Them,
Tell Me That I Can

Start Sleeping Through The Night,
Will You Tell Me That I've Created A Life For Myself?
None Of Us Were Made To Fail.
I Know Without Taking Care Of Myself,
I Can Never Take Care Of Anyone Else.

Will I Start To Sleep At Night?
Or Will I Just Lay And Think?
About How If Everything Went Just How I've Planned,
Or If I'm Better Off It Never Has.

Will I Sleep?
Or Will I Just Lay In Bed?
Will I Start To Sleep At Night?
Or Will I Just Lay And Think?


3. WHAT I WISHED I NEVER HAD

Don't catch me at the wrong time
Or you will feel my wrath
The one i wished I never had
Wished i never had

I need to rid myself of resentment
And every last bit of it
If I'm going to live up to the things I've written
I need to clear my mind of this anger
And all the rage that I've held near
If I'm going to live up to the words I've spoken

But I haven't yet
Letting go
Is how I can start to fight my way
Out of this trench I've dug
In this war against myself
In this war against myself
But I haven't yet
But I haven't yet

Don't catch me at the wrong time
Or you will feel my wrath
The one i wished I never had
Wished i never had

I wish I never had this demon inside
I wish I knew how to cast it out
I wish I never had this demon inside
I wish I knew how to cast it out

But I fear it will never leave me
But I fear it will never leave me

I need to rid myself of resentment
And every last bit of it
If I'm going to live up to the things I've written
I need to clear my mind of this anger
And all the rage that I've held near
If I'm going to live up to the words I've spoken

Letting go, Just let it go
I know, I know
Letting go, Just let it go
I know, I know
Letting go, Just let it go
I know, I know
Letting go, Just let it go
I know, I know

I know I need to let go
Of everything that ever has
Ever made me think myself better
I'm not better than anyone else
Of anything that's filled me with anger
That I have taken out on everyone else
On everyone else

These demons will never leave me
I can only find ways to not let them out
These demons will never leave me
But I control them, Not the other way around


4. CAST THE FIRST STONE

I'll cast the first stone
Just to take the attention away from me
Anything to protect my reputation
Because I feel like that's all I have, all I know

What do I look like in their eyes?
Is it something desirable?
Or am I nothing?

What do I look like in their eyes?
What do I look like in their eyes?

I'll cast the first stone
Like I am the last one to blame
Just to shift their condemning eyes away
I'll cast the first stone
Like I am the last one to blame
Just to break their denouncing gaze

Why should I wait to hear their verdict?
Why do I care about who they think I should be?
Why should I wait to hear their verdict?
Why do I care about who they think I should be?

I have been bending over backwards for every reason but the Right one
I have placed value on things that don't deserve it

Now what do I look like to those who matter?
Why did I waste all this time on the temporary?
It's too easy to take the wrong things to heart
Especially from those who seem to have misplaced their own

I won't say that I'll never cast another stone
Or that I am the last one to blame
But I want to stop living like anyone else's opinion
Of who I should be is a regulation in my life

I shouldn't forget there's a difference
Between living for other's approval and just living for Others


5. THE WAY THAT WE HAVE BEEN.

Why have we been so reckless?
Acting like we don't know right from wrong
And it's not like we didn't expect this
When we've really known all along
It could only be so long until we really felt it
We've been digging our way down instead of digging our way Out

We can't keep living the way we have been
It'll catch up to us and destroy everything else as well
I know we were never perfect
But it was more than worth it
And we don't deserve it
The strain that give with the way that we live

It's taken too long for this realization
But I'm hoping we will have so many more
I never want to stop trying to make things better
No matter how good I think they are

Why have we been so complacent?
Accepting everything as good enough
With all the effort we never put in
Convenience was the priority to us
Taking the first step is the hardest part
After we've been digging our way down instead of digging Our way out

We can't keep living the way we have been
It'll catch up to us and destroy everything else as well
I know we were never perfect
But it was more than worth it
And we don't deserve it
The strain that give with the way that we live
It's taken too long for this realization

We're all sorry for the lost time
But will we take a step in a new direction?
I don't want to waste any more time
But I can't do this without you
Will you take my hand?

We can't keep living the way we have been
It'll catch up to us and destroy everything else as well

I know we were never perfect
But it was more than worth it
And we don't deserve it
The strain that give with the way that we live


6. A WAR INSIDE

The devil on my should tells me he's proud of me
That it takes a real man to look out for himself and no one Else
I don't want to believe that
But sometimes it's easier to just stay silent

I wish I knew how to speak out
I never had a problem with words
But only when talking to someone else
There's a wear inside me that's all my own
And I need to talk like a king to keep myself afloat
But how much longer until everyone knows?

There's a war inside me that's all my own
There's a war inside me that's all my own

I should have started to take my own advice
From the moment that I started giving it
But I can only control what happens from here
And if none of this had happened
Then I couldn't have heard...

The angel on my shoulder tells me he's proud of me
That it takes a real man to live for everyone else before Himself
I know I believe it
And it'll never get easier
But it will always be worth it

There's a war inside me that's all my own

I'm still learning to speak out against myself
And stay on the path I truly want to be on
Though I've lost my way more times that I have wished
My heart is constant and willing

I still believe that we were made for more
That what I've been doing lately
This end of depression will be the start of getting back What I have lost
Because I had become conceited
But I'm making it back to where I last left off
And so I've shown you my heart
Will you restore me?


7. STAY INSPIRED

Why do we love only when it's convenient to us?
Why do we love only when it's convenient to us?

It is because we don't want to let go
Of the security that a close heart holds?
Or is it the risk of being broken?
Too unbearable to even let the thought surface

There are greater rewards in stepping outside of your own Comfort
That there are in never breaking down the walls that you've Built

A solely self-sustaining life is surely a hollow one
Why do we love only when it's convenient to us?

Why are we understanding only when it's agreeable?

It is because we don't want to let go
Of the security that a close heart holds?
Or is it the risk of being broken?
Too unbearable to even let the thought surface

There are greater rewards in coexistence
That there are in never breaking down the walls that you've Built

A solely self-sustaining life is surely a hollow one
Why do we love only when it's convenient to us?

It's time to take action
It's time to stay inspired
It's time to prove that we aren't all talk
And we're not afraid of the risks


8. JUST KEEP BREATHING

Am i still breathing?
Am i still breathing?

I've stumbled over every obstacle
That has come before me
But at least i made it past
I've been fumbling over every word i wanted to write
But i've but those insecurities in the past
It's so much easier to leave my mistakes behind me
If i acknowledge that i've made them

Am i still breathing?
Then nothing is as bad as it seems
So just keep breathing, and keep calm, keep calm
The only real control we have is over ourselves
So let's get over it
That we can't and we won't control anything else

You can't lose something you never had
So why miss the memory of something didn't exist? Everything is all right, just keep calm, keep calm But everything is all right, just keep calm, keep calm

Am i still breathing?
Then nothing is as bad as it seems
So just keep breathing, and keep calm, keep calm
The only real control we have is over ourselves
So let's get over it
That we can't and we won't control anything else

Is everything all right?
Keep calm
Am i still breathing?
Keep calm

Don't let yourself think that you control
Anything besides the way you live your life
Everything is all right
Just keep calm, just keep calm
Everything is all right
Just keep calm, just keep calm
Everything is all right

Everything is all right
Just keep calm, just keep calm
But everything is all right
Just keep calm, just keep calm

Am i still breathing?
Then nothing is as bad as it seems
So just keep breathing, and keep calm, keep calm
The only real control we have is over ourselves
So let's get over it
That we can't and we won't control anything else
So just keep breathing


9. VIEWS THAT NEVER CEASE, TO KEEP ME FROM MYSELF

I am so far away
And it's more than I can take
I haven't heard your voice in days
I haven't heard your voice in days

What is the measure of a man?
Is it wading through the worst?
Or is the measure of a man
Admitting when he is defeated?

But I am not and will not be defeated
I have given everything in my life for this
I'm counting down the days
Though I've been broken and beaten
I know I can't let it, I know I can't let it win

This feeling that there is nothing left
That my purpose is gone
These views, they never cease
To keep me from myself and who I am
So what makes the measure of a man?
Is it being too stubborn to let go of the good and move on?

But I am not and will not be defeated
I will wade through the worst of it all
I'm counting down the days
Though I've been broken and beaten
I am not done with this
I know I will not fall

This is my deepest dream
Or is this a nightmare in disguise?
What makes the measure of a man?
Is it always trying to do right?
I'm' so far away
And I don't know if it's more than I can take
With these views, that never cease to keep me from myself

With these views, they never cease to keep me from myself
I will keep moving forward when I have nothing left

I am not and will not be defeated
I've given everything in my life for this
But I am not and will not be defeated
I've given everything in my life for this


10. WHAT MY HEART HELD

I just want to feel something
I just want to feel something new

I feel like i'm stuck in this routine
Every day is decided before i wake
Every dream that i've dreamt i don't want to chase
All the people i've met, i start forgetting their names

The whole day just blurs into one picture
And months later, there are collections of copies
Everything looks the same
Everything feels the same

I feel like i'm stuck in this routine
Every day is decided before i wake
Every dream that i've dreamt i don't want to chase
All the people i've met, i start forgetting their names

And they forget mine and i give them no blame
I'm so disconnected i don't feel the same
That i did when we started
When i knew what my heart held

So what does my heart hold now?
Is it something else or am i too blind to see i'm still the Same?
I know i still hold close the same things i always have
But this world crashes down on me and i can only think About the weight
Instead of those who were always there to help me hold it up

You have always been there to help me hold up this earth
Every time it weighs me down

I need to break out of this routine
Everyday is decided when i say
Every dream that i've dreamt i am gonna chase

All the people i've met in every different place
I hold them all close and support their dreams
I feel so connected, now i am the same
That i was when we started
When i knew what my heart held

Everything looks the same
Everything feels the same
You've always been there to help me hold up this earth


11. I CAN'T MAKE YOUR DECISIONS FOR YOU

I've led a horse to water
But he turned and ran as soon as I turned my back
It seems as if the way here
Wore worse on me than it did on him

I feel like my words have only given way
To brief intentions but no intent for action
I've waited, I've asked, I've hoped
For you to show me I've thought wrong

Prove to me that I've thought wrong
And it will fill me further than being right
I wish you'd prove to me that you want to
Live life as much as I want you to

I swear my hopes are selfless in this
I only want you to feel whole
I swear my hopes are selfless in this
I only want you to feel whole
But I can't make your decisions for you
But I can't make your decisions for you

I feel like my words have only given way
To brief intentions but no intent for action
I've waited, I've asked
I've hoped for you to show me I've though wrong

I've led a horse to water
But he turned and ran as soon as I turned my back
It seems as if the way here
Wore worse on me than it did on him

I can't make your decisions for you
I can only be a guide
I can't make your decisions for you
I can only encourage action

I hope that my words have only given way
To real intentions with pure intent for action
I've waited, I've asked, I've hoped
Now show me that I've thought wrong


12. UNDERSTANDING WHAT WE'VE GROWN TO BE

All the lights,
Were too bright to see the spark
That I've been missing for too long.
Something I've been missing for too long.

My empty cup, could never fill another.
I have spilled all I've had, to make things better.
But the love of all others, has made me new.

My empty cup, could never (because of you) fill another.
(I am made new) I have spilled all I've had,
(Because of you) to make things better. (I am made new)

We've all been broken
So let us make each other new. [x2]

I've died inside every time I tried
To lie to myself about feeling alive, alive. [x2]
(I've died)

All the lights, were too bright to see the spark
That I've been missing for too long.
Something I've been missing for too long.

All these distractions, kept me from seeing what I needed All along, an understanding.

I am speechless tonight
As I stare into the sky.
I feel endless compassion, forgiveness, and love,
I feel everyone who is looking up sharing this,
I feel unexplainably alive.

I need to understand what we've grown to be.

Tonight, when I look into the sky
I know this is why I am alive.
Tonight, when I look into the sky
I know this is why I am alive.
So sing with me if you feel this feeling. [x2]

I'm alive.

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