1. AN HOUR AND TEN MINUTES (FAILURE)

Too often I am less of a friend
Than just a fucking enemy
Sorry for mistreating you and everyone else around you
Dark days - I'm grounded in my mind
It's damn hard to do what's right
Surrounded by what's wrong
Feeling like the worst failure of all
Hurting the ones I am supposed to love
I once thought I was irreplaceable, I should have known better...


2. APRIL

A painfull lesson to be learned
Distances mean certainty to me
Loopholes in every situation
Commitment is the greatest fear
Antagonize the one in control
I'm still my own worst enemy
Reflecting what I've done
A rash promise : I'll be there
Step out of the shadow of my past mistakes
But I'll stay the sad and pissed off boy you've known
Who refuses to find peace in life's circumstances
Struggling from day to day, breaking the patterns of my behaviour
I surely won't let the demons win.
“Until I'm there“
But not this city and not in April.