1. ESTRANGED

Suspend your disbelief, a loss or lack of faith
In lustful gloom, this lurking ache

A chase that never stops, attachment reoccurs
The shallow ways I'll prove my worth

Was your composure compromised?
Was your dignity sacrificed?

Are you staring in mirrors all smoke, cloak and daggers?
Ten Years on the run left me damaged and ragged
Each moment stark, marked with poignancy
I've grown tired of the city, and the city's gotten sick of me

A boring, endless catalogue of apologies
Shadow powers of recall, whatever brings you ease
Dealing in ignorance, a roll of the dice just to exercise conscience
An eternity to repent

Welcome doubt into your home, it's enough to stir the ghosts
Invite doubt into your bones, preempting that sting

I closed the door and kept the darkness in.


2. RAUMDEUTER

Separate me from what creates balance
To deserve to be let down
What soaks up and sobers?
The prison of twilight
Peace will not absolve this

Cut these cords. Let it unravel
Let it flood through every floor
Teach me a lesson
Build upon my disgrace
The unbearable flaws of it all

Torrents crash without warning
Unlatch from the notion that this is binding
Figments strike out in passing
To be parched always eternally

Here lies what we've feared
Just let it pass
Take cover from the all-seeing sun
Bewitched by the glare
Let it wash over you


3. THE EMBERS

I will not face this retribution, I know what's futile
It's wicked and reckless, make it discreet

Torch it all, it's forever faulted and fallen
Dawn to dusk, the first and last
Entirely tarnished by the past
Is it enough?

Repulsion flocks beneath the skin
The primary cause, consumed but adored
To host such passion, but desolate and drawn
The falseness of enchantment
The fractures in such deep devotion
Is it enough?

The love and hate the loyalty
Clawing through by the skin of your teeth

Desire and torment, it's everything and nothing, this promise of bliss
But fractured and brittle, infinite and unconditional

An undivided fantasy, which you can't bare to see beneath
The host of heaven, swallowed down into this darkness

It's no defeat, it's not enough
Sworn to by faith, burning for eternity
Infinite and unconditional
Sworn to be faith, burning for eternity
It's not enough


4. PHANTOMS

All of your greatest failures, committed to memory
Like the words of a secret or the sound of a melody


5. OPALESCENT

No measured mark of wit, wisdom or rhetoric could solve this
Too fractured to endear, bonds broken beyond view
With all roads leading here, fettered by an endless blue

But I held the arrows, I pulled the strings
And bottled messages never to be seen
But I held the arrows, I pulled the strings

In fits and starts it can blossom and bloom
But I held the arrows, I pulled the strings
In fits and starts it can blossom and bloom
The shot at the moon still falls short of the stars


6. UNSEEN AND UNKNOWN

(Instrumental)


7. STAGE KNIVES

I pulled up the roots just to see
I've felt differently since about disappearing
I placed myself back in the weeds
In echoes in alleys I'm reminded

(As close to close as we'll come)
As close to composure as I've come

I'd immersed myself in beauty and find it all vanishing
Empty, longing and vulnerable
Sharpen your knives

Neither a pawn nor a king
I am nowhere, I am nothing
For this betrayal that's how I should be seen
Wearing scars I deserve, on a throne of nothing

Ethereal and haunting, the wandering and yearning
Characters I've kept, plotless and neglecting
The architect and monument
Neither here nor there, forever elsewhere

And so it goes
There's consequence
To these vowels and consonants
And I came as close to heaven as I'll come


8. CRYSTAL CASCADES

A wave cascading
Our glory fading
I've felt the world greying


9. CHANDELIER SHIVER

(Instrumental)


10. FUNEREAL

At war within, to suppress everything
The more you struggle, the deeper you sink
Thoughts form in constellations, now emerge composed

Nothing is sacred, electrified by hatred
Nothing is sacred, these threats accumulate
Nothing is sacred, purified by hatred

Lose and lack control
You'll find you only ever reap what you sow

Ward off the brightest stars, they are primed with tragedy
Get a handle on this harmony, get a handle on this harmony

Faith is ill advised relapse is a choice
Get a handle on this harmony, get a handle on this harmony

I am eclipsed, it's so bittersweet

I struggle to draw breath when we are so restricted
Observe these passing waves, forgive the missing pieces

I struggle to draw breath when we are so restricted
In finding the balance now that the weight has shifted
And with all my being I know that I don't need this
To hear "to be in need, is some kind of weakness"

I observe spirited loyalty
And wonder why this does not apply to me
Bitterness has bathed me, I feel destruction overwhelm me
For we're the loss, follow our slowing pulse
Practice makes permanent
For we're the loss, follow our slowing pulse
I am eclipsed, it's so bittersweet
Bitterness has bathed me, I feel destruction overwhelm me
I am eclipsed, it's so bittersweet


11. ALL THAT HAS GONE BEFORE

At the end
See this will close with clarity
Leave nothing unturned searching for perfection
Let it commence

The hold this has on me, strengthened by the permanence of scars
We can't be loved as we are
Deafened by discontent, I am nowhere

The hold this has on me
How it orbits the fallen in this uneasy calm
We can't be loved as we are
The dull numbness of demise, I let it die

To search for the other half in this uneasy calm
With the rise and set, shattered sharp misery
In the sweetness of these secrets
There's structure to this ruin

To flee from the other half in this uneasy calm
Hidden in the permanence of scars
Disconnected and undone
Devastated by these ruins, I am nowhere

We can't be loved as we are
With the rise and set, I am nowhere

I am nowhere, there is no glory in the air
We can't be loved as we are
With the rise and set, I am nowhere
(Hidden in the permanence of scars)
We can't be loved as we are
With the rise and set, I am nowhere
(The dull numbness of demise, I let it die)