1. SHAME

I wonder if you can see
I wonder if you can tell
I wonder if you see through the mask I wear so well
I'll never let you know what's going on inside me
My shame, locks me down

All the things I wanted to tell you
Are all the things I never will
Ever time you reached down to me
All I did was put you away
I can't unchain the thing that screams inside me
I hate it, its what I am

It makes me sick a piece of me
Of what I've been and what I've seen
From top to bottom
I am obscene

You smile at me, I smile back
You ask me how I am
I tell you that I am fine
I don't know why I'm so torn up inside my mind, the darkness, it swallows me hole

It makes me sick a piece of me
Of what I've been and what I've seen
From top to bottom
I am obscene
It stands in my place
It spits in my face
Its shame shame
its shame

At least I don't lie
At least I don't lie
I look at myself and say "man you doing just fine, you're doing great"
I'm not liv'in in a lie
Not liv'in in a lie

Or am I?

It makes me sick a piece of me
Of what I've been and what I've seen
From top to bottom
I am obscene
It stands in my place
It spits in my face
Its shaaaaaaaaaaame

Don' go to deep
Don't ask me why
Don't try to know me
Don't make me lie

I wish I didn't know the things I don't know well
I'm trying to change, but its what I am

It makes me sick a piece of me
Of what I've been and what I've seen
From top to bottom
I am obscene
It stands in my place
It spits in my face
Its shame shame
Its shame shame

Not liven in a lie
Am I?
I'm Not liv'in in a lie
Am I?
NO back to top


2.STARVE

I stay out late
I go alone
I needed sleep
I go without
I go along

I go all night
I go all night
I make the colors go
I push my senses out
I push my senses out
I keep my existence lean

I starve starve
I make the colors go
I starve starve
I make the colors go

And hear I am keen eyed my mind is low to the ground
And in my mind real time is mine and I know what I know
I step up and get none
I step up and get none
I take less and less and less and less and less than none

I starve starve
I make the colors go
I starve starve
I make the colors go

At the back of mind I hear the engines whine
At the back of mind I hear the engines whine
Go all night go all night
I make my blood scream
I kiss my fear on the mouth
I kiss my fear on the mouth
I make my blood burn

I starve starve
I make the colors go
I starve starve
I make the blood scream
I make the blood burn

And when I step up I get up all the way
And when I step up I get off all the way
When turn my back and walk away
I never come back
I go without I feel the cold but I never come back
I go loooooong
I am goooooone

I starve starve
I make the colors go
I starve starve
I make the blood scream I make the blood burnback to top


3. ALL I WANT

When I close my eyes
All I see are visions of you
And when I open my eyes
Your absence pulls me down
And I try to but I can't shake myself loose

I can't command my brain
All I do is shrink and think of one thing
I am sitting alone beside me
I'm digging a hole inside myself

All I want is world I think I found
when I look in to your eyes
All I know is that I am tired of the world around me
Please please please don't ignore me

Then it came
Here I am
Thinking of you is everything within me
And I know that you will never feel me
Never see me
Never know these thoughts of mine
But in my mind you're always there
Always smiling and always reaching out for me
The days go on with heart ache
The days go on with emptiness

All I want is to some how matter to you
Even if all else rejection
All I know is that I am hammered
From the world around me
Please please please don't destroy me
Don't destroy me
Don't destroy me
Don't destroy me

All I want is world I think I found
When I look in to your eyes
All I know is that I am tired of the world around me
Please please please don't ignore me

And I burn down time
Trying to find a way to get through to you
I know I am standing in line for a hand out
It'll never come
But still I don't care

Felling like
Looking like
Naked fear is everything
Fear is everything I am

Laid out
Wide eyed
Exposed
Unable to forget you

All I want is to some how matter to you
Even if all else rejection
All I know is that I am hammered
From the world around me
Please please please don't destroy meback to top
The End Of Something
I don't step on roaches as they crawl across me floor
And If I saw your body burning in the street,
I'd put you out with gasoline
And when the garbage pile up past my knees, and the rats running free
I'll say we're even
And you'll know its the end of something

Touch your fear, don't be afraid
Touch your fear, don't be afraid
Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, don't be afraid, don't be afraid
It the end of something

And the tears from you eyes that you've cried have dried and there's nothing left to say
And when you've seen that time we spent together meant nothing and you couldn't make me stay
Remember me and my eyes and how they saw you
Remember me and my voice and what I said
Its over
And know there's nothing
Oh its the end


4. THE END OF SOMETHING

Touch your fear, don't be afraid
Touch your fear, don't be afraid
Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, don't be afraid, don't be afraid
It the end of something

Its so cold
Its the end its the end
Its so cold

The laughter's died away, and now I see the joke was on me
The cold winds blowing through my cloths and I've got no one, nothing, no where to go
My flesh is pulling tight across my bones
And I'm thinking, man you'd be better off stoned
But I know, yes I know, oh I know
This is the end of something

Touch your fear, don't be afraid
Touch your fear, don't be afraid
Touch your fear, touch your fear, touch your fear, touch your fear,
It's just the end
Of something

Its so cold
Its the end something
Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, don't be afraid, don't be afraid
To touch your fearback to top


5. ON MY WAY TO THE CAGE

On my way to the cage
I am getting taught a lesson
On my way to the cage
I am choking on the medicine
On my way to the cage
I am stepping hard on four leaf clovers
On my way to the cage
I'm learning the same thing over and over

On my way to the cage
The taste of blood is in my mouth
On my way to the cage
The fear is in their eyes
On my way to the cage
My animal blood is pure
On my way to the cage
No regrets and no last words

On my way to the cage
I heard the crowd roar
Those of you alone behind me
I couldn't ask for more
The lights are almost blinding
Come closer
Tears open my eyes
And fear me and fear me

Your soul is on a leash
Your mind is on a string
Your world's inside my fist
You put yourself above me
But there's something that you missed

You'll always say you'll hate me
But you'll watch me anyway
Its a pain
You can't resist

On my way to the cage
I'm looking at life
And laughing at death
On my way to the cage
I'm tripping on pain and feeling fine
On my way to the cage
You're paying your price and I'm paying mine
On my way to the cage
I'm watching you cry and wave good-bye

On my way to the cage
I heard the crowd roar
Those of you alone behind me
I couldn't ask for more
The lights are almost blinding
Come closer
Tears open my eyes
And fear me and fear me

Your soul is on a leash
Your mind is on a string
Your world's inside my fist
You put yourself above me
But there's something that you missed

You'll always say you'll hate me
But you'll watch me anyway
Its a pain
You can't resistback to top


6. THURSDAY AFTERNOON

Please let me see the faults that my ego denies me
Please don't let me grow so tall that I forget the ground beneath me
Don't let me forget that satisfaction has no friends
That glory always fleeting, already gone

I've wasted so much time
I've wasted so much time

I'm trying to get it straight
I'm trying to get it straight
I'm trying to keep it straight in my mind

Don't let me think its love when its only just obsession
I spent so many nights punching that wall
So me the difference between decision and denial
I want to know why I ask why

I'm trying to get it straight
I'm trying to get it straight
I'm trying to keep it straight in my mind

I'm trying to keep myself in check
I'm trying to keep myself in check
So tired of regret

Let me see confusion for exactly what it is
Don't let me make my rage a total regret
Allow me to side step my frustration and hostility
And the violence that comes to me so easily to easily
I've wasted so much time
I've wasted so much time

I'm trying to get it straight
I'm trying to get it straight
I'm trying to get it straight in my mind
I'm trying to keep myself together
Struggling struggling struggling when did they lose itback to top


7. DURING A CITY

I try
Not to let it get above me
Don't make me, don't hurt me, don't push me, don't confront me
I try to separate real from unreal
Don't make me have to open my eyes
Don't make me have to feel

Crime likes burning like a heylow
Sidewalk under me feet
Passing trees below
I keep walking, with nothing in my head
Where am I going?, where am I going?, where am I going?, where am I going?

Some nights I walk mile after mile, after mile
I need you, I need you, I want to smile, at your smile
Are you out there somewhere? waiting? looking for me?
I am falling fast, falling, falling broken
Reach out and catch me

And the city is in my blood like a curse
And the people and the noise, only make it worse
And I can't tell you why there's no place I'd rather be
Where am I going?, where am I going?, where am I going?, where am I going?

And the city drops on my head
When the city drops on my head
When the city drops on my head

Dirty gray dropping rain down in my dreams
No one knows me, no one knows me, no one knows me, no one knows me
So when you see me, just walk on by
I'm caving in and I don't know why
There's got to be more than this
But I just can't find it

I'm wondering in a city, unknown to myself
A stranger to everyone I meet
I'm wasted on insomnia, paranoid to the hilt
Where am I going?, where am I going?, where am I going?, where am I going?,

When the city drops on my head
And the city drops on my head
And the city drops on my head
Where am I going?back to top


8. NEON

I want to touch your neon chemical
I want to make you need like an animal
The way you rip my head off your my main incinerator
Kick the door down when you come
Tear the roof of when you leave, yea

The scene
Should be flashing as you reapper
Slip into something dangerous
As something I can fear
Lie and say you want then, lie and say you will
Tell me all the stories how you love and how you kill, yea

Love me as you kill me
I want feel the torture
I want to see extinction

Will you smile when the shades get soaked
In blood when the saints come crashing in
Could you do some damage to the shape I'm in
Ruin this ruin and go to the end, yea

Love me as you kill me
I want to see destruction
I want to feel extinction
Without you life is nothing
Without you life is mortal time
Without you I'm just standing here
Without you waiting to be alive

Please,
Leave your mark on me, make an impression
Don't warn me, before you cut
The moon reflects off your tools love me long
Don't slay me, don't spit on my blood after I'm gone

I want to see destruction
I want to feel extinctionback to top


9. SPILLING OVER THE SIDE

OH man
I can't believe the things I said to you
Hey, I must have been out of my mine
Desperation crept in from all the things I kept in
I am sorry I just couldn't help my self

I could tell by the look in your eyes
That you think I'm a fool, its allright
To late to turn back now

I pull theses lines out
I'm throwing my line out
Hoping you'll bite and drag me in with you

I go so low and then I see
Its when I hit the bottom
I know for sure
It gets pathetic
When you're lonely
You will do anything

I can't believe what I've become
The things I say and do
Loneliness will make you throw you sense away
Here I am trying to get through
Here I am feeling so small
I'm running my mouth at you

I'm feeling strang like a stranger
I'm hear but I know I am out of there
As close as I get is so far away
Am I coming off like I am crazy
my lack of breath is to intense
am I telling you more that you want to know

I go so low and then I see
Its when I hit the bottom
I know for sure
It gets pathetic
When you're lonely
You will do anything
I mean anything

I go so low and then I see
Its when I hit the bottom
I know for sure
It gets pathetic
When you're lonely
You will do anything

OH man
I can't believe the things I said to you
Hey, I must have been out of my mind
Playing it hard on a Saturday night
I am walking down both those streets
I am looking in through the windows at goodtime shows
My loneliness how it huts and how it shows how it showsback to top


10. INHALE EXHALE

Inhale resolve
Exhale ambition
Inhale all need
Exhale all I want
Inhale love of life
Exhale fear of death
Inhale power
Exhale force

I have all I need
I can't live without
I have all I need
I can't live without

Inhale tolerance
Exhale judgment
Inhale what I am
Exhale what I think I am

I have all I need
I can't live without
I have all I need
I can't live without
Don't hold me down
Don't hold me down
Don't hold me down

Inhale fact
Exhale assumption
Inhale what I want to be
Exhale how I want to be seen

Don't hold me down
Don't hold me down
Don't hold me down

I have all I need
I can't live without
I have all I need
I can't live without

I have all I need
I can't live without
I have all I need
I can't live without

Can't live without
I can't live without
I can't live without
I can't live withoutback to top


11. SAYING GOOD BYE AGAIN

Here it is on the news
Someone I know is now someone I knew
I can't believe it happened again

Another mound
Another one down
Pounded by a lion into the ground
My disgust has got no place to go

So sick of saying good-bye again
So sick of saying good-bye again
So sick of saying good-bye again

Rebel in the dirt
what was it worth
I left his grief and so much hurt

So much loss
So much pain
So much sorrow
And so much strain
So much anger
So much rage
No the sadness never fades
You're gone
I'm left to move on

Seems like I am saying good-bye again
Seems like I am saying good-bye again
Seems like I am saying good-bye again
Seems like I am saying good-bye

So young
Too late
So sad
Good-bye

So young
Too late
So sad
Good-bye

So young
Too late
So sad
Good-bye

Just last week I saw you hanging out
who would have know you had two days to live
I left town and heard that you did to
The difference is I can come back I can come back

So sick of saying good-bye again
So sick of saying good-bye again
So sick of saying good-bye again
So sick of saying good-bye

So young
Too late
So sad
Good-bye

So young
Too late
So sad
Good-bye

Good-bye
Good-bye
Good-byeback to top


12. REJECTION

I had it wrong for so long in my head
I was walking around like I was dead
And all the time my mind was stuck on you

And called while you stalled
I was a fool to think we were involved
I guess I needed to believe it, so bad

Rejection never felt this good
Everything unclear, not so well understood
At first I didn't see it as kind
But you did me a favor as you left me behind

You might not believe it but it is true
Its all those things you never said that told me all about you
Its the things you tried to conceal
That get revealed

I had to get it wrong before I got it right
I'm not the kind to argue,
I'm not the kind to find

By the time I reached the truth
I had reached the end

Rejection never felt this good
Everything unclear, not so well understood
At first I didn't see it as kind
But you did me a favor as you left me behind

Now I'm alone
And I'm burning
And I am hurting like hell but I am learning
The scares will take me far I can't always do
And I believe I'm allergist
I do believe I'm allergist

Rejection never felt this good
Everything unclear, not so well understood
At first I didn't see it as kind
But you did me a favor as you when you left me behind

But now I see how you are
Now I see how you are
Now I see how it is
And now I see what you do
And now I watch them line up
I watch them fall down
One after one
After one
I watch you smile
Growing grown
I think to myself
It could've been me
No way