1. RITES OF INITIATION (INTRO)

(Instrumental)


2. NEITHAN

In my body is no blood
Crucified inspiration
This voice of death
Squeals through my mind

All emotions are dying - one for one day

Neithan

My suicide in every way
This last resort for life is negation
And the feeling of one thought

Neithan


3. LESSONS OF LIFE

In the loneliness of youth
there were these doors in my mind
so black and so closed
I longed for setting free what was deep inside
but my fear closed these doors
and the pains were too cold

During the depression of my pathetic youth
when all these doors got opened
The fear was still there
the pain was still cold
but I felt these drops
of bitter blood from cold steel
Pain - my inner passion

My last dreams drifted away
to destroy my hopes
to open me truth
to reveal me dark reality

After my illusion of hope
After my innocence of youth
I accept that life got nothing
here is nothing left to feel

Reflected are all my fears
Liberated are all my pains
Life is a sarcastic way
with a tragedy for every day


4. SUICIDAL LIBERATION

Lost is my last will
Released are all feelings
Lost is my last grief
Dead are all beliefs

Nothing’s left in heart and mind
Emotions killed my dying soul
Now I am so utterly free

Suicidal liberation

Destroyed hopes went by so fast
I have sacrificed my sanity
Disguised my skin – it will ever last
Like my own wrath and disgust

One silent scream against existence
All is ruled by pain
My soul got no shape
But a natural strive for killing myself

Lost is my time
All ideals are broken
Pre-Suicidal Syndrome
I’m restricted by my own

No sense of life remains in me
Suicidal liberation


5. THE WAIL OF COGNITION (INSTRUMENTAL)

(Instrumental)


6. EDICIUS

Let life frustrate the soul
Inner- self is losing sanity
Release your greatest thoughts
It’s all an ending stream of mental unity

From depression to despair
Invent your ways to fall deep
Endless nights of flowing blood
From these white- blooming wounds

Your last days of self- ruin
Suffer for the things you never reach
Slice through your empty life
And kill all hopes left

In deep scars write:
Suicide


7. RUIN THE SELF

Drown the self in dark seeking
For a truth as cold as deep
Searching for facts of reality
But all cognitions - pure illusions
The concept of self - just a disease of mind

The soul is construction
There is no consciousness
If perception has no variations
Reality will ever be reflection
And life only constant delusion

Dissociation of soul, the split in mind
The will of life is torn inside
Oppressed energy and the death of reason
The way of perceptive self- destruction

Pain is my last remedy for apathy
‘Cause my spirit got no direction
In this meaningless life
Just circling tragedy

Will of life - a slaughtered illusion
Sense of self - an impression of existence

To injure the physical shape
Is like an own reality to feel
So close the eyes and ruin the self inside


8. WORLD OF SUICIDE

Impressions of self-mutilation
So intense and real
All these scars for one illusion
But life got no meaning

Dreams are dead
Suffered for nothing
Suffer from nothing but life

Nihilistic thoughts
With a bitter intention
Senseless streams with no unity
Reason is just a part of lunacy

Hopes are dead
Suffered for nothing
Suffer from nothing but life

In the face of futility
Existence receives a bitter meaning
Pure suicidal happiness

Realize all the lies of truth
On the ashes of your hopes
Accept death and
Express your world of suicide