1. SECONDS IN TIME

Every day you watch those children fight
Every night you hear those mothers cry
Trying, not yet
Dying, not yet
Living just one second and killing years of time

Time is just a word but the meaning hurts
Hurts like hell, imaginations of
Of being just a tiny piece
Of this giant game
Of creating just a future grave for anyone without a name

So you pray to all your gods
To give you health and joy
So you die alone and sad
And no one says goodbye

Seconds in time, your name is mine
Tears in a lake, you make your children brake
Leaves on a tree, you force yourself to flee
Letters in a desperate rhyme
We are nothing but seconds in time

Second after second you destroy your paradise
Bullet after bullet you kill your future lifes
Raindrop after raindrop, can´t wash away your guilt
Just prepare to die
You´re nothing but seconds in time

So you pray to all your gods
To give you health and joy
So you die alone and sad
And no one says goodbye

Seconds in time, your name is mine
Tears in a lake, you make your children brake
Leaves on a tree, you force yourself to flee
Letters in a desperate rhyme
We are nothing but seconds in time


2. MEMORIES DROWNING

Watching all your faces smiling in the cold white snow
All those forgotten places, lost so long ago
All those happy moments, they will find their way
Into those crying hearts, happy again one dayv
Listening to voices of slowly falling leaves
When one more summer turns to fall

Longing for a paper to write
To write another song for your joyful voice
Longing for one more single night
To drink another glass of your tasteful wine
Let´s swim in the lakes of our joyful past
They never will run dry

Watching all those children, running through forgotten fields
Swimming in those dried out ponds, without my sorrows, without your fears
Not yet seeing all this huge despair, not yet praying to the moon
Condemned to die so much too soon

Listening to voices of slowly falling leaves
When one more summer turns to fall

Longing for a paper to write
To write another song for your joyful voice
Longing for one more single night
To drink another glass of your tasteful wine
Let´s swim in the lakes of our joyful past
They never will run dry

Where are you now, my long lost angels
Will you return? say when will you return
To sing one song with my crying harp
To drink one glass of my bloody tears

Longing for a paper to write
To write another song for your joyful voice
Longing for one more single night
To drink another glass of your tasteful wine
Let´s swim in the lakes of our joyful past
They never will run dry


3. GHOSTS OF MING

Still writing all this poetry
Still longing but for what
Still don´t see myself in all those mirrors of the sea
Still I am not what I want to be

Dreaming every night of an upcoming miracle
Which will happen to break the iron chains
To show me all the things I´m trying to reach
Waking up, I lost the fight

Oppressing questions rising in my rimes
If only they´ll be read after all my times
If only they´ll be found under all this pain
If only they were gone in the pouring rain

Adoring all those ghosts of never written tales
Absorbing faces, hiding from my sight
This beauty shows the way to the stake
T the final breath I will ever make

Oppressing questions rising in my rimes
If only they´ll be read after all my times
If only they´ll be found under all this pain
If only they were gone in the pouring rain

Virtuoso master, little boy, trying to reach his class
Every night all alone, in the wet gray grass
Crying in the moonshine, teardrops on his rimes
If only the´ll be read after all his times
Will I find myself in one of all these lives
Will I like myself any day or any night
Will I kill myself in any desperate scene
Or will I live my dream


4. GRIEF AND HOPE

Something is missing in this mind
Nobody knows, it´s not satisfied
Watching this life in memories
The sweeter they are, they become to grief

The lake so far away from home
Becoming a dream of grief and hope
Hunger for more of all this pain
For sharing all those tears, again and again

Look into this restless soul and tell them they are failing
Release this grief and hope that finally came in

Grief and hope living in my mind
To be released, to be satisfied
Grief and hope dying with those tears
To rise again with all those fears

Have seen it all forgot the joy
Got it all, but never had enough
Regretting the greed of a little boy
But always achieved to make him laugh

Look into this restless soul and tell them they are failing
Release this grief and hope that finally came in

Grief and hope living in my mind
To be released, to be satisfied
Grief and hope dying with those tears
To rise again with all those fears


5. RIVERS OF HEART

On the streams drifting down the hills
In rafts only built for being smashed
Passing mountains, lakes and woods
But being blind for all impacts

Sitting still so full of fear
Of keeling over, being drowned
Passing beauties, outpacing joy
Never stopping this tiny raft

Slowly sinking in fantasies
Of our childhood, of happy days
Ignoring beauty but feeling fear
Not to fulfil our fates

Rivers of heart
Playing all the leading parts
Rivers of hate
Destroy our fates

These rivers of hate
Trying us for being faint
These rivers of joy
Pretending we´ll fulfil our fates
These Rivers of heart
Tearing all our dreams apart

Getting steeper, fast and rough
It will be written, the final page
Will reach the bottom, reach the end
Of the rivers of heart

These rivers of hate
Trying us for being faint
These rivers of joy
Pretending we´ll fulfil our fates
These Rivers of heart
Tearing all our dreams apart


6. INTO THE NIGHT

Running away out of the light
Thoughts fulfilled by great desire
The cage around is holding me back
The shining moon spends all the fire

Nothing but my loughing heart
Strolling through the ambrosial fields
Colours turn to grey and black
And noises disappear

Take my hand and join my side
Join me in the dark
Where dreams come true, where lights turn low
And sweetest wind may blow

Shining tears, floating far above
Around the gleaming one
Feel the ground, the mossy path
Gliding so far, far away


7. HOPELESS PLAY

Trying hard to kill the beast
That destroyed the dreams
But every time you catch my eyes
A loving heart
It dies

Found so much and lost it all
Nothing left to dream
Seen it all so many times
A happy face
It dies

See the rivers running off my eyes
See the endless streams running off my heart
Watch me dying, think of me
When someone sets you free
When someone finds a way
To write a happy end
To that hopeless play

Falling deep into that hell
Searching for an end
Never found your way to live
A happy life
It dies

See the rivers running off my eyes
See the streams running off my heart
Watch me dying, think of me
When someone sets you free
When someone finds a way
To write a happy end
To that hopeless play


8. SUFFER MY PAIN

Sorrow I always feel
But you don´t see this other site
You cannot feel
The things that make my heart cry
Your only need
To make me stumble on my way
You won´t succeed
Cause I am stronger than you all
Now look in my eyes
What can you see
Now just flee

Pain, what you deserve
From me you´ll get it hard and slow
Oh it will hurt
So hell is what you would prefer
You little nerd
Your eyes will break and mine will shine
The brightest light
To show you that you have lost
This joyful game
See where you lie
Now just cry

You will feel the pain that I always feel
You will see the things for me they are real
No more pride and no more faith you will seek
No more will to live as you are too weak
To suffer my pain

Broken, that´s what you are
Now dare to rise again to see
My laughing heart
That triumphs over your attempt
To bring me down
Victory finally will be mine
And you will bleed
Out of the wounds that I have
Now they are yours
Enjoying your cry
Now just die

You will feel the pain that I always feel
You will see the things for me they are real
No more pride and no more faith you will seek
No more will to live as you are too weak
To suffer my pain


9. AMONG THE FALLEN LEAVES

Oh how it hurts to hurry away
Just we told our hearts to play
Are both to lose, will always fail
Just like the heroes in all these tales

Your letters arrived once a month
All my hopes with them far gone
Will always live in your heart and pain
Please tell my son how proud he makes me

Why the hell did I leave you all?
Why do I have to be at this godforsaken place?
Every night I´m dreaming of these golden fields
Will never come back to kiss my beloved
This blooddrunk field will be my grave

Sirens, again they call
We fall into a lake of blood
Staring sad and cold at me
Souls and hearts are lost

Without grace we lose our lives
Under blackened falling skies
Rain´s the only one who cries
When a sunless morning
lies upon, the final dawn
Endless darkness all I see
Remember me, no one sees
unfinished letters among the fallen leaves

Staring at these dirty bloodstained lines
All these promising hopes, godforsaken lies
Staring at your very final words
Every single one, it hurts
So many plans for a joyful life
Everything so hollow
Soon we will follow
In front of me, a seductive shiny knife