1. SUBLIMATION

Time… Is the only constant in life,
Time… It keeps moving on.
Blind… To the horrors of my past,
Blind… To my surroundings.

Sublimation of my life is haunting me,
The necessity.
It builds me up, feel my rivets burning tight,
And it fuels my blood.

Through the years,
Wounded soul is feeling so cold,
Consumed by a shadow eclipsing the night.

Life… Is so quickly passing by,
Life… Is a broken dream.
Time… Ticking away like hands on a clock,
Time… Is the enemy.


2. THIS LOVELESS WORLD

A slave to reality,
A world unknown.
Sheltered existence is leaving me blind,
I feel so empty inside.

Impossible to impress you,
I fail to make myself known.
Seeing my wants and desires,
They are something you’d never let grow.

I see this loveless world unwind,
One that’s taken you from me.
With every breath you’ve left behind,
Telling the same old story.
This world has taken you from me.

Understanding is all I ask for,
A kind and open heart.
Drown in a sea of sorrow,
While leaving this empty world behind.


3. FALLING BEHIND

Allowing my mind to wander,
Fixation comes to you.
Familiar chapter of my life,
Revisited through and through.

The ink is dark and torrid here,
Riddled with your lies.
Regretfully turning the pages,
Unable to say goodbye.

The story unfolds to show,
Memories and thoughts I have of you.
In my misery I see,
The only artifact I have of you.

Falling behind, dismembering what was.
Never be again.
Falling behind, clouded thoughts disperse

Forging my way forward,
I’m often looking back.
Remembering things the way they were,
And undesirable fact.

The passions that I had before,
Are ancient history.
Put a brave face forward,
Submerged in apathy.

Well I understand that the things you needed, I could not Provide for you,
With all things fleeting, I’m self defeating, remembering Things I had with you.


4. BOTTLED SORROW

Agony retching up my spine,
Mental state so well confined.
Flowing thoughts which make no sense,
A showered blessing of ignorance.

Deceiving thoughts which flood my mind,
Distort my vision and lag behind.
Emotional wreckage as clear as day,
Drowning in the pool in which I lay.

Bottled sorrow fermented with time,
Losing all as I tow the line.
Echoing voices in my head,
Always asking why?

Mindless drone living a lie,
Dead to the world don’t ask why.
Capable of so much more,
Lost in myself my personal war.

Shrouded in fear no where to turn,
The things long gone are what I yearn.
Conjuring demons to quell my fears,
Drifting away unknown face looking back in the mirror.


5. WASTING AWAY

Spinning a web of lies and deceit,
Encompass all which lay beneath.
A maze of steel surrounding me,
Leave behind the man that I used to be.

So I start to digress from a state of pure bliss,
Realizing that the weight of the world is crashing on me.

Left all alone,
Wasting away.
Sea of regrets,
Engulf me.

Enter my mind and look around,
Remnants of a once fine crown.
I sold my soul for a chance to advance,
One step forward and numerous steps back.

So I start to digress from a state of pure bliss,
Realizing that the weight of the world is crashing on me.
And looking back, everything appears to be so succinct,
Now I understand that destiny was never made so clear.

Change this life that’s haunting me,
To what it’s supposed to be.
Cannot face my own reflection,
Struggle with reality.


6. SHADOWED

A harsh reality bound by chains,
Punished and cursed nothing but pain.
Oh God please wake me now,
This nightmare must have an end.

Drown in worries tonight,
When will I see the light?
Please help me find the key,
And I’ll be well upon my way.

Look up at the sky of the night,
Someone look upon me
Do I say my goodbyes?
Or will I conquer.
Love blinds the fault of her mind,
Does fate mean forever?
Paradise out of sight,
Release this torture.
Shadowed

I wonder where you are out there,
Is there a reason why I care?
Foolish game one can play,
That in the end both will lose.

Why should I worry tonight?
Were you even worth the fight?
Angel eyes that weaken me,
May be the devil in disguise.


7. DECEPTION

Caught in a web of lies,
Something to look forward to tonight.
Innocence in your eyes controls me.
It drowns my very soul,
It feels so very cold,
So why wont you let go?

Clouded vision of you,
In my mind you’re someone else.
Can’t explain what happened,
And deny you feel the same.

So many thoughts inside,
I fail to decipher what is concise.
This spell you’ve cast on me is waning.
Reality becoming clear,
Uncover my greatest fear,
Deceit is all I’ve known.

I will see you here tonight,
Wrap my arms around you,
Feel alright.
I will leave you here tonight,
Wrap my arms around you,
Watch you die.


8. SHADES OF GRAY

I never knew what would become,
Of a war that wasn’t won.
There are no evils in our lives,
Just another side.

Shrouded in darkness, what’s unknown.
Does a motive show?
And even so, do you care?

Can you see it?

Lost in your eyes,
Where doubt only shines,
I’ve been there before.
Fallen from grace,
The past you embrace,
Looking deep you will find.

Nothing is as simple as, a black and white diagram.
Emotions only blur the lines,
Enveloping shades of gray.

Quick to judge, and pass blame,
False assumptions made.
Uncovering ignorance.

Can you see it?


9. ANOTHER GRAND DESIGN

Breaking the chains, the shackles of my mind,
Distilling the past, including what seems right.
A favourable antidote, forgetting ugly truths,
Empowering the senses, with another grand design.

Shattered thoughts reside,
Conforming to, the feelings I confide.
Perseverance the remedy my soul prescribes,
Tell me whats inside.
Constructing your pain, omitting what is real,
The trial and human error, of the fortunes untold.
Elaborate stories, decadent and immense,
Convince yourself and the battle is half won.

Frustration is a common word, and often one misused,
The inability to control it, leaves the author to blame.
In conjuring such feelings, the liabilities grow,
In turn the soul is tainted, and it is weakened.

Shattered thoughts reside,
Conforming to, the feelings I confide,
Perseverance the remedy my soul prescribes,
Tell me whats inside.


10. DELUSIONS OF GRANDEUR

Let the sorrow consume your life,
Refusing the light from shining in.
Fabricating your self worth,
Depression is your medicine.

With these lies you build yourself,
A monument for all to see.
Lying deep beneath this filth,
Is the stench of misery.

You’re existence is spent balancing the weak,
Delusions of Grandeur, the lies that you keep.

Isolate your enemies,
An honest broker of their fate.
Create a sense of power,
Illusions not to be repressed.
Desperately shifting pieces,
Mindless pawns in a game of chess.
Mismanaging the weak,
Spiral as you fall