1. SEA OF GRAY

Scream...

Look in your eyes as you breath the last breath,
With jaded disgust I’ll leave you to die,
Never an ounce of care in my touch,
As you’re bleeding, screaming, pleading in your eyes

Taste of your skin still burns on my lips,
The only use for you that I ever had,
Don’t tell me you care or look in that way,
I feed on the pain I’ll cause to you in your eyes

You’ll never know the darkness inside,
Keep it at a distance this way,
This barrier is kept closer than life,
Hold it down inside to see in my eyes

Hide this hate, the hate that’s in my eyes


2. KNOW YOURSELF

One thought beneath a shield of fear,
All the strength that’s hidden underneath,
Stand up and swallow all the fear,
Last chance to let the voices scream,
Behind the mask you wear of shame,
Let the anger inside you rise,
Even if the thoughts could never be,
You have to know who you are.

The timing is over, breath it in and end suffering
The timing is over, you won’t be anymore
The timing is over, the timing is right now


One time to show it anymore, the timing that has come,
The time is slowly faltering, but you will know,
One time to take your life again, face the world and face the anger,
Even if the thoughts could never be...
You have to know who you are

You’ve got to know yourself.


3. 72ND HOUR

For 3 million words and over a thousand days, thinking back to everything lost and everything that was given away, so much compromised and disguised at the hands of what was thought to be true, empty and lost, beaten and broken is the faith that no longer exists, a cynic pulls on the strings beneath weighted hands and heavy sighs of times fading in memory to leave only reality, a façade on an otherwise vacant canvas painted with artificial smiles to hide the recluse feelings of emptiness, warm and half sweet, a taste all too well known and revisited on regular occasion, lifeless and vacant beneath self medication, better than remembrance of the times that no longer exist, bleak and meaningless- walk through the end of time.

Fucked this away to feel it

I have grown so calloused from this shit, the fucking jealousy pushes me further away...
From all the lies that you’ve said, to all the trust that’s been pissed away again, for all the days that words were never said... for all the feelings you have let diminish...

But you are so beautiful when you just bleed and cry,
Sadistic love fueled by lust
Fuck this clean - the only thing I still feel,
Hold you down and show you the pain is real.