1. JANUARY

I cannot be all day long
So clever, so clear-headed so broken down
I've had enough of the fudging
But tomorrow again I won't face anything

I'm waiting for the dawn
Holding my breath as if I was gone
Kissing your neck as if you were here
I've no one to love only the new day to fear

Is it a new phase for me
I have not cried since January
It might be the sign
To switch and embrace the final decline

I've had such an empty life
And it's a great weight off my mind
To reach physical pain
The divine gift offered to an old man

Childhood is gone
Love never found
Life almost done
And Death welcome


2. TENSE

No
I don't know why
I have to swear
To stay alive
I should think twice
And kill myself
And celebrate
And just sit down

No
I have no choice
I want to live
Slave to my wish
I should think twice
And kill myself
And fall asleep
Next to you

I need some love
I'm always tense
I hate myself
I'm always tense
I fuck this world
I'm always tense
I'm always bleeding
I'm always tense


3. THE BLACK FLAME

Destroy the real
Distort the truth
Save myself

I was a thief
Cut my own hand
I was a man

Too scared to take care of myself
Too scared to even suffer
Too old to become someone else
But too young to count the days

So I stay at home
In sadness and grace
My heart full of shame
Awaiting the tears
Awaiting the tears
Awaiting the black flame

Too scared to take care of myself
Too scared for self-compassion
Too old to become someone else
But too young to be a bitter dying man

Darkness came in
It swallowed my home
But the black flame went out
Was already burned out
Already burned out


4. BLEED ALONE

Life is invincible, invisible, unreachable
And I don`t know why I have to fight this
Too many times I`ve had the wish to really go beyond
But now I know nothing can ever be found

This is the common voice of pain and fear

Life is invincible, invisible, unbearable
And I don`t know why I have to fight this
Too many times I`ve had the wish to simply fall in love
To tear my heart is all I need

But I`ve learned the art of being alone all the time
To feed an empty mind
I have to take a way I hate but that was paved for me
I just can`t take reality

My blood will never boil again my love
And this is the last time you will hear my pain my love
I promise silence just to let you down
I will sleep all the time I will always be kind

I have learned the art of being alone everyday
To witness my decay
Yeah I found the way to bleed alone
Alone


5. SEEDS

Leaves are falling down on me
Falling from the trees
Trees are falling down on me
I`m falling down on the leaves
Seeds are buried with me
We are sheltered
We are waiting to bleed
We are sheltered

Trees are falling down on me
I`m falling down on the leaves
Seeds are buried with me
And waiting to bleed
All I need is shelter
Nature can`t teach a man
How to grow and stand

Courage has left my soul
Life remains unresolved
Wisdom is so cold
And when a fugitive spark
Reminds me what my life should be
I want to lie in the dark
Just want to lie in the dark

I know that you won`t find
The love you claim I hide

How could I hurt you in red
When you hurt yourself in black and blue?
How could I hurt you in red
When reality has such a grip on you?
How could I see through your eyes
When your eyes only see what I hate in myself?
The disgust of mankind the taste of red wine
And the harshness of not being buried with the seed of love


6. THE BROKEN WING OF UNDYING BIRD

Something must be wrong
A sad human being was outgrown
The pathetic face of the human might

Terrifying and sick
Unable to think and unable to speak
The arrogant blue of the empty sky

Now the time has come
My brothers and sisters to kill everyone
The beauty in black of our sophisticated guns

Unfounded and cold
Life itself should be destroyed
The broken wing of the undying bird

Hold on hold on hold on
I don`t know why but I hold on
Everything is meaningless
Hold on hold on hold on
I don`t know how but I hold on
Everything is vain but I hold on
Hold on hold on

Life is the broken wing of the undying bird


7. BEFORE A DREAM

I heard the voices of the four beasts
They look old
They came from an ancient gallery
And were riding on their black night horses

Waking up before I dream
Hate becomes clearer
The more I kill, the more I attempt
No side or lie reflects and rewinds

An ambulance goes on the bridge
While birds are on water
This is the equal vision of that point of view

I heard about your car crash tragedy
On the radio and newspapers?
But I`m gonna walk the roads to find deliverance
Peace of mind is a gift for absent friends

All these people came for your mess
Remembering the man you were
I wasn`t there on that day
No positive vibes within our family
I hate this town

Never said the right words when I could
Too young to tell you stories about what happened
I`ve been far away from grace for a long time
And I`ve missed you since that day or even before


8. SUNBURST

Living everyday in pain and lie
Is an experience for you to try
If your target is knowledge steal my mind
If your target is truth be ready to die

If you cannot see the beauty of life
It is that you`re strange and deserve to cry
It is that you`re lost and it is my pride
To give you no help and let you die


9. DIASPORA

Should I kill myself?
Should I rape you first?
How could I say that I love you?

Tell me that the face of the crowd
Means nothing to you

Everything is pain but you

It keeps me warm
And it slightly hurts
Why do you my dear
Avoid to come near ?

A simple finger touch
My life is sad enough

Come close and give me time
I could spend my whole damn life
In the same room with you
Everything is pain but you

I stare at your shoes
Broken and hypnotized

A simple finger touch
My life is sad enough

Come close and give me time
I could spend my whole damn life
In the same room with you
Everything is pain but you

Come close and give me time
I could spend my whole damn life
In the same room with you
Everything is pain but you
Everything is suffering but you
Everything is pain but you
And closed are you arms
And cold is your heart


10. EVERYTHING IS PAIN BUT YOU

It kepps me warm and it slightly hurts.
Why do you my dear avoid to come near?
A simple finger touch.
My life is sad enough.
Come close and give me time.
I could spend my whole damn life in the same room with you.
Everything is pain but you.
I stare at your shoses broken and hypnotized.
A simple finger touch.
My life is sad enough.
Come close and give me time.
I could spend my whole damn life in the same room with you.
Everything is pain but you. Come close and give me time.
I could spend my whole damn life in the same room with you.
Everything is pain but you.
Everything is pain but you.
Everything is pain but you.
Everything is pain but you.
Everything is pain but you.
And closed are your arms and cold is your heart


11. A MAN IN THE LIGHT

I had to be like the sun in the sky
But I was too drunk for this kind of light
People are living in paradise
And here on earth there`s no one by my side

I had to be like the moon in the night
But I was too sober for this kind of light
People will burn in hell tonight
I`ll stay alone in the garden of delights

I had to be a man in the light
But I`m in pain and don`t want to fight
People are living on earth but I`m tired
Of the beauty I see in their eyes
People are living on earth but I`m tired
Of the beauty I see in their minds