1. DISASSOCIATIO

Uneasiness seems to always set in
Staring in the mirror for far too long
How can I understand what I see, with these lines so quickly fading?

As the sound around me dies, the blood rushes up behind my eyes
And my head crawls with the sense of hot apprehension

Disassociation keeps me far away
Keeps me dreaming when I'm wide awake
What have I the capacity to do, in this state of muted feelings and silent aversions?

What can I do to put this to sleep?

In my dreams I'm plagued by epic destruction

Paralyzed by what may come to be
Every beat I miss could be the death of me
Is it life that I value or fear that I need?
Is it intuition or just insanity?

As the sound around me dies, the blood rushes up behind my eyes
And my head crawls with the sense of hot apprehension

Disassociation keeps me far away
Keeps me dreaming when I'm wide awake
What have I the capacity to do, in this state of muted feelings and silent aversions?
Staring back at a face I do not know, I cannot begin to call it my own

And I'm reminded of how many years it's been now
But you left your mark on me and it will be carried on

In my dreams I'm plagued by epic destruction

Disassociation
What have I the capacity to do?
What have I?


2. BLUE LINE

These eyes are frozen
Do you feel that you've been chosen?
Of course you do
I just may take you home and wrap you up in silk
And I'll calmly wait, while you asphyxiate

Marvel at the prize
Do you disregard its price?
Of course you do
So tell me of your past and I won't tell of mine
When your reflections withered face puts you in your place
You'll know why

You're so quick to consume
And now, you're one beat away from a blue line

Actions are fleeting
And consequences lingering
So go on with your life
But don't forget this night
And when they're drawing from your veins
You'll realize who's to blame

You're so quick to consume
And now, you're one beat away from a blue line

So quick to consume
And now
You're one beat away from a blue line

Whether acquired or gifted
This immunodeficient state is yours
Now cherish it
You're kicking and screaming
And clutching the last of your hate
Your calm awaits
Don't cry, it's all over now


3. ABIOSIS

I'll wade these stagnant waters for eternity
Watching for your eager hand to slow for me

And there's never any traffic riding these highways
The pavement burns due only to the sun's pale gaze

Will it always be this way for me?
Walking on such abiotic fringes
All of my patience hasn't paid for me
But sooner or later…

I roam through empty hallways and stale corridors
Rusted are the pipelines from which life once poured

And stairs leave off to ancient depths of still debris
Mist licks at their severed ends and blackness proceeds

Will it always be this way for me?
Walking on such abiotic fringes
All of my patience hasn't paid for me
But sooner or later…

Little differentiates the night from the day
The new sun becomes muted but continues to plague me

My eyes stay fixed on the unhealing wounded sky
It won't let me forget the grave reason why

Will it always be this way for me?
Walking on such abiotic fringes
All of my patience hasn't paid for me
But sooner or later…


4. ALL I NEED

Keeping these fears alive
It stifles and drains me
And suffering feels so right
Until these delusions subside

Wandering around, in this lazy dream
I don't mind
It's all I'll ever need

So I must contain this
To preserve what fulfills me
That which enraptures me fully
Without growing stale or cold

Wandering around, in this lazy dream
I don't mind
It's all I'll ever need

But now that I've found
And I've drowned the bane that was mine
I'll keep it underground


5. OURS

What do you do when you're told what you've already known?
All the while your time is waning
It's all there, so why not take your fill?
Remind yourself that it's okay
Soak it all up while you still can

These reveries prove they are far too complex to recall
They manifest what's left of yours and what's mine
How can I draw the line?

Remind yourself that nothing is for sure
You're forced now to answer the question you tried to ignore
Just keep an eye on what's yours

As we are waiting there are thoughts of evading
'Cause we both know you're not so patient
Just throw down your dim regards
You bleed because it's easier than just enduring what ties you now

Remind yourself that nothing is for sure
You're forced now to answer the question you tried to ignore
Just keep an eye on what's…

Remind yourself that nothing is for sure
Just keep an eye on what's yours


6. THE GAME

It feels so bad
Yet it will be over so fast
It will be the first time and the last time
That she could fake it… again

The water's getting colder
Almost as cold as she
She knows how much she'll be missed
But she won't be missing anything at all

The water's getting colder
Almost as cold as she
She knows how much she'll be missed
But she won't be missing anything at all

Do you recognize this face?
So familiar yet so strange
The realization takes its place
What a shame it came too late

Is this the point you were trying to make?
This grief will continue as long as it takes
To forget


7. WASTE

A soon to be wasted prize, is carried through a maze
Violently turning, its shape begins to fade
And when I let the water run, it will surely disintegrate

And I know that this is not the best time
How will I know when it is my time?
This suffering is not all mine

It's not like yesterday
It won't just wash away
This name isn't faceless and this race is not a game
But I'll move slowly
And it'll cost me when it's my turn to run

And I know that this is not the best time
How will I know when it is my time?
This suffering is not all mine

And I know that this is not the best time
How will I know when it is my time?
This suffering is not all mine

This suffering is not all mine


8. THOSE WHO BELLOW GRIEF AND TEARS

(Instrumental)


9. NARCOLEPSY

You came to me
You stayed with me
Suspended me
You brought me to complacency, then dropped me

Your absence paralyzes me
What became of productivity?
Bitterness is company
Keeps the train of tension, while I wait

Keeping myself tame
And feeling as though you're too tired to play
And it's harder than I thought it would be to contain

Vexed by remembrances of instances
All catalogued inside my head to be replayed again
When all's quiet, I'll contemplate them
'Til I haven't the energy
A comforting psychosis sends me back to sleep again

Keeping myself tame
And feeling as though you're too tired to play
Keeping myself tame
And feeling as though you're too tired to play
And it's harder than I thought it would be to contain