1. THE PHANTOM AGONY

I can't see you
I can't hear you
Do you still exist?

I can't feel you
I can't touch you
Do you exist?

The Phantom Agony

I can't taste you
I can't think of you
Do we exist at all?

The future doesn't pass
And the past won't overtake the present
All that remains is an obsolete illusion

[Chorus]
We are afraid of all the things that could not be
A phantom agony

Do we dream at night
Or do we share the same old fantasy?
I am a silhouette of the person wandering in my dreams

[Chorus]

Tears of unprecedented beauty
Reveal the truth of existence
We're all sadists

The age-old development of consciousness
Drives us away from the essence of life
We meditate too much
So that our instincts will fade away
They fade away

What's the point of life
And what's the meaning if we all die in the end?
Does it make sense to learn or do we forget everything?

[Chorus]

Tears of unprecedented beauty
Reveal the truth of existence
We're all pessimists

The age-old development of consciousness
Drives us away from the essence of life
We meditate too much
So that our instincts will fade away
They fade away

Teach me how to see and free the disbelief in me
What we get is what we see - The Phantom Agony

A te spiritus noster devoratur et nostra anima capitur

The lucidity of my mind has been revealed in new dreams
I am able to travel where my heart goes
In search of self-realisation

This is the way to escape from our agitation
And develop ourselves
Use your illusion and enter my dream


2. SENSORIUM

Chance doesn't exist
But the path of life is not totally so predestined
Time and chronology show us how all should be
In the ways of existence
To find out why we are here

Being conscious is a torment
The more we learn is the less we get

No one surveys the whole - Focus on things so small
But life's objective is to make it meaningful
Only searching for this
That which doesn't exist
Although our ability to relativize remains unclear

[Chorus]
Being conscious is a torment
The more we learn is the less we get
Every answer contains a new quest
A quest to non existence - A journey with no end

I'm not afraid to die
I'm afraid to be alive without being aware of it

I'm so afraid to - I couldn't stand to
Waste all my energy in things
That do not matter anymore

Our future has already been written by us alone
But we don't grasp the meaning
Of our programmed course of life
We only fear what comes
And smell death every day

Our future has already been wasted by us alone
And we just let it happen and do not worry at all

Our future has already been written by us alone
But we don't grasp the meaning
Of our programmed course of life
We only fear what comes
And smell death every day

Search for the answers that lie beyond

[Chorus]


3. CRY FOR THE MOON

[Chorus]
Follow your common sense
You cannot hide yourself
Behind a fairytale forever and ever
Only by revealing the whole truth can we disclose
The soul of this bulwark forever and ever

Forever and ever

Indoctrinated minds so very often
Contain sick thoughts
And commit most of the evil they preach against

Don't try to convince me with messages from God
You accuse us of sins committed by yourselves
It's easy to condemn without looking in the mirror
Behind the scenes
Behind the scenes opens reality

Eternal silence cries out for justice
Forgiveness is not for sale
Nor is the will to forget

[Chorus]

Virginity has been stolen at very young ages
And the extinguisher loses its immunity
Morbid abuse of power in the garden of Eden
Where the apple
Where the apple gets a youthful
A youthful face

Eternal silence cries out for justice
Forgiveness is not for sale
Nor is the will to forget

[Chorus]

Forever and ever

Eternal silence cries out for justice
Forgiveness is not for sale
Nor is the will to forget

You can't go on hiding yourself
Behind old fashioned fairytales
And keep washing your hands in innocence


4. UNLEASHED

Declining - All color fading
Defining - Time coming for me
Rescinding - My inspiration
Receding consciousness

Back in the day - I can recall that
My thoughts were unclouded and sage
There was no black staining the walls of my memories
Now there's a haze pushing me sideways
And leaving me nothing to gain
Taking me back - Locking me cold in disparity

Where was I meant to be?
I feel I'm lost in a dream
Long for the day I can be myself

[Chorus]
When I'm free
When my sun has set
Released my soul forever
I'll have no regret
To be free
I'll exist again
No more lost endeavors
Nothing to contend
When I'm free

Color declines - All that defines me
Is falling away - Far behind
Nothing to keep me with the time
The here and now

Where am I meant to be?
I feel I'm lost in a dream
Yearning again only to be myself

[Chorus]

Time is just a concept
And always the first thing to fade
Agony and weakness
Nothing we can never evade
Years are cruel - They break us
Bringing on decay and despair
Awareness and perception
Something we can never repair

Freedom for me is all I'm really wanting - Needing
Give me power to break out
I can't hold on for any longer
My time has come to end it all

No one to blame - Fate's only random
It's nothing we'll ever explain
So it remains

Where was I meant to be?
I feel I'm lost in a dream
Long for the day I can be myself

Free

When will I be unleashed?
It's not the way it should be
Yearning again only to be myself
Free

When my sun has set
Released my soul forever
I'll have no regret
To be free
I'll exist again
No more lost endeavors
Nothing to contend
When I'm free


5. BLANK INFINITY

Trying to keep myself afloat upon this stream
But a thought is pulling me down
Pulling me all the way down

We are wandering towards a blank infinity
And extinguishing will now be the only way
To diminish your sins
This vortex can't be filled up again
A hole in space and time

Do you cry to the heaven's high
When you're confined in here?
Do you not ever wonder why
These leaden tears will never dry?
They'll leave behind so many shadows in my mind

High in the sky - All of the clouds are passing by
Wait for the storm - Wait for the rain
Wait for the tears to fall down on me

We are wandering towards a blank infinity
And extinguishing will now be the only way
To diminish your sins
This vortex can't be filled up again
A hole in space and time

Do you cry to the heaven's high
When you're confined in here?
Do you not ever wonder why
These leaden tears will never dry?
They'll leave behind so many shadows
Living in me - Living in all the memories - In my life

Do you wonder why
These tears never dry?
Time forced into life
Living in my mind

Can we ever find a way in this labyrinth without end?
Labyrinth has no end
Which turn should I take?
Left or right?
Should I stay?
Should I be the one?

Do you cry to the heaven's high
When you're confined in here?
Do you not ever wonder why
These leaden tears will never dry?
They'll leave behind so many shadows
This substance in time forced into life
But still exists because it's here
Living in me - Living in all the memories - In my life

Lost inside blank infinity


6. NEVER ENOUGH

Can't you hear me screaming - Once again?
Voices you can't hear
Because you are consumed and incontent
With everlasting greed
Don't you see me on my hands and knees?
Begging and bleeding
You're smiling as you bite the hand that feeds
But will you never see?

Always wanting what your eyes can't see
Needing what your arms can't reach
Thinking you are in need
Always hearing what your ears can't hear
Feeling what your hands can't touch
Thinking you're incomplete

[Chorus]
Enough
It was never enough that I gave to you
All of the horror that you've put me through
Never enough
How can I make up my mind this time?
This is where I will draw the line

Sacrificed my life to be with you
Why did you leave me?
There's nothing more from me you can consume
'Cause you are incomplete

Always wanting what your eyes can't see
Needing what your arms can't reach
Thinking you are in need
Always hearing what your ears can't hear
Feeling what your hands can't touch
Thinking you're incomplete

[Chorus]

Everlasting need
Would you please
Answer me and
Make me complete?
Everlasting greed
Would you please
Set me free
Fulfill all my needs
And make me complete?

[Chorus]

Never again will I be with you
No promise eternal carrying us through
I finally made up my mind this time
This is the end - I've drawn the line
Never enough to devour your greed


7. SOLITARY GROUND

Living at different places
Evading into various spaces
My compass has broken - I'm losing the way
An ongoing madness has led me astray
My past breathes down my neck
And it seems now that all I can do is
Go back to beginnings when all lay ahead
A fading illusion now plagues me instead

[Chorus]
In me there's still a place that fulfils me
A sanctity here that I call home
I run to when winter descends
If I try - Can I find solid ground?

I follow elusive paths
Oh It seems they've been written in stone
And the door to a new life is closing so fast
Burning the bridges will not bring me back

[Chorus] (x2)

I know that in me there's still a place that fulfils me
A sanctity here that I call home
I run to when winter descends
If I try - Can I find solid ground?
Or am I just wasting time?


8. MARTYR OF THE FREE WORD

Speaking in degradation
A conversation can take a sudden turn
And reaching the point of violence
Because your silence left you without a hand to hold
Your past will lead you on to
Making a final judgment
Based on your bias will never bring you forward
Terror should never guide you
For even the fearful can take a beating in the end
Suspicion gets you nowhere

[Chorus]
Those who denounce a way of life
Will stand alone - Left to atone their social blunders
If you gun down the messenger
You guarantee that he will be made
Into a saint
The martyr of the free word

I will say - I will say - What I think - What I think
I will do - I will do - What I say - What I say
When liberty seems out of reach
We'll fight for our freedom of speech

Requiem aeternam - Dona eis Domine
Et lux perpetua - Luceat eis

Missing a simple context
A mental weakness can throw you out of balance
Listen - Respect each other
Then you'll discover - It mustn't always end in hate
It's not too late for mercy

[Chorus]

I will say - I will say - What I think - What I think
I will do - I will do - What I say - What I say
When tolerance seems out of sight
We will fight
When liberty seems out of reach
We'll fight for our freedom of speech


9. FEINT

The very brightest candle of all has been extinguished
Smothered by those who could not bear to face reality

[Chorus]
Every beat of your heart tore the lies all apart
Made foundations quiver
Every wave in the lake caused the porcelain to break
And I shiver

The leftover tallow just doesn't contain
All the right answers
Under a sea of dust lies a vast wealth of wisdom

As untouched snow turns red
Innocence dies

[Chorus]

This black page in history is not colourfast
Will stain the next
All what remains is just a feint of what was meant to be
This black page in history is not colourfast
Will stain the next
And nothing seems in life
In dreams like what was meant to be

[Chorus]

I shiver


10. THE FALLACY

I can't stand the way you've forsaken me
I see through the wicked games you've played with me
Do you feel the suspicion stirring up?
Can't you see that they long to give you up?

[Chorus]
Can't you come lie with me?
Forget about your fallacy
Seduce me with your fantasies
Of passion and obscurity

I see that you can't get away with this
You can't wave aside your lies with one more kiss
Do you feel the suspicion stirring up?
Can't you see that they long to give you up?

[Chorus]

I foresee that you'll be with me
You have seen that I took you back to me
Play with me as I do
I do with you

I can't stand the way you have forsaken me
I see through the reason of this fallacy

[Chorus]

Why can't you come lie with me?
Forget about your fallacy
Seduce me in your wildest dreams
Of passion and conspiracy


11. QUIETUS

The culprit - You act before thinking
Caught in your ignorant sin
And lying to your own reflection
You thought you could hide
Deprived of my own innocence - Denied

The infinity of recurring torment
Your comeuppance

See - Hear the torture inside
Devouring what was left of my pride
You thought it's not going to happen to you
Thought you could hide
Deprived of my own innocence - Denied

[Chorus]
The infinity of recurring torment
Your comeuppance
Dwelling in a mind - Mixed up and
Your regret has spread over the sea

Deprived of my own innocence - Denied

[Chorus]


12. TIDES OF TIME

You were always there to hold my hand
When times were hard to understand
But now the tides of time have turned
They keep changing
Seasons range but you remain the same
A steady heart - A sun to rain
You'll be the light that's shining bright
High above me
Autumn gold - Losing hold
We are leaves meant to fall
There's a meaning to all that fades

Freezing winds were stayed by warming words
To touch your healing to the hurt
I'll treasure every lesson learned to the embers
Fire fails - Blushes pale
We will answer the call
There's a meaning to all our

Seeds of eulogy to sow along with dreams
Fill the needs that can leave us grieving alone

Frail is our beauty in the end
But all we count is sentiment
A memory stays to guide the way and whisper
Don't lose sight - Don't deny
We are leaves meant to fall
There's a meaning to all our

Seeds of eulogy to sow along with dreams
Fills the needs that can leave us grieving alone
A symphony resounding in our minds
Guides us through what we knew would come all along

Sometimes I feel I don't have the words
Sometimes I feel I'm not being heard
And then I fear I'm feeling nothing more
Sometimes I feel I don't want this change
I think we all have to rearrange
And now I feel there's no one losing more

Seeds of eulogy to sow along with dreams
Fill the needs that can leave us grieving alone
A symphony resounding in our minds
Guides us though - As you hear me
As you do - As you need me
Making true
What we knew would come all along


13. LIVING A LIE (SIMONE VERSE VERSION)

Waste your life - It's only
One more day - The lie they told me
I will find a way that will heal
All this fear I feel
Get away and pray for
The Great Miracle you paid for
Where the healing hands will lay all
Desperately leading where

[Chorus]
Hope is a desert running dry
Deep inside
You refuse to face the facts
But pray for life
Find salvation in distress
We will wait
For the day you'll break out and re-awake

Lies

Leave me be - I need this
I will make you see the sweetness
In the living lies that can make
You forget them - Our hope

[Chorus]

Lies

Domine lesu, demitte nobis debita nostra
salva nos ab igne inferiori
perduc in caelum omnes animas
praesertim eas, quae misericordiae tuae
maxime indigent
In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sancti
Amen

Living a lie
Human power will devour our senses
Bring us to forget
Human sources will not save him now
The power of faith heals us all

[Chorus]

And we wait for the day
To discover there's no way
I can't wait at this rate
It's too little and too late to live this lie
Living a lie


14. CHASING THE DRAGON (EDITED VERSION)

Free my mind
Heal my scars
Erase the past
Dark days to forget
And memories to last
In my heart
Free me now

Make me forget
And forgive
There's no use
To go on and live
Show me a way
To the sun
Heal my scars

[Chorus]
Nothing will be forever gone
Memories will stay and find their way
What goes around will come around
Don't deny your fears
So let them go and fade into light
Give up the fight here

Let my eyes take in
The beauty that's here
That's left on this earth
My ears long to hear
A melody
Give me sight

[Chorus]

Poison is slowly seeping through my veins
Stealing the only dignity in me

Nothing will be forever gone
Memories will stay and find their way
What goes around will come around
Don't deny your fears
So let them go and fade into light
Give up the fight


15. THIS IS THE TIME

This is the time
We've waited too long
And I'm wondering where I belong?
We have lost - We're out of control
When we fail - Nature speaks to us all

This is the time
I'll tell you why the world's left alone
Now's the time to make right what's wrong
We have lost - We're out of control
If we stray - Can we hear nature's call?
When we fail - Nature speaks to us all

This is the time
So what's the world to be?
Just a luxury?
A temporary scene?
But what have we got when it's gone away?
And we need to come to see
What the earth should be
A sanctuary free
A renewed paradise is still alive

This is the time - The sky and the sea
We speak the paragons - We planted the seed
We have lost - We're out of control
If we stray - Can we hear nature's call?
When we fail - Nature speaks to us all

(x2)
This is the time
So what's the world to be?
Just a luxury?
A temporary scene?
But what have we got when it's gone away?
And we need to come to see what the earth should be
A sanctuary free
All that we've sacrificed in the end has its price
A renewed paradise's still alive in our eyes

It's still alive in our eyes