1. THE GLOW

Move to the other side and let people in
Final crossing before the lanterns go out
Sensible eyes use more time to adapt
Darkness is sweet and caresses my eyes

Morning is fresh with the frozen dew
The waves hit the shore in a quiet ballet
The colors spring through the grayish mist
We’re closing in on the harbor
We’re closing in on the harbor

You say something
I say I don’t know
You say it’s nothing
I say I wouldn’t know

You say something
I say I don’t know
You say it’s nothing
I say I wouldn’t know

The ship won’t sink for another week
I relax cause I know it’s a minor leak
My hell broke loose a long time ago
I’ve learned to live with it, I embrace the glow

So here we are
How obvious
You stare at me
I stare at nothing

You say something
I say I don’t know
You say it’s nothing
I say I wouldn’t know

You say something
I say I don’t know
You say it’s nothing
I say I wouldn’t know

You say something
I say I don’t know
You say it’s nothing
I say I wouldn’t know

You say something
I say I don’t know
You say it’s nothing
I say I wouldn’t know


2. HEAT HEAT

From the start I saw the ending
The hill was steep an slippery
I was so cold, I started trembling
A single soul in slavery

Sweet, sweet underground
Heat, heat all around

A lot of whys and no answers
Taking a turn in the crossroads
Grabbing hold to sanity
Tangled up disaster

Leave me in darkness
I’m running away from you
Flee my fortress
I’m running away from you

Leave me in darkness
I’m running away from you
Flee my fortress
I’m running away from you

Sharp teeth in a wicked grin
Hypnotized, I’m turning in
Seems being mean is the way for me
I’m reaching out to touch the skin

Sweet, sweet underground
Heat, heat all around

Sweet, sweet underground
Heat, heat all around

Leave me in darkness
I’m running away from you
Flee my fortress
I’m running away from you

Leave me in darkness
I’m running away from you
Flee my fortress
I’m running away from you

Leave me in darkness
I’m running away from you
Flee my fortress
I’m running away from you


3. INDIVIDUALS

He’s searching things he cannot reach
His girl sits on their sofa waiting
The children dream of peace
The neighbors say: a perfect family

And how could I really know?

The man don’t know what he wants
The girl has known since they met
Their children want to play
Their neighbors want to be like them

And how could I really know?

Individuals and opposites
Torture or just believes

Ride in confidence
Hide your negligence
Seize the silence
Crop your ignorance

Uncomfortable environment
Her legs curled up with a book
Barbie and cars on the floor
Cutting the hedge to make it square

In a bar shooting scotch
By the bed with fairy tales
Quiet, listening carefully
Did they even notice the garden

I didn’t even know

Individuals and opposites
Torture or just believes

Individuals and opposites
Torture or just believes

Ride in confidence
Hide your negligence
Seize the silence
Crop your ignorance

Ride in confidence
Hide your negligence
Seize the silence
Crop your ignorance


4. THE MANUAL

I’ve got it all, but confidence
I want it all inside the fence
I wear a tie like a suicide rope
Strangles every hope

Learning my lies by heart, I suppose
Offering death a rose
Killing the flies in front of my eyes
Escaping the real life

My marrow’s made of tar
I’m wondering who we are
Guide me through the manual
I’m watching my own burial

I’m cutting a lawn, don’t think it’s my own
I’m caring for the unknown
I’m scrubbing myself in boiling hot
I’m feeling clean, but I’m not

I want to cry, but my tears have run me dry
Forcing a smile, how I try
Lead in my shoes strengthen the blues
Certain that I’m no use

My marrow’s made of tar
I’m wondering who we are
Guide me through the manual
I’m watching my own burial

Watch me when I step on
Health, heart, head and home
Watch your cornerstone it’s
Health, heart, head and home

My marrow’s made of tar
I’m wondering who we are
Guide me through the manual
I’m watching my own burial

Learning my lies by heart, I suppose
Offering death a rose
Killing the flies in front of my eyes
Escaping the real life

My marrow’s made of tar
I’m wondering who we are
Guide me through the manual
I’m watching my own burial

Guide me through the manual
I’m watching my own burial


5. I AM DOUBT

In our town there are no lights
But there are bulbs all around
In our town there are no streets
But there are markers on the ground

In this house there is a cellar,
But I don’t have proof
In this house I tell lies
That you can’t tell from truth

What should I do?
Where did I go?
Who can I trust?
Leave me to rust

I am the doubt you’ve got
Whispering in your ears
I am the doubt you chose
Pounding on your self-esteem

I am the doubt you’ve got
Whispering in your ears
I am the doubt you chose
Pounding on your self-esteem

In my mind I am stunning
But people keep on running
In my mind there’s nothing wrong
With my loud humming

In discretion there’s boundary
That I can’t figure out
In obsession, there’s an art
And I’m it, I am doubt

What should I do?
Where did I go?
Who can I trust?
Leave me to rust

I am the doubt you’ve got
Whispering in your ears
I am the doubt you chose
Pounding on your self-esteem

I am the doubt you’ve got
Whispering in your ears
I am the doubt you chose
Pounding on your self-esteem

I am the doubt you’ve got
Whispering in your ears
I am the doubt you chose
Pounding on your self-esteem

I am the doubt you’ve got
I am the doubt you’ve got
I am the doubt you’ve got
I am the doubt you’ve got


6. AM I WRONG?

Wait a minute there’s something that’s not right
I can see a glitch in the plan
An activity that ruins the picture
Or a color that doesn’t match

Is it the way you move
Maybe the way you talk
The accent on your tongue
Or an aura that sends shivers down my spine

Is this too huge for me?
Am I up to it?
Do I stand a chance?
Am I too cold to offer a dance?

Ain’t this what you came for, am I wrong?
Ain’t this what you came for, am I wrong?
Ain’t this what you came for, am I wrong?
Ain’t this what you came for, am I wrong?

Think I’ll just call it a day
Put my feet on the couch and sleep in
Stop thinking about it
Forget what I had in mind

Put the tail between my hands
Walk away and bow my head in shame
Stay in bed and call me sick
That’ll do it for me

Is this too huge for me?
Am I up to it?
Do I stand a chance?
Am I too cold to offer a dance?

Ain’t this what you came for, am I wrong?
Ain’t this what you came for, am I wrong?
Ain’t this what you came for, am I wrong?
Ain’t this what you came for, am I wrong?

Ain’t this what you came for, am I wrong?
Ain’t this what you came for, am I wrong?
Ain’t this what you came for, am I wrong?
Ain’t this what you came for, am I wrong?


7. 13.000

A thousand yards wrapped around my wrist
One scar healing in the mist
I see the cranes on the dock
I hear the trains fighting the clock

It was almost over when they arrived
I couldn’t resist or put the knife aside
I see the planes in the air
I hear a man running the stairs

Twenty peaceful days
In a bed of grace
Thirteen thousand days
On my face

I got numb and fell asleep
Job was done, the cut was deep
I see the birds going south
I hear the sirens moving about

I’m still here and I’m fine
Wonder what will happen down the line
I see the sky and the clouds run by
I hear the thunder, there’s a butterfly

Twenty peaceful days
In a bed of grace
Thirteen thousand days
On my face

Twenty peaceful days
In a bed of grace
Thirteen thousand days

Twenty peaceful days
In a bed of grace
Thirteen thousand days
On my face


8. FIELDS

This is my box, don’t even come close
This is my knob, my beautiful rose
Why am I tied up? I can’t come loose
Where is my freedom, what’s the accuse

Barbed wire reflecting the sun
Stings my eyes and tells me I’ll come undone
The wall is too high for me, so I can’t run
But I can smell the grass from where it began

And then I march to the fields where
I fall asleep
And then I march to the fields where
I fall asleep

I’m the moving objects in Newton’s first law
Once in motion, I won’t stop, just go
I watch people get ill and think that it’s me
I freeze and believe I’m hypothermic

And then I march to the fields where
I fall asleep
And then I march to the fields where
I fall asleep

And then I march to the fields where
I fall asleep
And then I march to the fields where
I fall asleep

And then I march to the fields where
I fall asleep
And then I march to the fields where
I fall asleep


9. GRINDING THE DIAMOND

I turn and my heart starts to burn
I save and get what I deserve
My body takes a turn
The lamb of the past is gone

Deep dive down to help
A hero just for one day
A prize is over the surface
Now I’ll serve the purpose

I’ve got a trampoline and I want to be seen
I’ve got a trampoline and I want to be seen

This is where it gets nasty
The smell is good and tasty
I’m rich as a king
I can get everything

Grinding the diamond,
I suppose, in perfection
Finding peace and devotion
It’s not evil, it’s Kurt…ism

Believe in me, my son
Let’s stare at the sun
We’re invincible in a way
I quit my job, so let’s play

I’ll take what you can’t swallow
I’m about to fill the hollow
You’re all staring behind my back
I will pound you ‘til you crack

Grinding the diamond,
I suppose, in perfection
Finding peace and devotion
It’s not evil, it’s Kurt…ism

Understand me now everybody
I’m the same, only moody
So hard to choose between the two
The demon in me or to stay true

Grinding the diamond,
I suppose, in perfection
Finding peace and devotion
It’s not evil

Grinding the diamond,
I suppose, in perfection
Finding peace and devotion
It’s not evil, it’s Kurt…ism

I turn and my heart starts to burn
I save and get what I deserve
My body takes a turn
The lamb of the past is gone

Deep dive down to help
A hero just for one day
A prize is over the surface
Now I’ll serve the purpose


10. ONE WEEK

I had one week on morphine
I had two weeks to recover
I wasn’t bleeding, but hurt
You should’ve seen inside of me

As being bottled
And put a cap on
This substance was golden
You shouldn’t feel a thing

Join the leaf, let go, leap the tree

I’ll help myself and live to tell
I’ll take my chances
I’ll help myself and live to tell
I’ll take my chances

Pain was just as present
My head gone in a daze
I crawled up in bed
Not erect for a second

No bones broken
Go recover yourself
Here’s a prescription
A little help on the way

Join the leaf, let go, leap the tree

I’ll help myself and live to tell
I’ll take my chances
I’ll help myself and live to tell
I’ll take my chances

I’ll help myself and live to tell
I’ll take my chances
I’ll help myself and live to tell
I’ll take my chances

I’ll help myself and live to tell
I’ll take my chances
I’ll help myself from this hell
I’ll take my chances