1. AFTER I'M GONE

To be so vulnerable and to say you can’t
To be weak and fragile is no advance
To fight that sinking self esteem
And that voice from within

To the hand on the shoulder you’re heavy and cold
You only make things go oh so slow
The perfect reminder of what is to come
Tells don’t when you want to go

After I’m gone - It’s all the same!
It will go on - It stays the same!
After I’m gone - It’s all the same!
It will go on

Release me darling you’re a cell
I’m in it and I don’t feel well
Everything happens for a reason they say
So there’s no reason to delay
Nothing happens when you die
Everything goes on without you after a while

After I’m gone - It’s all the same!
It will go on - It stays the same!
After I’m gone - It’s all the same!
It will go on

Maybe this is punishment
Stay the same or repent
Heal them all or heal yourself
Leave them all or leave yourself

Maybe this is punishment
Stay the same or repent
Heal them all or heal yourself
Leave them all or leave yourself

Maybe this is punishment
Stay the same or repent
Heal them all or heal yourself
Leave them all or leave yourself

Maybe this is punishment
Stay the same or repent
Heal them all or heal yourself
Leave them all or leave yourself

I’ll find a way
I’ll find a way
I’ll find a way
I’ll find a waaaay

After I’m gone - It’s all the same!
It will go on - It stays the same!
After I’m gone - It’s all the same!
It will go on


2. HATRED

I’m wired up with a thousand volts
I’m burning up or so I’m told
Leaving lightning far behind
This is growing it’s my time

You see a flash coming closer to you
It’s just the fire I’m throwing at you
Open your arms and catch what you can
Cause it will pass you fast and be gone

Hatred, love and diagrams
Follow the rules and obey

Hatred, love and diagrams
Follow the rules and obey

I know hate is aiming at you
It won’t pass it will explode very soon
Be my darling through the war
And we will dive until we reach the core

You see a flash coming closer to you
It’s just the fire I’m throwing at you
Open your arms and catch what you can
Cause it will pass you fast and be gone

Hatred, love and diagrams
Follow the rules and obey

Hatred, love and diagrams
Follow the rules and obey

Hatred, love and diagrams

Hatred, love and


3. AUTOPSY

I walk in the woods
High and misunderstood
My feet is killing me but the pain just makes it good

This time I won’t sit down
I walk around not drown
I’d rather bleed on my heel
Than disappear in the ground

Drenched in jealousy
Constant autopsy
It’s gone what we achieved

I’ll rather run and stay awake
Than fall asleep and maybe break
I’ll take a message if you got one
But even I know it ́s too late

I’ll rather run and stay awake
Than fall asleep and maybe break
I’ll take a message if you got one

The fortuneteller was right
I should get out - get some light
But there’s a shadow here that makes daytime seem like night

Once you were close to me
We had our own policy
Went from love and care to disgust so suddenly

Drenched in jealousy
Constant autopsy
It’s gone what we achieved

I’ll rather run and stay awake
Than fall asleep and maybe break
I’ll take a message if you got one
But even I know it ́s too late

I’ll rather run and stay awake
Than fall asleep and maybe break
I’ll take a message if you got one

I’m feeding memories into a grinder machine
I bet the fucker will carve out things I cannot believe

I’ll rather run and stay awake
Than fall asleep and maybe break
I’ll take a message if you got one
But even I know it ́s too late

I’ll rather run and stay awake
Than fall asleep and maybe break
I’ll take a message if you got one
But even I know it ́s too late


4. EQUIVALENCE

Egocentric lifestyle and a bohemian
Surfing my wave - all the way to oblivion
There ́s a smile, but what ́s behind?
There ́s a sorrow, so what ́s behind?

An aura and not a safe place
What you provide is instability
A direct line to a dangerous fall
What I provide is equivalence

I’m right here and you’re stabbing me
I’m right here and you are stabbing me

There’s everything we need and more
There’s a bastard and a lord
A mist around the rainbow
All the colors are refugees

I’m right here and you’re stabbing me


5. GO FORWARD

Every beam stings my eyes like it ́s necessary
The sensation of things moving slower
Aggression descents and reflection makes sense
You don't know what you missed and it pleases me to know your ignorance

So go forward - come back
Move sideways - get back
Go backwards - come back
Step sideways - get back

Collect the feeling of being needed – it’ll soon be over
The vacuum between needed and in need
Twisting loose feathers from the back
No one is taking off tonight
It's cleansing by the book and a life I overlook

So go forward - come back
Move sideways - get back
Go backwards - come back
Step sideways - get back

Suddenly I ́ll snap and violence overcomes me
Peace and love is so hard to live up to
I see you lick the windows to get a taste
I know you want it but you can ́t you afford it


6. CONFESSIONS

Hey it`s me again
I’ve done bad things since last time
Don ́t ask me why
Just hear me out

It just kinda happened
Was not even my fault
Well, I may have had an impact
This situation is bad

It all started as a joke
And things got serious and went wrong

Now what ́s left are pieces that I must put together
What I need is a corner where I feel safe and sound

But I ́m about to lose it
I can ́t see the end

Can you fix it?
Just mend it somehow
Glue it together
Or nail me to a wall

I may need some guidance
And a path to walk
An eternal puzzle
And a place to talk


7. SIXTY TO ZERO

Are you still watching me?
And will you stare endlessly?
I might be a spot to rest your eyes on
But I am still invisible

I will be your disgrace

I can ́t live up to your level just can ́t
So I tear down expectations

You had high hopes for me
I was high on dope mostly
You were on the streets to search
I was on the streets for merch

Oh, don’t just sit there watching me
I‘ve got my own problems don ́t you see?

No need to go on
When I hate my own reflection
I know you loved me
I loved you back - occasionally


8. SKELETON

It all came in a line
No stretch but firm
It all came in time
Not one second late

I had seen the sign
And eaten my words
I had my peace

I’m sorry
I am in shame
I’m sorry
This is my way

I waited for a cue
It never came
I pushed it through
Myself to blame

It's not doing time
This is no cell
Still I see bars

Skeleton


9. SHE SAID

Sitting on a cloud somewhere hitting hard swearing large
I ́m never gonna leave this place cause no one knows I ́m here
I can be anywhere I like -in your arms or somewhere else
I don ́t miss you if that’s what you think
I only need to be by myself and figure out a way

All the flowers are gone - she said
I ́m with no one
Sitting by myself

If it‘s gonna rain I will dive and become a drop
Sailing with the wind until I hit the ground
I will follow the stream through the rusty pipes
It will take a while but in the end I‘ll reach the ocean


10. DISCONNECT

I’m always rushing home
Every time I lose my tongue
Standing in a crowd
Very quiet, my hands go moist

Keep the curtains closed
Gaining some distance
You connect I disconnect

I’m closing the door
I’m scratching the floor
I am home but I don’t feel safe anymore

A padded cell
A soft hell
I am home but I don ́t feel safe anymore

Need to go out again
What ́s around the bend?
Must pull myself together
Must face the fear and tell I’m here

Ropes are holding me back
In the closet- look through the crack
No one is knocking at the door
I’ve got ice in the core