1. MY PAIN IS YOUR PLEASURE

I Should not trust you
You should me why
It seems to amuse you
By that smile on your face
I know by now that you ain’t the one
The one to trust and who never betrays

My pain is your pleasure
Raised through hate to another

In search for human sense
I see them all
Betrayed by other
They do the same
Like a disease
To which there’s no cure now
No one to trust
There’s only yourself

I asked you why
You couldn’t tell
There’s a reason in your past
That can tell
You betrayed me
I turned away now you see you’re betrayed
By yourself


2. BLOW MY MIND

I’m angry,
I’m drinking
It doesn’t matter
What no other say
When life seems way to tough
I cork up the bottle
And just can’t get enough

I don’t misuse alcohol
I abuse alcohol
When the pain doesn’t end
It seems like my only friend

I’m angry,
I’m drinking
When it feels like I’m locked in a cage
Doesn’t help but for the moment it seems
That alcohol is the way to unlock me
From my rage

It doesn’t solve anything
But it helps me to think
Maybe I don’t want to think
Anyway give me a drink

Yeah I’ve got to blow my mind
Give me a drink of any kind
Yeah I’ve got to blow my mind
Too many sorrows just can’t leave behind

I’m angry,
I’m drinking
Sometimes life gets so fucking hard
Doesn’t matter what no others say
I relieve the pain in a very wet way

Yeah I’ve got to blow my mind
Give me a drink of any kind
Yeah I’ve got to blow my mind
Too many sorrows just can’t leave behind
Yeah I’ve got to blow my mind
So fucking angry and it just won’t go away
Yeah I’ve got to blow my mind
I’ll take care of reality another day


3. THE DEAD IS THE WINTER

As I die can't you see I’m laughing in your face
As I die can’t you see that I‘m the one who won
Now I’m free so far away from you
My final prize is the pain that you soon will feel

Now hear my laugh cut through the air
Straight through your bones leave scars till death
Now feel the pain that I used to feel

Love will kill everybody knows I’m right
To forget is to survive another day
Until you see that it always the same
The pain is there where your heart is always been

Sometimes it feels that I’m learning to lose
To be a broken man forever
Until you see you can’t do more than laugh right at it
And to be sure that you soon will feel the same


4. THE BEAST WITHIN

They say the beast is down below
I think he’s near he’s right up here

Down below or
Right up here

You draw the straw
Than walk the path

See the madness
Open your eyes
Amputation of our beliefs
I was raised to believe in the better
Now I see all this dreams can’t be real

I can’t deny some certain things
Do clear the weather but just for a while

The foolish dream lives on and on
Until we see the beast within


5. CUL-DE-SAC

Feel the pain
As your time passes by
Your life
Seems soon to end
As you spill your life away

Break the chains
Free yourself
Break away
From the narrow-minded way

No regrets
Your choice has been made
As you turned away
Away from yourself

You narrow-minded breed
You cannot win


6. SHADE

I saw a rainbow in the dark
That almost made me blind
Lovely colours from above
All messing with my mind
A taste so sweet
I felt so good
All I could do was sigh
Frigid fucking bitch from hell
Who wanted me to die

Take a piece of me
I promise not to leave you alone
Take a piece of me
Tomorrow I might be gone

I felt so sad
She drove me mad
But I wanted to go back
I never met a girl like her
Now the rainbow was all black
Bitterness has filled my soul
All she could do was lie
Horny fucking bitch from hell
Who wanted me to die

Take a piece of me
I promise not to leave you alone
Take a piece of me
Tomorrow I might be gone

These things can really hurt
When you’re in the middle of it all
Soon or late you realize
It’s no else's goddamn fault
For being so damn naive
But get stronger when you see
That love and hate go hand in hand
And with time you learn your lesson
That with hate follows goodbye
And you realize you shouldn’t
Trust or believe
Few are worth to trust or believe


7. FOREVER GOODBYE

I woke up an early morning
My head was full of why
I knew that this is it
It was a nice day to die
I looked out through my window
Pain was all I could see
I knew nothing could stop me now
For me tomorrow would never be

As I stood in front of the mirror
My decision was made
I realized this world wasn’t meant for me
I knew the time was coming closer
So I loaded my gun
I shot myself in the head
Now I’m dead
I’m glad it’s Done

I never thought I would ever
Gonna end up this way
I never thought I’d forbid
Myself another day
I never thought I’d would ever
Make myself die
Now anyway it is
Forever goodbye


8. LOST TO ETERNITY

The day I didn’t see your eyes
Like a stranger
I wasn’t there

Felt like the unwanted child
Surrounded by hate
You used to be here
But now you’re there
No good or bad
Justifies your departure
All that’s left is regret
For the unspoken words

Your words I tried to grasp
But they meant nothing
You pushed away
I wanted to touch you
But didn’t dare
Now I have lost you
Can only touch you in my dreams

Lost to eternity
Got no one at all to blame
Lost to eternity
As I fall into deadness


9. MY OWN GOD

I can’t stand it
You know hate it
When they point their fingers at me
And say “I know what the best for you. Copy me. I know the way”

I’ll be here when you die

It’s seems so hopeless
But it needs to be said
I’m my own god
Until the day I’m dead
But they don’t seem to understand
Can’t get it into their heads

I’ll be here when you die

They’re so blind
Yet I hope they see
I do it this way
To keep on being me
Upstream is the way I go
The only way to be free


10. RAZORBLADES

Afraid of what will come
We always choose the easy way
Trying not to offer others
We just fit in and do as they say
We’re so afraid to differ from the masses
We try to belong
One day we’ll realize that we are copies
But then youth will be gone

Your way is the way
Do as you please
Razorblades might cut deep
If you let regret into your mind

Now is when we choose to live
The future is only a fantasy
Today is real
Who knows about tomorrow
As far as I know it might never be
So do as you feel now
No matter what all other say
One day it will be too late
And razorblades will seem the only way

Your way is the way
Do as you please
Razorblades might cut deep
If you let regret into your mind

I’ll be here when you die


11. LIQUID SERENITY

Share the black of a fallen dream
Share the calm of a quiet stream

My spirit is free
No more fight for a wish to be
My spirit is free
As I rest myself from greed

For the hope of a better life
We keep pushing our limits to high
But it seems so wasted and dumb
‘Cause we know forever is a lie

For the fame and so salled glory
We struggle on but we know it’s not gonna last
So I raise the glass to my lips
‘Cause I know it’s time to rest
No further competition
Just me wasting myself

So let it be and break the surface
Don’t let them tell how live and how to be
I’ve had enough set me free
Leave me be
All my dreams to fulfill myself
I now do ignore