DISC 1

1. INTRO / LOWDOWN

You leave me hanging high
Lost my sense to confide
Blanks, confused and empty
Yet overcome with a relieving sigh
Silence, deafening silence
Wicked world running through your head
Tired of second guessing
What I did or what it was I said
Ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh!


2. 13 YEARS OF GRIEF

You're so fuckin' tough, so motherfuckin' bad
13 years of grief is all your folks ever had
Just an ignorant cunt, talkin' such shit
Tryin to act like a man, you little fuckin' punk kid

[Chorus]
Yeah
Son, look at you now
Yeah
Son, look at you now

Day of court, day of fear, in walks the judge
Half a year nothing less, no he wouldn't budge
Hand over your belongings and your motherfuckin' soul
That's the joy of life, six months in the hole

[Chorus]

You raped your mother, yeah you beat her down
Jesus can't protect you when your brain is unfound
Once so fuckin' tough, so motherfuckin' bad
13 years of grief is all your folks ever had

[Chorus]


3. STRONGER THAN DEATH

Hunt me down, seek me out, bring your best
That's how I want it to be
Full of doubt, full of fear, all's unclear
It's over cuz now I can see
Like a tank, seething strength, crushing all
Pulling you under my treads
Lost some years, lost some days, that's O.K.
I piss on what's in my way

[Chorus]

Your two-faced abusin'
Mindless confusion
Resolution
(I feel I'm breathing my first breath)
Manipulation
Dyin' salvation
You'll never rest
(You can't kill what's stronger than death)

Looked inside, found myself, it was me
Waitin' there at the well
If you're green, you ain't seen, life's a game
Sometimes it's just hard to tell
Gouging eyes, breakin' bones, eatin' flesh
Puts a smile on my face
Crawlin' through glass, eatin' nails, losin' blood
It's all part of findin' your place

[Chorus]


4. ALL FOR YOU

My neck has been broke in the noose of life's rope
Through My loss of you I have found no hope
Slain emotions, lifeless and blue
Destroying myself now

All for you

Remote recollections of tranquility
Terror grotesquely becoming of me
Unnamable joy when our blood once ran true
Destroying myself now

All for you


5: SUPERTERRORIZER

I'm your suicidal doomsday machine
Bestowing my grace on everything
My ill will shall never leave
Embracing until you cannot breathe


6. PHONEY SMILES & FAKE HELLOS

You, yeah you, yeah you
You got a cardboard cutout soul
Just a powertripping, mindraping, backstabbing junkie
Thinking your hype is true
You, yeah you, yeah you
Respect ain't a word you know
You're just a fabricated lie that doesn't exist
Dropping names wherever you go

[Chorus]
Life's phoney smiles and fake hellos
The hardcore rush of watching heads roll
As I dig your grave and kill your lifeless stare
Fuck yourself for all I fucking care

You, yeah you, yeah you
Thinking you know it all
35 years old with a wife and two kids
Still living and your mother's home
You, yeah you, yeah you
A sellout and a social whore
You'd sell your mother's soul just to get ahead
A disease down to the core

[Chorus]

You, yeah you, yeah you
Still haven't figured what it is you do
Just a no talent nothing with a ten ton ego
Until your 15 minutes are through
You, yeah you, yeah you
A conscience deaf and blind
I'm driving the hearse without remorse
Killing you and your kind

[Chorus]


7. LOST MY BETTER HALF

Lay To Rest
Bury The Dead
Tomorrow seems to turn so fast
Alone in the boiler meltin' me down
Ain't the first, won't be the last
So Many People all at once
Who I once was has died
Never feel the ills of breakin' down
Calloused & petrified

Slipped inside a hole
Don't know where it's gonna lead
Lost in a world all alone & I'm
Lookin' for me
I gotta get it back

Lay waste to a friend
Killing all the past
Pray that all is forgotten
Lost my better half

All That Was
All so fucked & trashed
Pray that all is forgotten
Lord I Feel I've Lost My Better Half

Wondering just how I got here
Shattered to the core
Lookin' to go back in time
Moving forward nevermore
On the verge of a breakdown
Run down, bludgeoned, and beat
All the things that you once held
Lying dead before your feet


8. BORED TO TEARS

Tired Of This
Done With That
Never Satisfied With Where I'm At
I Sit And Think
What To Do
Just A Motherfuckin' Bore
Without A Clue

Shot My Drugs
Drank My Booze
Tired Of Joy And Self Abuse
Eternally Jaded Through And Through
Just A Self Loathing Dick
Without A Clue

Oh
Bored To Death
I'm Just Bored To Tears
Same Old Shit Just Different Day & Year
Killed Myself But That Got Boring Too
So Beyond The Point Where It's Not True

Far Beyond High
Dramatically Low
Eternal Stare As If I Care To Know
All Of This Struggle
All Of This Work
In The End You Die Like Some Moronic Jerk

Shot My Drugs
Drank My Booze
Tired Of Joy And Self Abuse
Eternally Jaded Through And Through
Just A Self Loathing Fuck
Without A Clue

Oh
Bored To Death
I'm Just Bored To Tears
Same Old Shit Just Different Day & Year
Killed Myself But That Got Boring Too
So Beyond The Point Where It's Not True

The Colors I See Are All Bleeding
The Sound That Was Is Now Standing Still
I Wonder When It Was It All Faded
A Dullen Corpse That Cannot Be Killed

Oh
Bored To Death
I'm Just Bored To Tears
Same Old Shit Just Different Day & Year
Killed Myself But That Got Boring Too
So Beyond The Point Where It's Not True

The Rose Petalled Garden
Yeah.......

Alone In The Garden
And All That Would Be
Alone In The Garden
You thought would set you free
Nowhere to draw water
And If You Could It Would Be Damned
Go On Turn Your Back Now
On Everything...

Yeah.......


9. A.N.D.R.O.T.A.Z.

(Instrumental)


10. BORN TO BOOZE

A little hating in the morning time
a little hating come around noon
Ain't no remorse,
All that you think
Ain't no regret,
All that you do

Jesus,
Hell Yeah, What do we do?
Jesus,
Can you hear us screaming up above?
Lord?
I guess we were just born to lose

A little hating on my TV screen
A little hating in the news that I read
Lay to rest a soul so kind
Rewarding the wrong
Feeding The Twisted Mind

You Lookin' At Me
Forever hurt
Forever bleed
It ain't black
It ain't white
It ain't wrong
Lord knows it ain't right

Jesus,
Hell Yeah, What do we do?
Jesus,
Can you hear us screaming up above?
Lord?
I guess we were just...


11. WORLD OF TROUBLE

2...3...4...
I Drank All My Fucken Brew and I Ain't Gots No More....

Feeling so damn tired
Running on desperate fumes
For the end is
Always near, now
Empty handed
It's always soon
Psychocise me
Terrify me
Jeopardizing all that's mine
Megolamize me
Certify me
On my knees until I cry

Lord only knows where I've gone
Lord only knows where I've been

In a world of trouble again
Worries
Streaming 'round the bend

Treat me like a dog, now
Knowing I won't turn
Blind me like a slave, now
Cast Down
No concern


12. NO MORE TEARS

The light in the window is a crack in the sky
A stairway to darkness in the blink of an eye
A levee of tears to learn she'll never be coming back
The man in the dark will bring another attack

Your momma told you that you're not supposed to talk to strangers
Look in the mirror tell me do you think your life's in danger here, yeah

[Chorus]
No more tears

Another day passes as the night closes in
The red light goes on to say it's time to begin

I see the man around the corner waiting, does he see me?
I close my eyes and wait to hear the sound of someone screaming here

[Chorus]

So now that it's over can't we just say goodbye?
I'd like to move on and make the most of the night
Maybe we'll fuck before I leave you this way
Your lips are so cold I don't know what else to say

I never wanted it to end this way my love my darling
Believe me when I say to you in love I think I'm falling here

[Chorus]


13. THE BEGINNING...AT LAST

Have all you are and all you're to be
Fade in your world and all that you see
This hole in the wall is all under your thumb
Pulling your senses until you become

Until you become
I gotta run
I just gotta run
Cought in a world where
you could never run too fast
To finally reach
The Beginning...
...At Last

Dismantling comfort of those you surround
Place joy upon strangers
Now ain't that profound
This hole in the wall is under your thumb
Pulling your senses
Until you become...

Where You Going?
Never knowing
Just who and where
You gotta turn, turn
Forever caring
Forever sharing
You never learn, learn
Lifetime of getting burned, burned


DISC 2

1. HEART OF GOLD

I want to live
I want to give
Ive been a miner for a heart of gold
Its these reflections I never give
keeps me searching for a heart of gold
and im getting old
keeps me searching for a heart of gold
and im getting old


Ive been to Hollywood
I've been to Redwood
I'd cross the ocean for a heart of gold
I've been in my mind, it's such a fine line
keeps me searching for a heart of gold
and im getting old
keeps me searching for a heart of gold
and im getting old


2. SNOWBLIND

What you get and what you see
Things that don't come easily
Feeling happy in my vein
Icicles within my brain
(cocaine)

Something blowing in my head
Winds of ice, it soon will spread
Death would freeze my very soul
Makes me happy, makes me cold

My eyes are blind but I can see
The snowflakes glisten on the tree
The sun no longer sets me free, child
I feel there's no place freezing me

Let the winter sun shine on
Let me feel the frost of dawn
Fill my dreams with flakes of snow
Soon I'll feel the chilling glow

Don't you think I know what I'm doing
Don't tell me that it's doing me wrong
You're the one that's really a loser
This is where I feel I belong

Crystal world with winter flowers
Turns my day to frozen hours
Lying snowblind in the sun
Will my ice age ever come?


3. LIKE A BIRD

I sit back and I close my eyes
Lookin back at all the lows and all the highs
Through the black and white and in between
All the miles ive walked
The wars ive fought
And all ive seen

It all seems like yesterday
Like a bird, time just flies
No sooner than you said hello
Its time, its time, its time to say goodbye

Consumed by worry, stress and fear,
Never leanring to live
Weighed down by wondering why we're here
Collected memories
All thats in the end
I guess a sense of peace wasnt meant for some, my friend

It all seems like yesterday
Like a bird, time just flies
No sooner than you said hello
Its time, its time, its time to say goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

it all seems like yesterday
like a bird, time just flies
no sooner than you said hello
its time, its time, its time to say goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye


4. BLOOD IN THE WALL

So you're done with dealing
Yeah, so you don't say?
Caught in the river,
The dam is broke,
But you just want to stay.

Oh, we all got our reasons
Oh, a story to tell
Oh, you can look but you wont find it here, child
Oh, no you wont
Oh, nothings left but blood in the well

You've been gone for so long now
Save your pity, so thats what you say
You were never caught in the river
You broke the dam,
It's where you want to stay

Oh, we all got our reasons
Oh, a story to tell
Oh, you can look but you wont find it here, child
Oh, no you wont
Oh, nothings left but blood in the well

So you're done with dealing
Yeah, so you don't say?


5. THE BEGINNING...AT LAST

Have all you are and all you're to be
Fade in your world and all that you see
This hole in the wall is all under your thumb
Pulling your senses until you become

Until you become
I gotta run
I just gotta run
Cought in a world where
you could never run too fast
To finally reach
The Beginning...
...At Last