1. SWARM

I can't release you after all the things i put in you
My pointed edges seem to be always peeking through
This dead red skin feels nothing like what i make you see
I've gotta hold out something, i gotta hold out something Left for me

I give nothing
I always get something
I give nothing
I get something
I always get something

My angels wings are clipped from getting too high
I cough up hell and watch it swarm around inside
It's what i'm about, my favorite inside source is defeat
I'm on the losing side, i'm on the losing side of the bottom sheet

I give nothing
I always get something
I give nothing
I get something
I always get something

I have no wings
I have no heart
I dig inside
I tear it apart
I make you believe
I make you see
I show you the things you need to be
My open soul my blackened lies
You'll never see through this disguise
I have got it all
I am everything
I'll never die
I just do it again

Something


2. THE DREAMS THAT ROT IN YOUR HEART

Wrapped in transparent dreams
The way to the end is the means
Now you're caught in this web of things you shouldn't have said
And now it's totally true
No one is gonna save you
It's kinda sad how you just sit there trying to find words to say

I see everything

And now you're slipping away
And no one cares what you say
You're a slave to yourself
I'm glad you know it so well
I've got this beautiful view
Looking right down on you
It's kinda sad how you just sit there trying to find your own truth

I see everything

And i'm thinking of ways
To blow it apart
Just like all of the dreams
That rot in your heart
This shell turns to night
It shelters the light
And if fate is so drawn, you'll be left alone without anyone
Just seething without anyone
And if you think i am wrong
I could take you to a place inside my head where images are gray and red
I see everything


3. A CLOTH LIKE GAUZE

But it got stuck as i'm coming down
The way the sound moves when i hit the ground
A low, lower than i've ever been in
Shot so hard it stung like pins
The last time i drown my head
One last time before i go to bed
Buried underneath and getting farther lost
Turning this into a cloth like gauze

A cloth like gauze

But it got thick as i'm going down
The way i fall apart when i turn around
A low, lower than i've ever been in
It came so hard it made me spin
The last time you burn your friends
One last time before the burden ends
Buried underneath and getting farther lost
Turning this into a cloth like gauze

A cloth like gauze

People just let me down
I'd rather be alone by myself
Just the same as every face
Another hole in the human race


4. SOMETHING LEFT

I can't release you after all the things i put in you
My pointed edges seem to be always peeking through
This dead red skin feels nothing like what i make you see
I gotta hold out something, i gotta hold out something left for me

Something left
Something left
Something left
Something left

My angels wings are clipped to keep from getting too high
I cough up hell and watch it swarm around inside
It's what i'm about, my favorite inside source is defeat
I'm on the losing side, i'm on the losing side of the bottom sheet

Something left
Something left
Something left
Something left
Is there something left
There's nothing left


5. THE CUT COLLECTOR

Bored out hollow
This one's the keeper of sorrow
And one wish with a bullet of lead
Could end it all with a shot to the head (but she won't)
Held out, reload, the automatic repro
And what proof with the threat of death
She tried to die just by holding her breath

It all comes out
she cuts herself to release it
What a horrible spell
Its just release
She's the cut collector

Worn out shallow
Design the scars of your self-help
And one night with the promise of life
She stole time with the edge of a knife (but she won't)

It all comes out
She cuts herself to release it
What a horrible spell
Its just release
She's the cut collector


6. CRUSH

Drown me in this feeling celestial overload
Main line rush right through me
Let it slip inside wash the fear away
Scratch right through what i need

Reasons even i know
Like the moments left behind you
I couldn't help you if i could
Like the places you have been to
You're left reeling from the let down
Tired of this feeling a shadow i can't shake
It courses through me
Burning up inside crush like overdrive
It figures out, what i need

Reasons even i know
Like the moments left behind you
I couldn't help you if i could
Like the places you have been to
You're left reeling from the let down

Crush

Reasons even i know
Like the moments behind you
I couldn't help you if i could
Like the places you have been to
You're left reeling from the let down


7. BREED

Just was a little bit
Lust was a little bit
Fit was a little bit
Luck was a little bit
Life was a little bit
Like was a little bit
Light was a little bit
Night was a little bit
Love was a little bit gone
Was a little bit wrong
Was a little bit strong
Was a little bit
Like was a little bit
Tripe was a little bit
Plight was a little bit
Fuck was a lot of it

She loves reasons
Why we should breed
Some need thresholds
To keep off their knees
She gets around

Just was a little bit
Lust was a little bit
Fit was a little bit
Luck was a little bit
Life was a little bit
Like was a little bit
Light was a little bit
Night was a little bit
Love was a little bit gone
Was a little bit wrong
Was a little bit strong
Was a little bit
Like was a little bit
Tripe was a little bit
Plight was a little bit
Fuck was a lot of it

She loves reasons
Why we should breed
Some need thresholds
To keep off their knees
She gets around

I wish you were an angel
You might have some better things
Like a clue for something
And probably some wings
For when you go all over
Giving yourself away to anybody


8.TWO WIRES THIN

They would push it in they would turn and twist
They would laugh as the blade entered my back
I will burn them down, i will turn them out
I will plan all the ways i can get them back

It was in sight
Electric light
All growing dim
Two wires thin
Like burning flint
Down to the stick
It was so sick
Two wires thick

They would push it in they would grind and twist
They would laugh as the blade entered my back
I will tear them out, i will burn them down
I have reached the end of the line and this time

It was in sight
Electric light
All growing dim
Two wires thin
Like burning flint
Down to the stick
It was so sick
Two wires thick
I will get you back


9. SHAMEFACE

I will watch you go down with your plastic face laughing all the way
I will watch you fall down with your plastic heart laughing it all out
Nothing colder then an old friend betrayal has it's end
Like with such a trip and a little trick who wouldn't do what you do

You're not gonna save me
There's so much i've left here lately
So unfortunately
Luck has surely kicked me

Your nitrous secret seems all this treatment got burnt up in the threes
It's nothing to take it apart when you build it at a higher Rate than one could ever debate
And when we're in the mood for a twisting tale the kind of Curves that makes the man's ruin hurt
I'm in on the bottom but i'm looking up just as a broken Worth becomes a shattered rut
And like a little kill just here and there no one could Notice if they're not aware
I can tell it's nothing for you to let it all go when your Guilt is obsession at the next highest level
And your final release there is nothing that sweet the kind That makes the ruin of man repeat now go become your place Hide within the
Walls of yourself this is shameface


10. CARLA'S TARANTULAS

so i had a little brunch, lunch

had a few cocktails?

everything, everything
you know

yeah

no not today cause they were a little green by georgetown so we didn't risk it
you have to put them in the oven to ripen
and then when you want the pomegranates and all that other stuff that we bought – presidiums
you have to put bananas by your vegetables for your fruits to ripen cause there's a gas that comes off

goes off? it explodes?

goes off the bananas but it actually speeds the ripening process – so you know you don't know produce

well, the life cycle of a banana, yeah i mean

you know, you can um get high off the skins, did you ever try that?

really? you smoke the skins?

yeah, i think my brother tried that, no, i'm kidding,

i never smoked the skins before

no no, it wasn't him but it still the uh, what you have to do is you there is a oil in the skins or something that if you burn it
no
you know what that was?
you know that banana skins are poisonous?

yeah, might be

you know why?
cause the tarantula's

tarantulas?

they do, the tarantulas

from mexico?

dude don't you guys read national geographic around here?

yeah, i used to see the nice pictures of naked black women

uganda, you got it
so anyway, um i had a uganda party over the other day they, still don't know how to put their clothes on
they don't even have zippers nowadays

who's that? the tarantulas?

no, they use banana skins
so anyway, uh they're slippery, you know so don't ever leave banana peels out because you could slide, like in the air, double toe loop
i just watched ice skating, you guys are psychotic you have like, no idea what's going on in reality

i have no clue what's going on in ice skating

you do too

ice skating?

you have to go home you know, all the mexicans, puerto ricans, blacks, everybody out on the streets right now, i had to go through the heart of little mexico, little puerto rico, little honduras, everything today

how'd you like it?

i ruled

you ruled all over the puerto ricans and mexicans?

everybody

that's a nice thing

i ruled
you know i put in **unintelligible** tape, you want to hear it?

sure

i don't have it home

you don't have it?

my my my it's in my jacket the whole time, i'll go get it
sorry, it's in the car, cause i went to see if it would work and it didn't… cause my… how do i fix my

you went to the car that quick?

how do i fix my cassette player in the car, that's probably why i didn't mention it, cause that's really important

are you in the car right now?

oh. no.

cell phone?
got the hose in the window?

no

later?

how do i fix it, do i get tape cleaner or something?

you're drinking tape cleaner?

we'll put this in, see what this is.. everything i own is really good
that's why **unintelligible**

you rule, everything that you own is great

oh this is live, it's fun too, no, it's the smashing pumpkins good

cool

this is when they blacked out

this is when they were good, they did lots of smack

thank you

a little accident there. no, you can't tell me that
joe jackson, no

george jetson – i didn't know he was in the pumpkins

i didn't know i had this because i must have been sleeping with this tape

is that 16volt you are listening to?

no, hold on, let me fast forward
i fast for…. oh, this is the fuckin' radio
this is actually joe jackson
it's not being taped
this is good, you wanna hear it?

crank it up

bom bom – oh, he's my favorite

joe jackson plays with 16volt?

oh, sorry dude, i gotta listen to joe jackson, i figured you'd have a problem with it, but i think you can deal with it

have you ever heard of the band called 16volt?

…no
there was this guy who had a really stupid band…

yeah that's him

no, it's called sunset and vine but their…

sun sun, 16volt?
can you say that for me?

what, okay i'll turn it down no, alright, i'll put that phone down… goodnight

is that your mom?

stop, i just wanted to see… something i'm… that's very rude of you… i think you are getting a little bit over tired.
hello?

hello, who was that?

vinnie, she's really great

vinnie?

yeah

she?

joe jackson's on
see she wouldn't.. she… she was just, her nerves are really bad right now, she had to worry about last weekend

you ever seen a band called 16volt?

no!

turn the fucking mic off!